Chapter 7

"Dammit... That guy looks familiar... I have seen him before... Dammit... why didn't I look at his face... I've started again... let me think... where do I know that guy from?" Jennifer was standing at the restroom with a picture of whom she had just met...
"What should I do now...Yeah! He hasn't gone far... I've to follow him... There is no way I'll lose him again... I must make sure I remember where I know this guy from...Yes... I have to follow him"... I ran from behind and I could see his leg... I followed him from a distance and I must make sure I see his face... but, he's damn fast with his long legs...
'Please don't leave me...' I murmured to myself why I was following the young man and I made sure I wasn't followed also.
' Does this man has not stopping'
I've been following him and he doesn't seem to branch anywhere... I must get it clear... That tattoo on his neck... it clearly, I've seen it somewhere... Jennifer.... remember... you are not this dull... what has come over you that made you lose your memory...
I keep following the young man everywhere he goes and I'm pretty sure no one is following me... I smiled while following him until he took the left turn...
I quickly ran closer to make sure I didn't lose sight of him...
"I'm sorry... I'm sorry...." Jeffrey ran into me and his coffee poured on me... but that's none of my business... I had to follow that young man.
"I'm sorry... I'm sorry". He quickly brought out a handkerchief from his pocket and was acting nice and strange at me... the same partner in my office who is cruel to me...I raised my head and I couldn't see the man I was following...
"Dammit... what is wrong with you... are you blind or what... What all this about... Get out of my way you bastard...." I pushed him away, making him use his back to slam the wall...
"I'm sorry..." He shouted but that was none of my fucking business anymore... I just lost someone...
"Oops... Why am I still pressed...Oh! I didn't even urinate when I was in the male restroom... Dammit ... Why do I have to forget myself again...Oops. I feel my pants are wet... Hope it's not what I'm thinking... I can't bear it... I have to urinate anywhere..." I held myself under continuously as I tried to locate the female restroom but where I just came from is far from me.
"Hello ma'am, Please where is the female restroom". I asked while holding my panties like someone who just lost her control...
"Second ward... you will see a post on the wall...That is the female restroom" She replied while staring at me like a weirdo.
"Second ward? Thanks"... I quickly ran from her sight before someone saw me like this...
I tried to control it but within a second, I held my panties... I think I can't bear it anymore...I have to throw this away anywhere... I can't...
"Wait... Second ward... and I'm just in the first ward... Dammit... from here to the second ward will be like three hours... I can't bear it anymore... How do I even get distracted because of a man I didn't know..." I walked as fast as I could while I murmured to myself... I can feel my urine dropping in my panties but I can't help it.
As I walk fast to the second ward... I finally reached the restroom.
"Please... come out...." I yelled at the person inside...
"Come out..." I shouted again but the person seemed not to be answering me...
"Are you deaf... I'm dying... Please come out... don't make me lose myself..." This time I lay down on the floor joining my two legs together with my eyes covered in tears...
I slept on the floor for like two minutes and the person didn't seem to come out...
"Why do you have to take this long... What is wrong is you...I told you I'm dieing... can't you help me". I tried to stand up but the moment I tried to raise my leg from the ground.... a little drop of urine came out of my Virginia.
"Dammit... Today is screwed, I barely managed to reach here and now you are keeping me waiting... What is wrong with you..." I managed to stand up and yell at her... immediately, a woman walked into the restroom and entered the toilet while staring at me...
"What just happened? Do you mean this door has been open? Dammit... I'm screwed". I screamed and was about to faint but I still don't know why I can't close my eyes.
'Now I have to wait again... I'm a cursed child" I yelled again and this time I'm sure the woman heard me. It was like she felt pity for me and came out of the restroom.
"Thank you, ma'am". I greeted her as I crept with my body on the floor to the restroom...
I finally entered the restroom while the woman stared at me before she left...
I tried hard to stay strong before I tried to urinate...
"Oops... What is happening now... why can't I urinate... Dammit..." I yelled again while forcing myself to urinate but nothing seems to come out and deep down I'm pressed.
"Wait... why isn't anything coming out". I murmured to myself in silence with my string face trying to urine
"Please come out... Don't kill me" I force hard and a little drop comes out after screaming...
"Fuck... I'm tired..." I put on my trouser back and was about to leave the restroom but again... " Ahhhhh... I'm pressed". I yelled again while slamming the door with a force and looking back at the water closet.
"Fine... please be nice... Come out" I yelled out loudly while forcing myself.
"Glad no one is waiting for me outside...If it was me... I'll be pissed off already" My inner voice keeps consoling me...
"Arhhh....Thank God.... " I yelled and finally... drop by drop began to come out...
"Arhhh... finally". I'm relieved now from all the stress I've passed through..." I'll not hold this again.... I promise". I said to myself while leaving the restroom
As I walked out of the restroom, I found out that someone was waiting for me...
'Dammit... hope she didn't hear anything. I murmured to myself while staring at her before leaving the restroom...
I left the restroom feeling awkward so I went back to my office.
"Hi... sorry for taking so long... so what up"... I asked my partner but he didn't reply to me...
"Hello... Are you mad at me because of the way I pushed you..." I whispered politely but he didn't reply again...
"Fine... Have you don't what the secretary asked us to do... " I asked again and he snubs me with his look which tells me he's angry at me...
"Fine... since you don't want to talk to me... fine... I hate you...And... I regret having you as my partner..." I yelled at him again thinking he'll say something to me but he still didn't reply to me...
'I feel tired at this very moment... at least if there is nothing on Earth I couldn't do... I know... I'm good at one thing... I'm bad luck and useless...' My inner voice keeps me company since no one wants to talk to me...
' I'm not useless...I'll change the world... I believe... I know it... Yes... I'm not useless' I replied to my inner voice in silence while staring at the man who seemed not to talk to me but his laptop.
'Who said you'll change the world... You are useless... why can't you accept your fate for once... Don't you know... you haven't been home since because you are scared to accept your fate and now look at you... Still useless at work... now... no one wants to talk to you... Hahaha... we are in this together and we can't run away from it... ' Even my inner voice is laughing at me...
Now... I know where my problem comes from...I can't accept the fact that I'm useless to anyone around me...
"I can't bear it anymore... You don't want to talk to me... Why are you staring at me just as if I'm not your partner... don't you know we are supposed to interact with each other... What is wrong with you? I hate you and I'll continue to say it... I hate you". I slammed my fist hard on the desk and this shocked him... I was expecting he'll still talk to me but what he did was leave the office...
"Sir... Sorry for not visiting you... This work is stressful for me...And... And... I don't even know the kind of partner I have.... she....is... is... beautiful and strange... I don't know what's happening lately... I feel tired of this company already". Immediately the gateman saw Jeffrey, he ran inside and brought out the chess for them to play... Jeffrey noticed it and he was happy someone was smiling at him, not just like his partner I have feelings for...
"I thought you were not supposed to have a partner... Don't worry with time, you'll get over it... You are still adapting to the environment so don't worry". The gateman consoles me as he arranges the players on the chess board.
"I don't know what will happen... The secretary told me she's not giving my partner for the main time and I was happy... I don't know what will happen... The next day at work... I saw a girl in my office already..."Jeffrey complains while playing chess with the gateman... Although he's leading and was smiling at the same time...
"New girl... Did she wear the same cloth of yesterday?" The gateman asked while staring at me.
"Yes... I even asked her but something came up in the morning, so I didn't bother to ask her again...." Jeffrey continues to play chess with the gateman... And he found out that the gateman was staring at him just to calculate his next move, so he just lost to him but the game continued.
"Oh! That lady... I don't know what happened to her but she slept with me yesterday in this house... She came to me when everyone was gone and told me she has no home... I felt pity for her so I asked her to join me... But don't look at me that way... Am an old man... I can't do anything to someone just like my daughter". The gateman replied while I was staring at him... I ran out of words and my mind keeps telling me... ' I've messed up for not treating your partner nicely'
"I'm sorry sir... but I can't continue the game any longer... I had to do something I should have done in the morning"... I left the gate man with the unfinished game, trying to rush to my office before Mr. Samson approached me...
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" I hate my life... Look at me... Now everyone left me... I'm useless... He said I shouldn't touch his laptop and go anywhere near his seat... Now I'm sick of this office... Why do I even have to come here in the first place...Fuck this place... I hate everyone here... I'm tired... ". I slammed my fist on the desk and at the same time used my leg to kick the chair so hard that I winch in pain...
"Hello Mrs. Jennifer, This call is directed from the manager and you are needed up here urgently". An unknown voice talks to me... I looked upward and I saw that there was a camera and this even made me angrier...
"Oh shit! Is there even something like this in this office... Fuck you..." I used my left middle finger and pointed it directly at the camera...
"Fuck you... I hate you all" I yelled again while staring at the camera with the hope that someone is watching...