Chapter 180
Julian
We woke up at the same time. Although I knew that Cassie hadn’t really been to sleep. She had just laid there all night. Unmoving and staring at the ceiling. Sleep had alluded me as well. I’d spent the night worrying about her. And throwing glances at her out of the corner of my eye.
She had been so evasive about what had happened last night but she couldn’t keep the fear out of her voice when she spoke about it. Especially when she that one word.
Lies.
It seemed to echo around my mind.
What was a lie? My love for her wasn’t. I knew that. Our babies weren’t either.
Me and Cassie was true. But everything else? What lies wrapped around us. I wasn’t a fool. I knew not everyone around me was truthful. Even back when I had just been a prince people had lied.
The real question was why Cassie had such a reaction to it? Did she have secrets? Was she telling me lies? And if so what could they be?
Rolling on my side I stared at her. She still hadn’t moved and I knew her body and muscles must be stiff.
“Good morning.” I said in a whisper.
“Morning.” She answered instantly.
Reaching our I ran my hands down her cheek. “How did you sleep?”
“Fine.” Her tone was clipped.
And there was the first lie of the day.
Moving closer to her , I held my weight up on my elbows and stared down at her exhausted looking face. “Please talk to me.” I said quietly.
Her eyes flicked up to meet mine. “I’m fine.”
Another lie. My eyebrows slammed down. “No you’re not. Please don’t keep secrets from me. What are you thinking right now.”
She gave a small shrug.
“Cassie.” I warned.
“I don’t know Julian.” Her voice was as tired as she looked. “I’ve been feeling out of it for a while. Like I’m walking through a dream.”
My eyes widened. “You’re not crazy.” I reminded her quickly. “I heard the boys as well. I wanted to go to them so badly. If you’re losing your mind then so am I.”
She smiled a little sadly. “I know and it’s not that. At first when I started hearing and seeing things I thought I might be nuts but now I know I’m not.” She took a deep breath. “It’s just-“ she paused.
“It’s just what?” I asked carefully. She was so fragile. Not because I thought she was going to break. I knew better than that. There was only one thing that would truly break her and that didn’t bear thinking about. I shook the thought away.
No, Cassie was fragile because she was letting me into what was worrying her instead of keeping it locked inside and dealing with it by herself.
“Does this feel real to you?” Finally she turned on to her side so we were face to face. “Does it?” She demanded.
I took a moment to mull over her questions and then I sighed. “Sometimes I feel like this is a nightmare.” I admitted. “So many bad things have happened to us and our people. I’ve made so many mistakes. Especially when it comes to you.” Carefully I leant forward and kissed her lips softly. “But this is real.” Another kiss, cassies lips didn’t soften under mine.
“Cassie.” I pulled away slightly. “Look at me.”
She did so reluctantly.
“This is real. When I touch you.” I ran my hands down her arms. “When I kiss you.” Another kiss on her lips and this time she kissed me back softly , which made my smile grow. “I know it’s real. Me and you are not a lie. Trust me in that.” Another kiss and this time her arms wrapped around my neck. Pulling me down on to her, so I half covered her body.
“Cling on to that, cling on to me and just believe in that.”
Murmured against her soft lips. “Our love is not a lie.”
Cassies arms tightened, pulling me down until I was crushing her. Her lips parted under mine. Her tongue came up to tangle with mine and then there was nothing else but me and her.
And in this uncertain time, this was exactly what we needed. Just a few moments to cling to each other and remind ourselves that we were the most realist thing in our world.
Our love was real.
A love that had started when we were just children and had somehow survived through everything to be stronger than ever.
Groaning, I rolled on top of her completely. Trapping her wrists against the pillows as I plundered her mouth. It was so easy to forget the rest of the world when I was kissing her.
A crash from outside the door, and the heavy thud of more than one set of footsteps sprinting past. Cassie snatched her head away. Her eyes wide.
Shouting hit my ears. Loud and insistent.
“Julian what is happening?” Cassie whispered.
“I don’t know. Stay here.” Heaving myself up from my bed I walked naked towards the door and flung it open.
“Your highness.” A maid skidded to a stop. Her eyes wide and looming no where but at my face. “We didn’t mean to-“
I cut her off. “What is happening?” I ordered.
“Someone just walked into our lands and asked for sanctuary.” She said breathlessly. “Someone from the palace.”
“Who?” I glanced behind me to where my wife was sat up in the bed clutching the sheets to her chest.
“I don’t know, the patrol is just brining her in now. Blonde and young is all I know. Excuse me I need to-“ she went to rush off and then hesitated. “She is pregnant as well. So maybe the queen will look at her and make sure she is ok. She is such a great doctor.”
I froze. My skin turning icy.
A pregnant blonde refugee?
“Thank you.” I closed the door softly and turned back to Cassie. Who looked shell shocked.
“It’s not-“ I began to say but I couldn’t finish because we both knew who it was going to be.
Megan.
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