What should I do

Chapter fifty-one
Gwen
This is very bad. Ryder doesn't even love me. He loves Lizzy instead. What should I do? How can I fall in love with him?
I have to hurry up with school. That's the only thing that can save me. I have to stop seeing Ryder.
I walk to my wardrobe and look over at the clothes Ryder got for me. He seemed so close to me then but not anymore. It's like an obstacle is pulling us apart.
Well, I know who that is. Lizzy is the person pulling us apart but it's ok. I can't fall for Ryder. Since I have, I must find a way to free myself from it.
I hold Ryder's black card so tight in my hand.
My stomach rumbles suddenly and I hold my hand over it. I should get something to eat.
I walk into the kitchen and open the fridge. Thankfully, there's a key lime pie as if it was there because of me.
I place it on the table and settle to eat.
"I didn't know you will be here!" A deep voice whispered in front of me. I jerk back and look up at Ryder.
My heart races again and I look away, "Yes, I was hungry."
He walks to the fridge and brings out a cup of banana split. He settles in front of me.
I swallow hard and turn to a side slowly so I won't have to look at him whenever I raise my head.
"You didn't come along to check the house," he says and I can feel his eyes on me. I decide not to meet his eyes level. It will be safe for me like that.
"Yes, I was so tired."
"Ok, and I wanted to tell you something," he says and I couldn't help but look at him. I watch him swallow the mixture.
I remember it, I remember it all. I told Ryder to show me who his girlfriend was.
I guess he wanted to tell me it was Lizzy. Well, he doesn't need to show me. I know who she is already. I don't need to hear it from him, the evidence is enough for me.
"It's ok," I tell him and he looks up at me. Our gaze met and locked for a moment. I look away and take another spoon of lime pie.
"Why don't you want to hear me out?"
I manage a smile, "Did you remember what happened at Rock and Brew? I never wanted it to happen again and I'm glad it's not happening again aside from what Mimi did to me. I'm living fine, thanks to you," I intentionally change the subject, hoping he would forget about his intentions of telling me about Lizzy.
He sighs, " Do you still blame me for what Mimi did?"
I let my smile widen, "No. You are a nice man and you've only cared for me. I'm happy and grateful for that."
I eat the last spoon of the cake. I take the plate to the sink and wash it.
I can feel his gaze on me, but I don't want to meet it. I can't help the increase in my heartbeat. It's frustrating I have to feel this way.
I take another deep sigh before I walk back to his seat, "Thank you so much Ryder, and goodnight," I tell him and hurry out of the kitchen.
I slump on the bed and close my eyes. It's alright now, it's going to be ok. I will definitely find solace in school. I can't wait to resume.
The next time I open my eyes, I can see the daylight. It's morning already. I must leave the house quickly so I won't need to see Lizzy and Ryder.
I take my bath and put on a jean skirt and a white hoodie. I take the black card and my phone. I wear sports shoes and hurry out of my room.
Mrs. Johnson is the only one around.
"Good morning Mrs. Johnson," I greet and hurry to the door.
" Good morning! Gwen, where are you off to?"
" To get something. Don't wait for me!" I say hurriedly and walk out of the house.
I take a cab and ride to Rock and Brew. I need to eat, I think that's the first thing to do.
I walk inside the restaurant and look around. The waiters and waitresses are all new faces. Thank God. I don't want to encounter any problems.
I walk to a seat and bring out my phone and check through if I have missed calls or messages from Ryder or Lizzy but there's none.
A lady walked up to me with a big smile on her face, "What do you order for?"
"Cocktail and tartar sauces."
She bows slightly and walks away.
" Hi," a voice says above me. I look up at a guy in his early twenties. But I'm sure he's older than I am.
"Hi," I reply with a smile. I wonder what he wants.
He smiles, "Can I sit?"
I nod briefly, my heart made a thud as he sit before me.
"I'm David. May I know your name?"
"Gwen."
The waitress comes back with my order. I look up at her quickly and stretch out my Black card.
"No! I will pay!" David says quickly and gently pulls back my hand, "Here," he stretches out his card, "I will like to make an order too.".
He looks at me, "May I have your number? I might want to call you."
I nod briefly and give him what he wants.
I watched with amazement as he walked to the counter and ordered some food. He turns around and waves me goodbye.
I reciprocate, still surprised someone will come to me. It's been ages since I spoke with a guy aside from Ryder.
Heidi has made me realize I will never be appreciated by a man. My stepsisters made me realize how ugly I look.
I look down at my food. My phone made a beep. I look at it anticipating a message but there was none.
No one is worried about me whatsoever. I'm sure Lizzy and Ryder are somewhere enjoying themselves.
I'm not going to think about it. I came here to get out of the wood. I will fall out of love definitely. I just need to try harder.
I finish my food and decides to go shopping. I take a car to the famous bouquet.
I will just waste today. I won't go home. All I will do is call Lizzy to ask where our house is. So, I can finally settle down.
I look through the clothes and finally picked a few. I picked some shoes too.
I paid for it and decided it was time to go and check our house.
I dial Lizzy's number immediately. She picks up after the second ring.
"Hello, Gwen!" She laughs. I can hear some low voices in the background. I'm sure it's Ryder.
They must be at home, in Ryder's room.
"Hi Lizzy, can you tell me the address of our house? I need to go there and drop something."
" Sure! I will text you the address. Hey! Stop! I'm sorry Gwen!"
And the line went off.
Can't they just stop making me feel sad? If they really want to have fun, must they make it so obvious?
My phone beeped almost immediately. I take it and realize it's a message from Lizzy.
I take a cab to the location. Butterflies rise in me at the sight of the building.
It's a duplex that Ryder got for us? Well, I suspect he will since the house is also going to be his girlfriend's house.
I pull my bags out of the car and walk to the house.
I have forgotten to ask Lizzy for the keys. But if she sent me the message without bothering to tell me about the key. Then, the house must be unlocked.
Moving close to the entrance, I can hear laughter and low voices from the house.
Who can be inside? Do we have other students In the house with us?
I push the door open with my leg and walk in. My eyes widen as I stare at Ryder sitting so close beside Lizzy.
Ryder pulls at her cheek slightly and laughs. My heart made a thud at the action.
I remember Ryder doing something like this to me. Gosh! Why do I have to see this?
My heart hurts so much by just looking at them.
What the fuck are they doing here? I thought they were at home? Are they here to torment me?
Why are they here exactly?
And why must my heartbeat for someone that has already been taken? Why do I have to fall for him now that he has already been taken?
What should I do? What can I do?
I close my eyes against the tears that threatened to seep from under my lashes.