Chapter 58

Theo's pov :
I was cursing Alex in my mind why he opened his fucking mouth at the wrong time! Why couldn't he keep his mouth shut? I always regretted it when he found out about my feelings but I never imagined that he would announce it like that.
Jay thought that I told Alex about my feelings and hid it from him, but I didn't. He accidentally got to know about that. One day, when I made up my mind to risk our friendship and confess my feelings to Barbie, I was practising in the mirror what to say to Barbie and Alex came into my room at that time but he promised me that he won't tell anyone.
He broke his promise and I felt like there was nothing left in our friendship. How could he break his promise?
I gave up on my love and adored the friendship but in the end, I got nothing but the pain in my heart and hate in my friend's eyes for me. Perhaps I should have been a selfish bastard and confessed to Barbie ages ago.
"My brother loves your sister, and all of us have seen their love but you haven't, that's why you are feeling worried about Lia. Trust me, they will be fine and together," Barbie assured Ben and offered a genuine smile to Ben.
He was being restless and walking here and there since Jay left and we stopped Ben from following him. When I couldn't handle Lia's brother alone, I requested Barbie and Fiona to help me.
Nevertheless, they calmed down Ben, and he introduced himself to everyone else. George was too stunned to say something, he didn't utter a single word after coming out of the gaming room, he just sat with Fiona on the sofa.
I also smiled at him and tried to convince him. "I agree with Barbie, they make a good pair not just with the looks but with everything. You should be relaxed."
Now, I've lost my friends. There is no possibility of being friends again so I was free from that side. I should be selfish and ask out Barbie because I sacrificed my feelings and endured her torture due to our friendship. I knew before that Jay would react like that so there was no benefit in opening my heart to Barbie. Even if she will accept my love, her brother won't, and that's what I didn't want. I wanted to make everyone happy but in the end, it was all a mess. Somewhere my heart always felt that she also liked me. And now, it was the right time to tell her.
Gathering up my courage, I took a deep breath and decided to ask her out. "We need to talk, can you please come with me?" I asked Barbie while looking into her green hazel eyes.
My heart started beating so fast that I could count my heartbeat. Just one look at her could make me feel nervous. Only God knew how I would end up confiding my feelings to her!.
I have loved this girl since the day I saw her dancing in the dance competition at our school. We were classmates in elementary school, though I knew very well that she didn't remember me as her classmate, she knew me just as Jay's best friend. But my greedy heart wanted to be more than that.
Because of my serious accident, I was on bed rest for one and half years. And the outcome was I became friends with Jay, George, and Alex.
"What do we need to talk about?" Barbie frowned, folding her hands.
Everyone knew that she was hurt by Jay's words but she won't let it show to anybody that she was hurt and that's how Barbara Casano is! A strong and bossy girl who ruled the world with her smile and attitude.
"My feelings!" This girl could be the death of me. I inhaled a long breath and tightened my fists.
Her eyes widened for a second but she quickly controlled her expressions and put on a blank face again. "Fiona, where are Alex and Bella? Bella went to use the washroom, right? I didn't see her after that."
"I don't know about her but I perhaps saw Alex talking to someone on the phone when we were talking to Jay," Fiona shrugged and took a sip of cola.
"Okay! Please, take care of Ben! We will be back soon," she started walking towards her room and I followed her.
She gestured to me to sit on the couch and she sat on the next couch. I never came to her room before but it was gigantic, her room was full of her pictures and had lavender and white coloured walls. Expecting a common colour from Barbie was a joke, she didn't like pink colour everywhere unlike other girls.
"May I ask what's going on between you guys?" She broke the silence.
"Um, it's over!" I shrugged sadly. "That's why I was always afraid of telling you the truth."
She rolled her eyes and swallowed a lump in her throat before speaking again. "What are you talking about? It doesn't make any sense to me."
"Don't put your act on! I know you very well, don't pretend to be strange and strong! It was all my mistake that you saw Jay losing his temper and acting weird. I have kept this to myself for a very long time but now, I'm not scared of losing anything because eventually, I've lost that friendship already but I don't want to lose you." I directly told her everything because I was tired of handling everything alone.
Her green eyes glittered. "Loving you was like a mirage for me. I always felt that you love me but whenever I tried to know about your feelings, reality slapped me in the face." She smiled from ear to ear. "I never thought that you would even confess someday."
"Yes, Barbie! Today, I want to share with you everything that I was hiding from everyone. Do you remember a dance competition in fifth grade? I saw you for the first time on the stage dancing with a confident smile on your face and that time, I felt like you were the one for me. Before I could be friends with you, I had to take bed rest for one and a half years because of an accident so I joined the school two years later."
Her nose crinkled in a cute expression, she froze and stared at me with widened eyes. "You had a crush on me since the fifth grade?"
I nodded my head and glowed. "I thought I'll never be able to see you again, even when I was on my bed rest, I always thought about you. And the day, when I came to your house and saw you for the first time, I recognised you and thanked God for letting me meet you again!"
"Really? Isn't it like a fairytale?" A small smile appeared on her lips. Fuck! I could do anything to make her smile like that.
"Yes, it is! And I was always afraid of telling you because I wasn't sure if you would like me or hate me after my confession. Even though it was the second reason. The first reason was Jay, my friendship with Jay. I couldn't risk it, whenever I thought of asking you out, Jay's face came across my eyes and I immediately gave up," I pressed my lips to hide the pain of hiding it from everyone.
Barbie gave me a sympathetic look and stood up from the couch. "You chose your friendship over your love, hmm?" She sat on my lap and my heart skipped a beat. Her bold moves always make me feel heebie-jeebies in my stomach. This girl was the death of me.
The last time, when she asked me to dance with her on her birthday, I was flabbergasted. Not only me, everyone was but she said that I was a dancer so she wanted to see if she could dance with a professional or not.
Well, I'm not a professional dancer yet. I'm still learning and trying to chase perfection and satisfaction in the dance. I still have a long path to walk on and achieve my dreams.
And that was the best dance of my life still, the closeness we shared during the dance made my cock harder and swollen. Her fragrance was so overwhelming for me and I was experiencing the same floral fragrance of hers when she was sitting in my lap.
"If my friend would have been somebody else, I would have chosen my love because if your friends make you choose between your friends or love, they are not loyal friends. But it was your brother, I knew if he ever gets to know about my feelings, he'll feel betrayed." I took a deep breath to control my breathing. Her closeness was affecting me too much.
My gaze was stuck at her plump lips and she started snickering. "You know, I love torturing you because you make me suffer from your silence so I take revenge like this." Oh! So she was doing it deliberately. Barbie continued further, "I thought that you'll feel envious of Derrick so I decided to flirt with him but when you didn't utter anything I decided to play hard so I asked him clearly about just pretending to be my boyfriend and he helped me."
I clenched my fist when she mentioned that fucker. "It worked out as you expected. When I saw you with that bastard in a restaurant, the urge to beat him to death emerged in me. On your shooting day, we found out that Alex was hiding his relationship with Bella from us, he broke the rule of our friendship and we fell apart. So I thought a lot about confessing but then, my heart reminded me that you were the sister of my friend and liking you would cost me to lose Jay."
She licked her lips. "So you love Jay more than me?" She laid her head on my shoulder to avoid eye contact with me.