Whats this

Chapter twenty-nine
Gwen
I roll on the bed until I feel my body hit the floor, pains shot through me.
I open my eyes and look around me. I'm still in my room.
I had a dream that Ryder professed his love to me. I was so happy that I jumped up and lost my footing. I can't believe it was a dream.
I stretch and dart at the wall clock. It's nine in the morning. I slept for so long that I'd forgotten what I'm supposed to do.
I run out of the room and into the kitchen. I don't even know what I'm supposed to do in this house. Mrs. Johnson has not given me a role. But I know that includes taking food to Ryder.
"Good morning Mrs. Johnson," I move closer to her with a wide smile on my face.
"You woke up earlier, what did you drink?"
I laugh, "Has Ryder eaten?"
"No, he's sleeping currently. I will take it to him by ten."
" OMG? My head hurts a lot," Lizzy whine as she walks inside the kitchen.
" You drank too much yesterday that you woke up late and now you are complaining about head pain!" Mrs. Johnson scolds.
She laughs and looks at her, " Is that a way of saying good morning?"
Mrs. Johnson looks at her, "Have you, ladies, even taken your bath?"
I look at Lizzy, and our gaze met and held. And we both chuckle.
"Now, go! Before I wipe you!" Mrs. Johnson laughs.
I walk out with Lizzy. He nudges me slightly, " I thought you didn't drink wine yesterday. How did you get drunk?"
I look at her and try to think of what has happened. I thought I drank with Lizzy too. How did I get drunk then?
Then it came back at me in a flash. I can remember returning home to meet Ryder in my room. And he offered me a cocktail but I ended up drinking out of his red wine. And I got drunk. So, it wasn't a dream?
But why will Ryder explain his relationship status to me? I mean I didn't even ask him. I remember I felt somehow when I saw them kiss. Aside from that, I felt jealous.
"I will see you soon," Lizzy says and walks to her room.
I enter my room and the first thing my eyes went to was the bed. Then I remember laying on the bed beside Ryder and_
Wait for a minute, did I really kiss Ryder? OMG!
I remember telling him I got jealous when I saw him kiss Mimi. And then, I kiss him.
And strangely, he kissed me back.
I can't believe he kissed me back. I can even remember him soothing my hair.
I should quickly dress up, perhaps I should go and give him his breakfast. Perhaps I will be able to speak with him.
Thinking about him like this is giving me goosebumps. I can't wait to kiss him again.
I take a quick bath and rush to choose a dress from the one Lizzy got for me.
I settled on a red mini dress. Lizzy got me lots of short dresses and they really look good on me.
I walk out of the room and back into the kitchen but Mrs. Johnson isn't in.
I walk inside the living room but Mrs. Johnson is nowhere to be found.
Just while I was contemplating on what to do, Mrs. Johnson walk down the stairs. It feels like she's just coming from Ryder's room.
That means I was late.
"Do you want to eat?" Mrs. Johnson asks as she walks to me.
I nod as I try to smile. I look up at the door as if Ryder would come downstairs.
"Come!" Mrs. Johnson says and I walk after her.
For the whole of yesterday, I didn't see Ryder. No matter how much I tried to go inside his room, Mrs. Johnson wouldn't let me.
Somehow, it seems like she was intentionally doing it. No matter how much I tried to persuade her to let me take the food to Ryder, she kept giving me another role.
Or maybe it's Ryder that's avoiding me. I mean it all started the night I kissed him. Is he angry? Gosh! I knew I shouldn't have.
And come to think of it, I didn't see Mimi throughout yesterday. What happened to those two?
"Gwen, are you alright?" Lizzy asks me. I'm in her room. Mrs. Johnson has gone out. So, I decided to come to Lizzy's room.
I sigh, "I'm alright. I'm just feeling sleepy. I should go and sleep."
Lizzy yawned too, "I'm feeling sleepy as well."
It's afternoon already and I'm still unable to wrap my hands on why he doesn't want to see me.
I walk out of Lizzy's room and look up the stairs.
It doesn't matter if Ryder doesn't love me. I just want to stop this silent treatment.
I really want to clear every misunderstanding we might be having between each other.
I take a deep breath and with my mind made up, I started up the stairs.
Before my hand touches the bedroom door, I can hear the sounds of people having sex in the room.
I haven't had sex but I'm always around whenever Heidi is having one. She's always bringing home guys. And well, I wasn't allowed to bring home any friends.
I listen again. I can hear a woman's deep moan mixed with a man's low gasp.
I open the door slowly and stare wide at the two entangled bodies on the bed.
Ryder stops and look up at me, with eyes gone wide and dark with shock.