My first ambition

Chapter forty
Gwen
I don't believe it. Why will he be so kind to me? Why will he even come all the way here to apologize?
He told me he likes me. I don't believe Ryder likes me.
How I wish he loves me. All the same, I'm happy I am special to someone. And that someone is afraid of losing me.
It doesn't matter who the person takes me as. I'm happy Ryder is my friend and he considers me as one.
There's one thing I've noticed about him, especially with his dealing with his house helpers.
I remember how Lizzy does refer to him and he's not even angry about it. He's not the strict, no-nonsense type. And he's very gentle and kind and caring.
And he's friendly to everyone including the housekeepers. Everyone is happy working for him.
And everyone gets to move out or go anywhere anytime.
I wasn't allowed this opportunity even in my father's house. I was not even allowed to smile.
If at all I will want to get married, it will be to someone like Ryder. Though, the age gap shouldn't be too much.
I want someone of at least twenty-five to twenty-eight years of age.
Ryder is thirty-five and it's too much. Though, I still wonder why he's not married at this time.
He's now my friend, so I can ask him questions about him, right?
I look up at him, "I don't think I can collect it."
Why will he want to give me his black card? I stare at the black shining card. It's beautiful and I will love to have it even if it's for that reason. And the fact that I want to hold unto something that belongs to Ryder.
He smiles and pulls at my cheeks slightly, "You look cute whenever you do that."
I laugh, the action already becoming more accustomed to my mouth.
"It's yours now. The moment I give people my card, I don't collect it back."
" Is that true?" I look up at her in wonder. He's really good and so kind.
He nods slowly, "Now, let's go," he holds my hand and pulls me into his car. He opens the door for me which seems so strange.
When I get in, he closes the door and walks to the driver's seat.
"Are you ready to see my house?"
I look at her and nod briefly.
He made to start the ignition but stops suddenly and looks at me, "I forgot to tell you something. I've always wanted to give you something but I was too ashamed to do so."
I wonder what that is.
I raise a brow at him, " What's it?"
He stares at me for a while and my heart increases suddenly. I look away slowly, unable to stop my heart from beating so hard.
It feels like he would hear it and that will be too embarrassing for me.
"I got you some clothes," he says suddenly.
The statement forces my face up to look at him again. He did what?
He smiles now, "I got you some nice clothes. They are all packaged and are in my room. I will like it if you can collect it from me."
I smile at him, unable to believe this is happening to me. No one has ever gotten me something. Ryder was the first person to get me a dress. The one Heidi ruined.
I can't believe he thought about me and got me some clothes.
I pull him into a hug before I could even think of what I was about to do.
I pull back quickly and play with my finger.
"I'm sorry. I was just happy. I didn't mean to come at you so sudden."
He laughs, his deep voice made me laugh too. He seems so perfect. I envy whoever will get married to him.
He's so perfect.
"It's ok, friends can do more than that. I kiss you the other time, didn't I?"
I blush slightly at the announcement. How can he say that so bluntly?
" Did you feel offended the other time?"
"No, I did not."
Actually, I felt flustered. It feels like he should continue kissing me. But I didn't feel angry.
"Can we go then?"
I nod briefly. I feel so overjoyed. I will be returning home and a new pair of clothes are waiting for me.
Aside from that, I got a black beautiful card. I don't believe all these blessings came at once.
A few minutes ago, I thought I had lost it all.I thought I was going to start from scratch.
"So, what will you like to be in the future?" He asks, his concentration on the road ahead.
I take a breathe. Seriously, I don't know what my ambition is. I've never dreamt. I was about to start when things got so bad between me and Ryder.
I look at Ryder.
But now, my number one ambition is to be someone close to Ryder. That's what I want for now and what I plan to get no matter what.