Chapter 49 Chapter 49 - I Have Found Him

It was over an hour before I reached the address Nathan had texted me.
The house is not as enormous as their mansion.
Am I in the right place?
I put on my hoody jacket and cap before I got out of my car.
"Excuse me, is this the house of Nikolai La Marcus?" I asked the woman who passed by.
"Yes, that is that house you are looking for!" She pointed to the house.
Gotcha! I am already here at his house. I slowly made my way to the gate.
Upon holding the gate, it opened.
My God, why is the gate open?
My heartbeat accelerated.
I am feeling uncomfortable. I went inside. I was anxious to go but it was necessary.
It looks like Nikolai is here because there is a car in the garage.
I go straight to the door. I was about to ring the doorbell when I saw the door ajar.
He is probably inside. I relaxed deeply. I deliberately pushed the open door.
Nikolai's neat living room opened up to me. He is an organized person. It looks like a woman lives here because his house is extremely neat.
I removed my cap and laid it on the table. Then I took off my jacket.
I gradually explored the living room and kitchen.
Why does there seem to be no one? I saw the stairs up to the bedroom. I went up the stairs.
I was horrified by what I saw. There were red spots on the floor.
Is it blood? My chest feels taut. What did Nikolai do?
I covered my mouth. I was unable to check the red liquid that had dripped on the floor.
It is smudged towards a bedroom. What will I do?
I cannot imagine that I would see Nikolai lying on the bed or floor with his bloody wrist.
But I have to be brave. Perhaps I could still save him.
Hopefully, it is not too late yet. My whole body was shivering.
"My God, guide me!" I prayed before I opened the door.
The door opened as I turned the servo. There was still a drop of red liquid in the room.
I followed that stain. Can I do it? I can not seem to step on my feet. I stopped.
"Nikolai, where are you?" My poor question.
I forced myself to step. I was even more shocked when I saw Nikolai lying on the sofa in his room.
"My God!" I exclaimed.
He was wearing a white shirt and his shirt was full of blood. It was as if my vision was darkened by what I could see.
I closed my eyes for a moment. I should not be in a panic. Nikolai needs me.
"Nikolai, Nicks!" I called out for his name.
When I held his hand, it is almost filled with blood.
"Nicks, what did you do? Please, fight back! I am already here.
Nicks, Nicka is waiting for you. Do not leave her forever. She needs you!" While holding his hand.
"I will call for help." I looked for my cellphone in my pocket but it looks like I left it in the car.
"Sh*t! My cellphone!
Nicks, I am not mad at you! I realized that I have mistaken everything that I said and done to you.
I am just too fearful. I will bring Nicka back to you. I am not leaving TvN8 Station.
Nicks, wake up!" I moaned talking to him.
I listened to his heart. It is still throbbing. He is still alive.
"Nicks, please! Do not abandon Nicka. Do not leave me.
I love you, Nicks! When I first saw you, I loved you. I love you, Nicks! I want to tell you that first!
All of the people I love left me. Will you leave me too?
Do I receive no right to be happy? I have no right to be loved? Nicks!" My eyes were already inundated with tears that kept falling.
I caressed his face. And then I fondled my lips to his.
"I will take you to the hospital. I will not allow myself to be left behind again.
I do not want to lose the people I love." I stood up to call outside for help.
But I was startled when someone took my hand.
I quickly peeked at my hand. Nikolai clasped my hand.
"Nicks, wait, I will ask for help!" I also held his hand.
But he pulled me. I fell on his physique.
"Your wound might hurt! Are you okay?" I quickly confronted him.
Our faces are so close. Nikolai finally blinked. I found hope. Nikolai stared at me.
"I heard everything. Are they genuine?" He begged.
"Of course, Nicks! So let me call for help. Please, live for me and Nicka." I pleaded with him.
Nikolai fondled my face.
"Kiss me, Eve! Kiss me again!" His command.
"Nicks, let us get you to the hospital first." I scolded him.
"Even before I..." I did not let him speak.
Again I stroked my lips to his. Until Nicks' kisses became audacious.
It is as if his tongue is looking for something precious inside my orifice.
My God, please do not let this be our last kiss.
"Wait, please, I need to bring you to the hospital." I stopped him from what he was doing.
Nicks smiled at me. He was able to smile even though he is in suffering.
"You are not going to die, okay?" And I caressed him.
"Aahhhhh, oooouch..." he abruptly moaned.
"Does it hurt? Wait." And I sat down properly.
I looked at what he was complaining about.
"What is that? Is that the brush you stuck in yourself?" When I saw the brush on his stomach.
"I did not stab myself," Nicks announced.
"What did you do? You slashed your wrist?" I took his hand to check.
"Not either!" his answer.
"Why there is so much blood?" I begged while checking on his body.
"Eve, it is not blood. I am painting something and the pain dropped on the floor.
Then I fell sleepy so I lay down for a while to take a nap. Who said I was going to kill myself?" And he grabbed my arms.
"I know the real reason why you did not take Nicka back then. Then you do not report to TvN8 Station.
You do not go home. You do not answer your parents' calls, Nathan's calls.
So we thought you might have thought of committing suicide again." I explained to him.
"I am not going to TvN8 Station because you said you are leaving. You are going to resign.
I do not want to be there when you do that because for sure I will stop you.
I cannot call my parents and Nathan because I lost my phone. I also cut my line here because I have not been able to go home for a long time.
And the more I have no intention of committing suicide. I got over the past!
I will never plan that again! I just give myself space. My parents knew I would not do that again.
This has been my situation for a long time. Alone. Far away Separated.
They are used to it." Nicks clarified.
"You made all of us worry. Do not repeat it, okay?" I breathed a sigh of relief because of what he said.
"I am sorry, Eve! I am sorry if I mistreat you. I am sorry if I did not become a father Nicka. I abandoned her." He clenched my hand.
"I know everything. Daddy Ramon and Mommy Vina already told me. And I am sorry if I told them the truth." I apologized.
"Did you say about surrogacy? Wait, where is Nicka?" he asked.
"You have not told them yet. I was forced to tell because we are all fearful about you. Nicka is at your house with your parents." I rationalized.
"Does that mean, you are not mad at me anymore? I heard it all, Eve. Do not lie this time." Nicks' smiled.
"You have heard it all. What else can I say? I can take it back whenever I want." I admonished him.
"One more time, I will kiss you again." His teasing.
"Why did you give me a car? Why did you give me a house?
Even if you do not know the truth about Nicka yet." I pleaded.
"Because you are famous so you need that!" He only said.
"That is a deception! I already told you my true feelings. Did you know? The first time you defended me, I immediately felt like you are the right one for me.
That was why, when I was planning to hand over your brooch to you, I saw you with someone.
It was probably Genina. My heart was broken. But when Nicka came into my life, I feel complete.
Then when we met again, why does it seem like something is missing?" it is nice to feel free to tell him how I feel.
"What is missing?" He asked with a smile.
"All right, after all, I already said it all before. I will not be ashamed even if the feeling is not mutual.
You! You are the one missing in my life, Nicks!
When we met again, I felt I need someone in my life. A guy who would accept me for who I am and who I am not." I stared at him.
I can stare at him all day without getting exhausted. I lost all my fears the moment I said all the flesh of my heart. Whatever Nikolai's answer might be, I do not damn care.
He is safe. He is Nicka's biological father. He is with me again now. And most of all, I have already said how I feel for him.
He knew enough of the truth. I will ask nothing in return from the person who has done nothing but thinks of my welfare and safety.