Does he want me?

Chapter eighteen
Gwen
My heart pounds madly in my chest as I anticipate what he's about to say.
Does he want to tell me he loves me? I mean that's the only reason I can think of. Reason why he would go so far is because of me.
Or why he would want to cross Heidi because of me.
I know Heidi saw me. And I'm sure she's planning currently. I told him to let me go the other time. Why wouldn't he listen to me?
Why didn't he just let me go? I'm tired of the world already.
But if Ryder can profess his love to me, will I seriously want to live?
I mean I've never had a boyfriend. Heidi ended updating every boy I ever loved in high school.
So, I've never dated and no guy has ever treated me the way Ryder is doing.
His expression looks so hard as if he's battling with something deep down in him. He looks hesitant.
He sighs, "I wanted to help you. I want you to live a good life. It's what I have ever wanted after the day I meant you at the court.
I smile. He remembers that day, and he thought about me living a good life.
No one has ever thought of me that way. And it only means Ryder has a soft spot for me.
Well, I wouldn't lie if I say I like Ryder. I mean I don't even know what I feel for him but I know I feel good, talking and staring at me now.
There's something deep down in me that he filled.
The other time, I wouldn't have gone to the party. if I knew Heidi would be around, I might have had a rethink.
I was just happy. I was glad someone cared for me so much to buy me clothes.
I knew the clothes cost more the moment I laid my eyes on him.
Well, I've heard a lot about him from the other attendant in the suite. He has no scandal with women and he is not a skirt-chaser.
If he's doing all this for me, then it only means he's doing it pure-hearted.
And I will forever be grateful to him. As far as I want death, I still want to enjoy the good things in life.
"You just smile," he says happily and smiles too, "You look good whenever you smile."
I laugh and look at his eyes. People have always remarked that his best feature was his entrancing, wayfarer-blue eyes. They could shine as bright as the evening stars when they were a-light with joy. At other times, they could resemble two liquid-blue pools of flashing fire.
For me, I love everything about him. He's my God now, someone I will always look up to.
I'm so glad he found me earlier.
I close my eyes as I feel the sleep overtake me again.
When I woke up again, a nurse was beside me and Ryder was nowhere to be found. Has he gone? Was I dreaming?
Was everything that I thought happened yesterday a dream?
I sit up and look at the nurse. The nurse turns towards me with an injection, "Oh, you are up already," a bright smile was on her face.
I watch her press the injection into the IV that has been connected through a small hose into my body.
"Where's _?" I stop unable to pronounce his name. I don't even know if I'm supposed to address him as Ryder.
"You mean Ryder?" The nurse's face sparkled up. I like her carefree attitude.
I nod my head briefly when I realized I had a painful throat when I tried to speak the other time.
"Well, he went out but he will be here soon," she moved away and walk back with a bowl. She stretches out a toothbrush, " You should brush your teeth. You can bath whenever you are done with your medication for today."
I raise a brow at her. What does she mean by my medication for today, " What do you mean by that."
She laughs, "Because you will be getting discharged. You are all better now."
Really? My eyes twinkle with excitement. I'm so happy.
I brush my teeth and the nurse helps me throw away the water.
I was told to lay back on the bed which I did and await Ryder.
After what seemed like an eternity, though it was only half an hour in the mundane world, the door opens and Ryder strides in. He held a smile on his face as he walk closer to m, with two nylon bags with him.
"Good morning darling!" He said as if there was happy news. Maybe he already knows I will be allowed to go home today.
I'm so happy about it. I sit up immediately and turn towards him, a wide smile on my face too.
"How are you this morning?" He takes a seat beside me.
"I feel fine," I look over at the nylon bags, "What is that?"
"Food!" His eyes twinkle with excitement. He brings out disposable plates full of rice. He gives one to me and keeps one for himself.
He gives me a spoon and I look at the food hungrily. I pull the rebellious lock of hair behind my ear so I will be able to eat the door very well.
I've been starving since yesterday night. I delve into the food like a hungry lion.
I feel Ryder's gaze on me. So, I look up and caught him looking.
He smiles, "Take it little. No one will collect it from you," he teases and I laugh before putting my attention back to my food.
After eating, I was escorted to the car by Ryder's chauffeur. I heard his name is James.
Ryder said he would meet me ahead. I understand anyways if he doesn't want to walk together with me.
I understand and I will never hate him for that. He's in the spotlight, so he needs to be very careful especially now that he's termed as Heidi's boyfriend on the internet already.
"Miss, please enter the car," James says and opens the door for me. I enter and watch him move to the driver's seat.
Ryder walks out, his phone in his hand. He was holding nothing.
Wait for a minute, where the fuck is my bag.
Ryder enters beside me, "Drive."
"Wait!" I say suddenly before James would start the car. I turn to look at him, " Where is my bag?"
He raises a confused brow, "What bag?"
My body vibrates at the amount of money I have in my bank. The one I've been saving and the one the manager gave me.
"I had it yesterday night," I tried to explain, stopping myself from crying, "I have my credit card in there. It's like my whole life saving," I lament as I held my head in my hand.
What am I going to do? Just what should I do?
I heard Ryder sigh and then, he stretch out a black card to me, "That's my card. You know the amount you lose right? Take it from this."
I shake my head negatively at myself, " No, I can't do that."
" It's my fault that you lost your bag and card. And now, you will need to get new clothes and a bag. Please take it," he says softly, his eyes pleading.
I collect it slowly, looking at the black card with shock. I've always seen black cards. Most of our customers at Rock and Brew always use black cards.
I don't believe Ryder has a black card.
I turn my head towards him, "Thanks."
He looks at me and made a slight smile, "Drive," he says again and suddenly starts talking to someone on the phone.
James pulls out of the street while I continue to stare at the card. If he gives me this, does that mean he has a lot of cards?
OMG! He's so rich.
He finally turns towards me, "So, I'm taking you home. I figure out you might need that for a while. Or will you like to be alone?"
I shake my head negatively, " Your house sounds good but can I have something I would do to repay you?"
"No, you don't need that," he protested ruefully.
I sigh and give him a cat-eyed, "Please, I beseech you. Let me."
He thinks for a while before nodding slowly, " ok, you can do that."
I smile gratitude at him as the car pull into a spacious building.
We get down and walk for a while before entering.
Walls and ceilings were covered with mirrors, a high-tech bordello.
Two tall windows allows sunlight to flood inside the room. There was sheer lace curtain bordered by heavy burgundy drapes matching the color of the chairs.
There stood at the middle of the room, a big chandelier.
Being rich is an understatement, Ryder is very wealthy.
There were three ladies already standing inside.
When we walk in, they bow their head slightly, "Welcome boss," they say together.
Ryder looks at them for a while, " How are you all doing?"
"Fine," a young lady says, with a bright smile on her face.
" We waited for your last night. Why didn't you come home?" Another says, lifting her head. She looks older than the rest of them.
Ryder sighs, "I had an issue to attend to. He glanced back at me, " That reminds me. Here's Gwen," he gestured towards me.
Every head turns towards me. I bow my head slightly as I don't even know what to say.
"She's Gwen and she will be joining you guys."
I look up and meant a lady's furious gaze on me. She seems to bed only one giving me a look that isn't nice.
Why does it feel like I'm going into what I just came out from?
OMG!