Main girlfriend

Chapter forty-nine
Gwen
We got a lot of clothes yesterday and shoes and begs.
Lizzy also brought lots of things from her money. I discover she has a lot of money as well. She has been saving from her monthly salary.
Well, I couldn't tell her Ryder gave me mine in a day.
She discovered anyways. She's so brilliant and catches things quickly.
Well, it seems like she has seen the black card with Ryder before. She just kind of put the images together.
Anyways, I ended up spending five hundred thousand dollars.
Damn! That's huge
It was just like I didn't see Ryder yesterday. Yesterday, he only looked at me for few minutes before walking out.
And I didn't see him when I got home.
It looks so boring without him. I mean I can't help but feel lonely yesterday and jealous. I know he was up with his girlfriend.
Do I think I can be Ryder's girlfriend? Of course! I think I like him so much now.
Yesterday, after we kissed, I couldn't stop thinking about it. I couldn't stop asking myself the questions Mrs. Johnson had asked me numerous times.
I think I'm falling in love with Ryder. I feel somehow thinking about this but isn't it the truth?
It's just that Ryder will never see me as a lover. Or maybe he doesn't even want a lady as young as I am. He's thirteen years older, he must probably want someone that he's at least five years older.
Gosh, I don't believe I'm thinking so hard about this matter.
The door opens again. I look up at Lizzy. I've been packing my clothes since I will finally be leaving this house by tomorrow.
Gosh, I'm going to miss Ryder.
"Aren't you done?" She walks closer.
I turn to zip up my bag, "Just done."
"Oh, better because Ryder is waiting for us in the living room."
My heart made a thud. I look up at Lizzy again, " He's in the room?"
Lizzy nods slowly, "Be fast," she advises before walking out.
My hands shake slightly. I rush to the mirror and look at how I am. Satisfied with my look, I walk out.
But Ryder isn't in the living room. I thought Lizzy said he was. Gosh, I feel so anxious to see him again. It seems like I've seen him a long time ago.
Lizzy walks inside again and looks at my miserable body, "We are waiting for you outside."
I rush out together with her. Ryder is already in the car. Lizzy moves to the passenger's seat.
Dejectedly, I open the back door and squeeze myself in. I look up at Ryder's side face. He looks handsome every time. Why is he so perfect?
My heart starts racing. I swallow hard and look away. Gosh, I've missed him so much. I wonder how it will be when I'm finally in school.
Lizzy said something and Ryder laugh before starting the engine and driving us out of the compound.
I stare for a while, amazed and shocked at how easy these two are conversing as if they are long-time friends.
It makes me look like a third party and my heart hurt so much because of it. I can't stop thinking about it.
Well, he saw Lizzy before he saw me. What was I thinking of? Was I expecting him to give me a different treatment? I'm his friend, so is Lizzy.
Gosh, I'm just giving myself a headache.
I decide to surf the internet and check how Oxford looks. Perhaps, I will stop feeling jealous of these two in front of me.
"I was always scared!" Lizzy scream suddenly and laugh. I look up at them for a moment and sigh. I can't wait for us to get to school.
The moment I saw the sigh from afar, my heart made another thud. Though, I wonder what difference it made. Lizzy and Ryder continue to chat.
Once, Lizzy had touched Ryder's hand. Something like electricity passed through me. I said I would surf through the internet but I couldn't concentrate.
What the heck is happening to me. I said I can never marry a man as old as Ryder.
Ok, I've changed my mind and said I can have him as a girlfriend. Gosh, why am I so confused?
"We are here!" Lizzy jubilate and looks back at me, a bright smile on her face.
Ryder pulls the car to a stop. I hurry to get down. I give the beautiful school deep scrutiny.
It's so beautiful.
I turn around and see Ryder walk to Lizzy. He stretches to take something from her hair.
"What's it?" Lizzy says fearfully, jumping up on Ryder.
"Calm down," Ryder's deep voice says, as he pulls whatever was on her hair out. He didn't let go of her immediately. Instead, his arms were around her.
Then, suddenly it came at me.
The lady Ryder was talking about, the one Ryder would like to marry is Lizzy.