Come to me

Chapter fifty-nine
Gwen
I got back to our apartment. Myra wasn't home when I walked in.
I went to sleep immediately. I've never felt so tired in my entire life. I tried Ryder's line but he wouldn't pick up.
I have no other means to get him. In fact, I told Mrs. Johnson to help me call him but he didn't pick up either.
I'm sure he would pick Myra's call but even I didn't meet her when I got home.
Devastated, I had to force myself to sleep.
I wake up two hours later. I walk into the kitchen for something to eat. I decide on cereal because I have no strength to start cooking.
It feels like I've drained all my energy. All I want is to see Ryder and let him know I didn't mean it.
I didn't even know he was so disappointed in the fact that I hate older men. Gosh, I seriously didn't mean to hurt him.
I'm so much in pain right now that I can only think of nothing but seeing him and apologizing.
The door creaks open and I sit up. Is that Ryder?
I walk with fast strides inside the living room. I see Myra entering her room. I sigh and walk back into the kitchen to finish up with my food.
But then, I can still ask Myra to help me speak with him. I'm sure he wouldn't ignore her call. She's her cousin after all.
I finish up with my food and wash the dishes before walking back into the sitting room.
I walk to Myra's door and knock slightly, "Hi Myra!"
There was no answer so I knock again.
"Yes, Gwen?"
"Yes, can I come in?"
"Yes," she whispers and groans.
I sincerely wonder what she's doing groaning like that. I walk in nevertheless. She's in the bathroom but the door is locked.
"Just give me a few seconds to clean up," she says, breathing as if she just went to a battlefield.
Well, Myra can be weird sometimes.
I sit on the chair and wait for her.
She walks out in her towel, her smiling mouth almost reaching her ears, "Gwen, how are you?"
I look away as I think about it. Should I tell her the truth or not? Well, she's his cousin, wouldn't it be better if she knows the truth.
It will help me greatly. She will be able to know when to come in.
I look up at her, "I went out to see a friend of mine at Rock and Brew but it turns out that Ryder is the uncle of the owner of the restaurant."
" Oh," she nods severally, " Are you talking about David?"
"You know him too?" I let my surprise self take the best of me
What am I saying? Why won't Myra know David when Ryder already knows him.
She smiles and nods again, "Yes, he's my brother. I'm like his aunt."
"Oh," I say out loud so she would know I've realized my mistake.
She walks and sits beside me, "So, what happened?"
"I mistakenly told Ryder that I do like David back then. And he ask me if I really do like younger men and I said yes."
" I didn't really mean it. I mean I do like younger guys but I love Ryder. We all know he's older than I am with thirteen straight years but that's not the main issue."
" I don't know why it hurts so much but Ryder hasn't been picking up since then and he didn't go home either."
Myra sighed, " That was Ryder's weakness towards having you."
I look at her, surprised. It's funny I call her Myra now, and not Lizzy that I was used to.
"Ryder feared you would reject him because of the age difference. And it just seemed like you will actually do. That's why he's avoiding you."
" Please, can you help me to call him? I want to apologize and let him know I didn't mean all I said. I mean I do like younger guys but he's an exception."
" Alright," she stands and walks away to the shelf. She picks up her phone and dials Ryder's number. She presses the speaker button so I will be able to hear Ryder's voice.
The receiver couldn't be reached.
Myra tried again and then again but it kept saying the same thing.
I wonder where he is currently.
I watch Myra walk back to me, my eyes full of tears already, "Is he avoiding me?"
"No Gwen, I don't think so but he needs some time to himself," Myra sits beside me and pulls my head to herself.
I couldn't stop the tears. Why is Ryder doing this to me?
Gosh! Why does it hurt so much? I shouldn't have said something like this. I shouldn't have to be bothered explaining.
No, I shouldn't have left home, I should have stayed behind and gotten it all done with.
"Don't worry Gwen. A great event is happening tomorrow and I'm sure Ryder will be delighted to have you follow him. He will be here to pick you up, I'm sure of it!"
I look up at her, with hopes in my eyes, " Are you sure of that?"
She smiles and nods slowly, "Very sure dear. Now, don't cry," she says and wipes off the tears on my cheek.
My heart made a thud as I think about it. I'm really waiting. Gosh! I'm so devastated.
Myra wraps her hand around me and pats me slowly. I think that's all I want.
Hope that Ryder will come back to me. Hope that I haven't really hurt him. Gosh, I won't be able to forgive myself if he doesn't show up tomorrow.
Well, I remember he told me about a party. And he promised I would go with him. I guess the party is tomorrow.
Then, we will definitely see. I just can't wait for tomorrow to come.
I will apologize and accept him immediately. Gosh, I don't want to imagine my life without him.