I tripped before him

Chapters twenty-three
Gwen
I stare wide at Ryder and Mimi. I thought Ryder isn't a skirt chaser. No, that's not it.
He didn't have any interest in Heidi because he actually loves Mimi.
"Let go to the other side," Lizzy says, pulling me along with her.
We walk back to the living room and Lizzy turns to look at me again, "We shouldn't have gone to the garden."
I look at her too, "Well, when will Mrs. Johnson be back."
Mrs. Johnson went out yesterday and hasn't been back. Mimi cooked Ryder's food today.
And I don't believe these two were actually dating. I mean who would have known? Also, why is everyone talking about Heidi?
I know Ryder doesn't love Heidi, maybe it's because of Mimi. Good for them. I hope Heidi will get this soon so she will stop chasing me. Ryder only wanted to help me, nothing much.
Why then does it hurt so much? I let out a sigh, I open and close my eyes, "Can we go out?"
"Yes," she nods slowly, "We are allowed to go out in the evening and we can return whenever we want."
I smile at her, " I wanted to get some clothes."
" Come, I will take you," she says and walk out. I run inside my room and take the debit card before rushing after Lizzy
I Follow quickly. Ryder wasn't in the compound. Maybe he's still having his romantic moment with Mimi. Actually, they look so good together.
The only reason why I'm here is that I have no choice and also, I've promised to pay Ryder back for the good things he's done for me.
And I will make sure that happens, no matter what.
Lizzy led me to a boutique at the estate. I try to place my heart on something, anything that doesn't involve Ryder.
Ok, well, I can't deny the fact that I think I love Ryder. But I'm never going to be his type. Ladies like Heidi and Mimi are. And besides, he loves Mimi.
"Spend this money," Lizzy would say whenever she selects expensive clothes. I would sigh and eventually accept it.
Not that I have a choice anyway because she would always try to convince me to take it.
I had lots of things to think of anyways. I don't know why I'm so bothered by who Ryder date, and I'm unable to stop myself from thinking about it.
How do I want my life to be? How do I want it to be in the next five years?
Obviously, Ryder would have gotten married to the love of his life. Damn! Why am I thinking about such?
"Hey!" Lizzy screams at my face and I jerk out of my thoughts, "What are you thinking of?"
I blink once, then twice as I stare into her eyes, " Nothing," I starmer, giving me away.
She sits beside me, " There's something I want to ask. Do you think Ryder is dating Heidi or Mimi?"
My eyes went wider before I could stop myself, " Why are you asking me something like that? He can date whosoever he wants."
She made a light chuckle, " And you think I didn't see you?"
I blink again, confused, "What are you talking about?"
She let out a sigh and looks around as if scared Ryder might be around, " I saw the look you gave Ryder when you saw him kiss Mimi. I know that look! You were shocked and jealous. Do you also love Ryder?"
I shake my head quickly, severally, 'No, I don't. I was just surprised he's dating Mimi and also letting her work at his place."
" Mimi came of her own volition. Ryder didn't force her and she couldn't be stopped. Mimi is very hard."
I fake a smile, " It's alright then," I stand, " I want to get a nice phone too. Will you follow me?"
It was eight when we got back home. I intentionally made Lizzy stay longer because I don't want to see Ryder at the moment.
The reason why that is so is something I can't even explain. All I know is that I want to be on my own.
I asked Lizzy if we were allowed to stay late and she gave me a positive answer.
I would have enjoyed this night if it wasn't for what I'd been thinking about. Even though I still wonder why I'm thinking of something like that.
I and Lizzy went to the bar and she drank herself to stupor as if she's the one that just saw her crush kiss another woman. That lady amazes me so much.
Well, I managed to take a blue cocktail.
Actually, it amazes me that we could be free to do things like this. Even though we are being paid.
I was not allowed that kind of freedom at home. My stepsisters and stepmother treated me like trash.
I made sure Lizzy gets to her bed. I cover her with the duvet before walking out.
I wonder if Mimi is with Ryder in his bedroom. Jeez! The thought gives me goosebumps.
And well, Mr. Johnson isn't around. I called her earlier and she said she will be back by tomorrow.
Finally! I feel free! I walk to my room and start slipping out of the gown I'm wearing.
I need a long warm bath, seriously. I need to sink myself in for hours before I sleep.
When I'm in my lingerie, I switch on the light and turn around to look at Ryder.
My eyes went wide in shock as I stare at him, then remembered I'm naked.
I scream!