Chapter 108

**Maddox**

I scroll through the photos on my phone and stop on one of Bryn asleep on the couch with Henry lying on her chest asleep. Every time I see her like this with him it makes my chest swell. She has been an amazing mom to him so far, and that’s why I understand why she said what she said.

“Those assholes are still camped out front,” Jaxon says from where he’s looking out the window.

Our manager arranged for us to stay in a suite in a local hotel instead of an Air B&B, and half of the far wall is all glass windows looking out over the city. Not that I care much for the view. There is only view I want to see and I’m looking at it on my phone right now.

“At least they’re here and not at the beach house,” Nolan says.

He’s been on his laptop on and off since we got here last night.

“I’m going out.” My eyes lift at the sound of Sawyer’s voice.

He's storming toward the door but stops when Jaxon jogs over and grabs his shoulder. “You can’t go out like this man. You’re in no condition to face the press and not create more of a mess.”

“Get your hands the fuck off me.” Sawyer sneers and pulls away from his hold.

“Sawyer.” I try but he glares at me.

“Stop acting like this man, she’s scared that’s all,” Jaxon says sounding exhausted.

Sawyer whirls on him. “Do you think I know that? I’ve known her since we were kids. I know her better than any of you! She does this. She worries and gets scared and tries to fix everything for everyone. She cares so much about taking care of everyone that she hurts herself! She lets herself be hurt over and over as long as everyone else is fine. The whole time we were growing up she loved me and I treated her…I treated her like crap. I cut her out of my life!”

His voice cracks and I feel my throat tighten.

“I can’t let her do this to herself. She’s hurting right now, I can feel it. I've hurt her enough, and all of this…” He waves his hand around the room. “It’s my fault. I screwed up, but I’m not leaving her alone with all the guilt. All she did was accept all of you because I asked her to. This is my fault.”

He grips onto Jaxon’s arm and drops his head. A sob escapes him and I’m on my feet in an instant. I’ve never heard Sawyer cry or even get this upset over anything, not even when he got injured.

“This isn’t your fault man. We wanted her, and you let us want her and be with her. It takes a lot for another man to share like that because he sees a connection between his woman and another man.” Jaxon says.

“You gave us a chance to be happy with an amazing woman. Even if this is how things end for us, we had this time with her and that means a lot. Some of us…” Nolan clears his throat, no doubt getting emotional as well. “Some of us have had a hard time finding anyone they would risk things with.”

“I would have been happy just knowing her, but you gave me so much more. I’ve never been happier.” I tell him.

“She’s yours first and always Sawyer. So go home. Be with your family, and the rest of…we’ll be fine.” Jaxon says giving Sawyer’s shoulder a squeeze.

Sawyer’s watery eyes look to me and then Nolan. “Fuck. I’m sorry I did this to you all.”

I shake my head. “Stop apologizing man and go get her.”

He looks at me like he isn’t sure if he should believe how okay I am with letting Bryn go, but I won’t let him see the truth.

“Go home brother,” I tell him with a pat on his shoulder.

He nods and we move out of his way. We watch him until he’s gone and then Jaxon blows out a breath.

“Fuck.” He says and I squeeze my eyes shut trying to stop myself from showing everything I’m feeling.

When I think I have myself together I turn to look at Nolan but he’s walking into one of the suites and slams the door behind him. I run my fingers through my hair and blow out a breath.

“This sucks,” Jaxon says dropping on one of the couches. “I’ve never felt more like shit than I do right now. Who knew one girl could get us all so twisted up.”

“She isn’t just any girl, that’s why it hurts like a bitch right now,” I say dropping down on the spot I’d been previously. “But I don’t regret any of it.”

“Yeah me neither. God, why did she have to be so…her? I’m all twisted inside now.” He says dropping his head back and sliding further down the couch.

My mind goes back to the first time I saw her. “You know how some guys say they saw an angel when they first met their girl? Fuck man. When I first saw her it was like there was a spotlight on her.”

He chuckles. “That’s corny as shit, but fuck man. I was all twisted up when I first saw her. At first, I thought it was weird the way I reacted to you guys at first, but now I realize I was jealous. All of you had this beautiful woman, and my dating history was shit. All the women I'd been with wanted me because they had some kind of kink for cops. Bryn had narrowed her eyes on me when she thought I had a problem with what you guys had going on and I couldn’t help but smile.”

I laugh. “Yeah, you should see her in training mode. She had all the boys on the team whipped into shape quickly. Even our coach deferred to her like she was on the same level as him. I was funny watching her eye down huge six-foot-five bulk of muscle without flinching.”

Jaxon smiles. “Fuck I love that woman.”

“Yeah me too,” I admit.

He looks my way and something passes between us. I’m not sure what he was thinking but I’m on my feet and walking over to Nolan’s door a second later. Jaxon is typing on his phone, no doubt getting us a ride.

“What do you want?” Nolan yells as he opens the door.

“Let’s go,” I tell him.

“Where exactly are we going?” He drawls like he isn’t brokenhearted.

“To get our girl back what the fuck do you think?” Jaxon calls.

“She doesn’t want us,” Nolan says still sounding too cool about all this.

“Shut up man and get your shit. I’m staying another night in this place.” Jaxon says.

Nolan raises a brow at him. “Because staying in an expensive hotel sweet is so terrible?”

“It is if Bryn isn’t here. Now let's go.” He heads for the door without waiting for us.

I turn to Nolan and cross my arms over my chest and look at him like I’ll beat his ass if he holds us up.



**Bryn**

I startle awake at the sound of Henry crying. My heart races when I wake up with him on top of me and my arm not around him. He could have fallen!

God, I must not have been thinking straight when I fell asleep on the couch last night.

“Shhh…it’s okay,” I tell him and adjust us so that I can feed him.

He latches on and feeds like he’s starving. That’s been pretty normal for him lately which makes me happy. It means he has a good appetite and the doctor says that he’ll be a big baby thanks to his dad. The reminder of Sawyer makes a sob break out but my eyes are burning like I can’t possibly cry anymore. That’s all I did yesterday, and I can’t handle any more. No, I need to get myself together.

My phone goes off and I see Poppy’s name on the screen. My hand shakes as I accept the call, and then I hear her voice. The dams open and I’m crying again. She panics thinking something horrible has happened until I explain what’s going on. Then she does something I would never have suspected.

“You idiot!” She shouts through the phone so loud that I have to pull it away so my eardrums are damaged.

“W-what?” I stutter in shock.

“God Bryn, how can we be sisters?”

“I’m not following here,” I tell her honestly.

“Those four gorgeous men have given you everything any girl could want four times over! They adore you and cater to you like you’re existence is what gives them a purpose. Even I could see how crazy in love with you they are. So why would you throw that away?” She sounds a little breathless after that rant but I’m not sure what to say.

She’s never gotten that upset with me. That’s going around I guess.