Chapter 77

Jason's pov :
The way she broke down on the road last night, my heart broke into pieces when I looked at her from a safe distance, not to be caught by her staring at her. And that scene kept me awake the whole night.
I knew it was more of an asshole of me but I couldn't control my anger when the other guys laughed at me in the club when she walked away from me. Mortified me, couldn't remember my love for her but still, I was worried for her safety so I asked the cab driver to go to her and I followed that cab along with my car.
Her beautiful eyes were shedding tears and it made me feel more terrified and guilty. I wanted to go to her at that moment and apologise for my jerk behaviour but my pride didn't let me go after I broke up with her.
Why didn't I say something else? Was breaking up with her a necessary decision? Why was I too heated by that moment? Why were the other people's words affecting me that much?
I always regret my words, I don't know why I even open my mouth when I'm outraged. Barbie is right, I should learn to control my anger and keep my fucking mouth shut whenever I'm angry.
Nonetheless, she was the reason behind my losing my temper. I need to make things clear with her but before that, I should arrange some hangover medicines for Lia. She must be having a horrible hangover after drinking last night.
"Bring me three best hangover medicines! Right now!" I called the room service and within a minute a boy gave me my excuse for seeing her. I badly wanted to see her, to check if she was fine or not.
Taking a deep breath, I knocked on her door. No one came to open the door for a while. I was taking deep breaths to calm my anxious nerves. When I raised my hand to again knock on the door, Fiona opened the door and yawned. "What do you want Jay, in the early morning?"
Her hands were pressing her head as if it would reduce the pain. What do I want? I wanted Lia but she didn't come out of her room, I overlooked the room but she wasn't there.
"Here!" I handed her the medicine. "Hangover cure! Did she sleep last night?"
"Aww! You are so sweet and caring. Why don't you check by yourself?" She gave me some space to come into the room.
What would happen when she would get to know that this sweet and caring guy broke her best friend's heart yesterday night?
"No! I...I need to give this to Barbie." I showed her the medicine in my hand and I needed my sister when I was fucked up!
"Okay, then! See you in the afternoon! And please, don't knock on the door when you bring breakfast for your girl!" She took the key from the table and placed it in my palm. "Use this key! Don't disturb my sleep!" She rolled her eyes and closed the door.
I sighed and moved to Theo's room to get my answers to get rid of the weight of my chest. I knocked on the door and scowled at the thought that I was knocking on people's doors in the morning like a room service guy.
After a minute, Barbie popped up groaning. "Ah! My head!" She was wearing Theo's shirt that made me feel a bit uncomfortable.
She buried her fingertips in her hair and muttered, "What?"
I didn't say anything but handed her the medicine first. "Drink it fast! I want to talk to you."
"Not now! We can talk later, my head is blasting. Ugh!"
Here I was unable to even sleep and she wanted me to wait! I entered her room and took the glass of water from the table and gave it to her. "Be quick!"
She didn't ask any questions and took the medicine quickly. "Did you break up with Lia?" She asked me with her narrowed eyes and took a sip from the glass.
My eyes widened in shock. "How did you get to know?"
She spat the water of her mouth on my face, froze and stared at me with her wide eyes. "What the fuck!"
"I should say that, what the fuck!" I shook my head, rolling my eyes and wiping my face with my hands.
"Are you kidding me? Did you seriously break up with her?"
"Oh, please! Don't give me that disgusting look! I was, I was-"
"You were a shithead, bro! Why do you keep being a dick to her?" She walked away from me and sat on the couch.
I followed her and sat on another couch. "I know that. Will you please stop cursing me? I came here to get the answers to my questions." I avoided looking at her while she was sitting comfortably in Theo's shirt. It was so awkward for me to see her in my best friend's clothes and I got it very well from her wearing his shirt, whatever they did last night!
"Are you even in your senses? You broke her heart and instead of apologizing to her for being a dick, you are here to ask me some fucking questions? Do you even love her, care for her? I didn't expect this from you, you are becoming a different person." She shouted at me and threw the remaining water from the glass on me.
I deserved that so I didn't utter a word for that but wiped my face. "Of course, I love her! I know I made a mistake and I'm already regretting it. I couldn't even sleep last night, I love her too much to not care." I heaved a deep sigh and put my fingertips on my forehead.
"You know what, I'm so fed up with your immature mistakes and decisions. Do whatever you want, man!" Barbie aroused from the couch and moved to her bed.
"Barbie, I need your help. I don't know what to do," my voice came out as a whisper and my eyes were glossy.
She didn't even stop but kept hiking, she slept on the bed and didn't shoot me another glance. So my sister disowned me and denied helping me when I needed her the most.
I stepped towards my room thinking about what I should do about the pain that was killing me since last night. I sat on my bed and tried to peel off my aching heart by drinking the alcohol that was lying on the side of the bed from last night.
My sister didn't know that I was feeling so empty and broken, I couldn't cry because I was a man and a man isn't supposed to cry in front of anyone.
But behind the closed doors, when no one was there to see me, I let the water flow from my eyes to ease the pain that was making me feel so suffocating in my room!
I didn't even remember when the last time I cried, the moisture of my eyes showing me how vulnerable I was at that moment and my love for her was real. All I could think was her crying face and the pain was increasing per second. The guilt was eating my head and I had to go to the person who could understand me more than anyone else.
After taking a hot shower, I shortly got ready and chugged down the remaining alcohol before leaving for her room. I needed the courage and drinks could help me with that.
Taking a deep breath, I shoved the key into the knob and started searching for my girl. My subconscious was saying that she wasn't your girl anymore and this time, you are gonna have a hard time.
Slowly, I opened her room and entered without her permission. I checked out everywhere, even in the bathroom, did she leave the city without even telling me?
"Who the hell are you to expect anything from her?" My brain howled at me and after last night, why will she tell me anything?
Suddenly my knees started feeling so numb from the thought of her leaving me alone. However, I went into her room again and checked her wardrobe, I exhaled when I saw her dresses in it. I didn't even realize when the air stuck in my chest.
If it would be another time, I would have sniffed the panties that were emerging in her cupboard but now I need to search for her.
I went into the kitchen along the hallway but she was nowhere. I strolled over to the gym room and suddenly, my eyes caught a girl resting her head on the table and staring at the window.
My legs started shaking a little as the anxiety of facing her washed over me. Hurt was the last expression I wanted to see on her face. I slightly sat on the chair beside her, not making any noise to disturb her and laid my arm over her shoulder.
After a second, she looked at me and before she could say or do anything, I pulled her into a hug and held her back tightly. The fear of her leaving me alone was making a hole in my heart, I was so frightened that I grasped her tightly. "I'm sorry!"
She didn't hug me back and if I would expect that I would be a dumbass. "I can't live without you, I love you! I'm sorry, baby!" I murmured in her ear and caressed her hair with my palm.
As soon as I finished my words, Lia tried to remove my hold on her and I couldn't find a reason to keep my grasp so I let her pull away from my body.
I searched her eyes to see anything in that beautiful ocean but all I could see was hurt and pain that made me feel sinful. She still didn't say anything and started walking away from me but I held her wrist and made her look into my eyes with her chin.
She had put makeup on her face to hide the dark circles and puffiness on her face but I could see the truth. "You didn't sleep last night, did you?"
Sighing, she averted her gaze to the side and refused to utter a single word. Nothing was coming into my stupid mind, to say or do to persuade her to forgive me so I just locked my lips with hers.
She tried to protest but I kept kissing her and cupping her cheeks. The last time when I kissed her like that, she slapped me but everything got sorted out between us.
Lia pressed her hands on my chest and threw me off her. "You made me believe that the last time, I was a fool to trust you. I kissed you and let you ruin my self-respect but my love has destroyed me." She mumbled in a cold tone.