Chapter 8 - Another Tragic Event

Nurse May accompanied me to go back to the condominium unit.
This occurrence was an eye-opener for me.
I need to take care of myself for one life is relying on me now.
"I am going to sleep here tonight." Said Nurse May.
"I can be alone here, Nurse May! Promise, I will take care of myself." I said with a smile.
"Even if you can, you better be with me. Ella cannot sleep here because she is occupied with work." Nurse May explained again.
"All right! Stay with me tonight." I consented.
I was just pretending I could do things independently.
During this time, I need more companions. And my baby needs us now. I need to be optimistic for her to be delighted too.
I am a worthless person if I will just let this little cutie inside my tummy suffer.
Just a few months and she will see how wonderful the world is despite difficulties.
"Eve, are you sure you are fine now?" Ella asked.
"I am pretty fine. But I could not just ignore my mother's death.
I miss her every day.
I am still hoping we are together especially in taking care of the baby." I answered weakly.
"You promised Doctor Angel to be more careful about yourself now.
That will benefit you and the baby.
We better stroll outside so you could unwind too." Ella's suggestion.
"Alright!
I think I need some relaxation." I agreed with her.
I changed my clothes and we went out.
"Hopefully when I get pregnant too, I will be that beautiful. Eve, you are blooming pregnant." Ella complimented me while wandering at the mall.
"I am hopeful with my pregnancy so maybe I am blooming. This pregnancy is somehow too tough.
The difficulty is that you are alone and have no partner in pregnancy. So you, Ella, choose the right person.
Being a mother is not an effortless job like ABC.
I just realized how Mama worked hard for me. She was all alone and all by herself." I am talking according to my experience.
It just occurred to me that I really should have a man with me that I can depend on during the time of my pregnancy, my mood swings, and my sentiments.
I should have a partner! A husband for that matter!
Why am I suddenly thinking of having a partner by my side now?
And when I thought of that, Mr. N abruptly entered my mind.
"I do not want to think about it! In the first place, I am still single." Ella further chuckled.
"You need to have a boyfriend first. Or you can inseminate like me." I laughed too.
"In two months, the baby will come out. Are you anxious?" Ella begged with concern.
"Honestly, I used to be fearful. But now that giving birth is too close, I am feeling enthusiastic.
I want to restrain her in my arms. I want a glimpse of her. Kiss her and hug her." I can already visualize my litany.
"Hey Eve, let me just remind you, maybe when you wake up, her parents have already got the baby." Ella's face was dreadful.
"Can I just run off with the baby? I do not want to give her to her parents anymore." I suddenly ejaculated.
"No! Never do that, Eve. You will be imprisoned. How about the baby? You will be more miserable. It is better not to be attached to her.
You better not see her. If you have no idea on how she looks like, you will not check out her.
Eve, you have your world. And it is yet to come. Someone will give you a child of your own. Just wait for it." Ella's litany.
Ella was right. It was very clear that I had signed legal papers.
What future can I give the baby if we keep hiding?
What am I going to do with her while I am jobless?
How can I continue my studies?
And how can I keep my promises to my Mom?
I must keep up with the plan. I must keep up with my pledge. I must keep up with the legal papers I have ratified.
I should stop reckoning things that are beyond my control!
I have to bear in mind that I do not own the baby.
I have her in my womb and our connection will end there.
After giving birth to her, she is no longer affiliated with me.
Unknown number calling...
Who could it be? This is an international number.
I do not have relatives abroad. Who would have contacted me?
"Hello!" I answered calmly.
"May I speak with Everlee Legazpi?" The one on the other line.
"Yes! Speaking!" I corroborated.
"Everlee, I am glad that I have heard your name again.
Please, take good care of my child. Thank you so much for having a golden heart.
You deserve all the happiness in the world. You are an angel. You are so considerate.
You deserve to be a mother!" Then I could not hear what she said next.
"Ma'am, Ma'am, I cannot hear you.
Ma'am, who are you? Ma'am." Until the call was cut off.
She is presumably the baby's real mother. It is a pity I did not even ask for her name. Even just her name.
I did not even thank them for what they have done for me and my Mom. They should not worry, I will take care of their baby until she comes out.
I do not deserve the baby. I cannot give her a better future.
And I am not going to do my plan anymore. She deserves to see her child. The baby merits the best life that her parents can provide her.
The baby is so restless. I have trouble sleeping at night. I was still wandering around before drowsiness visited me.
I peeped at the brooch lying on the table. I reached for that.
"Mr. N, where are you now? Are you still with that woman?
Hhhhhmmmm I hope you are happy with her. Because I do not want to aspire that we will convene again.
And I do not want to desire because I know you will not like me extremely if you know what I have done to myself." I rested the brooch near my heart.
My heart thumps rapidly again when I remembered the handsome face of Mr. N.
Why do I feel like this every time he reaches my mind?
My heart is apprehensive.
My heart is rejoicing.
The baby keeps moving furthermore.
Does she also feel that I am in love? That I am delighted?
Is that possible to fall in love with someone you do not even know?
Luigi is trying to woo me but I could only give him my friendship.
Why am so involved with Mr. N? I could not forget how he looks like!
I have more frequent check-ups now. And I have to be just more thorough to attain the terms before I give birth.
"Someone wants to talk to you, Eve!" And Doctor Angle handed over the phone to me.
"Hello!" I answered.
"Eve!" The one on the other line.
"It is Daniel. Doctor Dani's son," he added.
"Yes! How is Doctor Dani? Can I talk to him?" I felt excited when Doctor Dani's son called me.
"He is the reason why I called," he stopped talking.
It took him almost ten seconds of silence.
"Daniel, why? What is going on? Where is Doctor Dani?" I quickly inquired to him.
"What happened to Doctor Dani?" I asked almost in a whisper.
What is this apprehension that I abruptly felt?
"Dad is gone. He passed away." Daniel said stuttering.
"He had a heart attack!" Daniel added.
What? Is that credible? Is this another test in my life?
My supposed father is also gone. I have also been left behind by Doctor Dani.
"I will not stop you from mourning, as long as you think about the baby too." Advice from Doctor Angel.
I sobbed and sobbed when I arrived at the condominium.
What is going on in my life?
All the people I love are just leaving me.
Is this the stand-in for my judgments?
What did I do wrong to lose them?
Two months from now, I would whimper again. Because I will also lose my baby.
"Doctor Dani, you and Mama are together. Give her a hug for me. Please guide me all the more now that you were both gone!" When I talked to him in prayer.
The Lord will not give battles that I could get through!
"Your prayers for Doctor Dani will be heard in heaven." Ella while stroking my back.
"He was so tolerant to me. I treated him like a real father.
I lost someone again today!" I caught up with my chest.
"People come and go in our lives.
This is just a natural process of our existence.
We have to accept our destiny's verdict." she advised me.
"Yes, Ella! They come and go! The baby will do the same to me." I tried to smirk.
There is a reason for everything.
There is a remedy to all hardships.
These circumstances in my life are lessons to be learned.
These will make me tougher.
I will fall but I will surely stand up again and rise!