Chapter 115
Julian
I had got my wolf at a really young age, much younger than anyone else that I had known but I had never have a shift be so painful before.
It felt like every muscle in my body snapped and shattered. I could feel every hair on my body withdraw. And it was agony.
But I couldn’t scream , there was no chance of that because even though it felt like it was taking hours and hours I knew it was only a split second of agony.
Finally in my human form I fell back on the sweat soaked sheets completely spent. It felt like I had just run a hundred miles in one go.
Dazed and confused I stared straight upwards and frowned. Where was I?
I was in a bed, not my bed it wasn’t comfortable enough but it was still a bed. My brow furrowed even more which only gave me a headache.
The last thing I remembered was being shackled to a wall and then he had started on about what he was going to do to Cassie and I had broken free only to be-
“Cassie.” Her name left my mouth in a whooshed mumble.
There was moment to the side of me and I tried to turn my head that way but I couldn’t. Infact I couldn’t move much of my body at all. It felt like I was tied down.
Was I chained somewhere else? Had they laid me down to torture me in new and unusual ways.
It felt like something in me broke. Not my bones but in my spirit. Like my soul was shattering but not for myself. They could do whatever they wanted to me , but my family-
I thrashed wildly.
“Julian.” Warm soft hands pressed down on my shoulders firmly, pushing me back into the lumpy mattress. “Hush Julian, it’s me. I’m here.”
My body went rigid as my eyes tried to focus enough to find her face. And there she was.
“Cassie.” I said her name like a prayer. All breathy and hushed. “Is it really you?” I wanted to reach out and touch her cheek to make sure she wasn’t some sort of hallucination but my arms were bound to the bed.
“It’s me and you are safe. Just try and stay still ok. I’m going to get a light so I can check the stitches after your shift.”
There was a rustling and I cried out. I wanted to grab her and never let her go.
“Please don’t go.” I croaked instead.
Cassies sigh was loud but she didn’t leave. Instead she sat on fhe edge of the bed and stared down at me. Caressing me with her eyes.
“Why?”
“Why are you here?” She finished for me.
“Yea.”
“Because we freed you.” Cassie said simply.
Anger flowed through me, almost forcing me to shift again. “You did what?” I seethed. “Why would you do that? I told you-“
Leaning over me her eyes flashed. “You were dying. Stuck to the wall like a butterfly with a pin. What did you expect me to do? Just leave you there to die?”
I opened my mouth to speak and then shut it again with a snap. Searching the shadows of her face I sighed heavily. “Why not? I would think me being dead would be a gift after everything I did to you.” My voice cracked. “How I treated you.”
“I don’t know.” Cassie said quietly. “I should hate you but-“ almost timidly she reached across my chest and ran her fingers softly down my cheek. “But I don’t. Not enough to leave you to die anyway.”
“I’m glad you don’t hate me that much but I am still angry at you Cassie. You put yourself in unnecessary danger for me.”
Cassies sigh was loud. “I think I’ve been in danger from the moment we got married Julian. And I’m sure we are stronger together. At least until we get your throne back. After that-“ in the darkness I saw her shrug.
“I want you by my side. Now I know-“ my voice broke. I couldn't help it. She was mine. I just hadn’t realised it. Not until it was too late anyway.
“We will discuss that when you are better because-“
I felt the blood run from my face. It left me lightheaded. “I don’t mean the rejection.” And I hadn’t. I had just wanted her to leave me and save herself.
“Words don’t mean anything.” Another shrug. “Actions mean so much more. We don’t live in the dark ages anymore. But we will discuss this another time.” She lifted herself from the bed. “I’m just going to check the stitches quickly. If they aren’t too bad I will let you rest until I change them but if they aren’t-“ she glanced behind her. “Well if they aren’t then we will deal with that now.”
“I feel fine.” I found myself smiling. “I would feel better if you kissed me and laid down next to me. I think we would both sleep better.”
Cassie gave a tinkering laugh. “I am sure you would but I need to keep an eye on you for infections. I have something to help make sure that doesn’t happen.” She yawned, clapping a hand over her mouth. “Sorry, it’s been a long long few days.” She apologised.
“Then come and lay with me. And why the hell am I tied to the bed?”
“Because you kept trying to attack me when I was stitching you up and Ian felt bad about knocking you out all the time.”
“Ian knocked me out?” I arched an eyebrow.
“Several dozen times… well maybe not that many. But anyway you stay tied up until we know there’s no infection that will make you hallucinate and go on a rampage. If you need more pillows or blankets to be comfortable then I will get them.”
I stared in her general direction. “I am fine. But I would definitely be more comfortable with you by my side. Lay with me Cassie. Just let me be close to you.” That’s what I wanted more than anything. Not to fuck her , just to have her close to me. I knew it would speed up my healing and mend my soul at the same time.
“I can’t it’s almost four am.”
I frowned. “What happens then?”
“Your sons wake up for their breakfast which is me. So close your eyes. Sleep. Hopefully when you next wake up , you can meet them.”
Meet them? My heart lurched, and skipped a beat. My sons were in this room with me. We were finally all together. It should have filled me with joy.
So why did it fill me with dread instead?
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