Chapter 72: Bryn

So it turns out that the recent stress I’ve been under is what caused me to faint in class. The anxiety and the exhaustion of being a full-time student has built up to where my body couldn’t handle much more. The doctor said that I need to rest for a few days, but how can I? My class schedule is full and I can’t change it now or I won’t be able to graduate on schedule. I also talked to my doctor about the very intense sex drive I’ve been having recently.

She smiled and chuckled. “It isn’t unusual for a woman to have a more advanced sex drive during pregnancy. That is most likely the reason for your new found sex drive. It’s perfectly normal and healthy, but given the situation, I think you need a break from all the strenuous activities for the next few days.” She gave me a knowing look, and I laughed.

I got my discharge papers with a note for my professors excusing me from class for medical reasons. That means there are going to find out about my pregnancy, and with the rumors going around, I think it’s time we announced it officially. There is going to be an uproar, but I need to accept that not everyone is going to like what we do. Still, I think for my own mental health, I’m going to turn off the comments on my posts. That way I don’t have to see the horrible comments if I don’t want to.

“Ready to go?” Maddox asks once I’m back in my own clothes again.

“Yep! Let’s go home.” I smile at him and accept his hand when he holds it out to me.

He threads our fingers together, and I feel all giddy inside. Like a girl with her first crush. We walk to the car hand-in-hand and some of the anger I felt toward Sawyer starts to fizzle out. I’m still not happy with what he’s been up to, but Maddox is so sweet and amazing in bed. For some reason we just…click, and if Sawyer is okay with me seeing Maddox too, then I think I’m okay with that. What I’m not okay with is him picking some random guys he doesn’t even know to be a part of whatever this thing is. We need to have a real talk about what I’m okay and not okay with, and he’s going to be in the doghouse for at least a week.

Maddox opens the door for me when we reach his car, and I climb in with a silly smile on my face. Sawyer holds the door open for me too, but I still find it sort of romantic.

Maddox squeezes himself into the driver’s seat and starts the car. I have to bite back a laugh at such a huge guy driving a car this size. I don’t know anything about cars, but from what I’ve seen, this is too small of a car for him. We need to get him a truck like Sawyer has.

“How are you feeling?” He asks.

“Better. I don’t know how I feel about resting for days. I like my busy schedule but I guess I’ll have to adjust my thinking. Truthfully, I’m wondering if maybe I should put school off for a while so that I can focus on the baby.” It’s a new thought, but it makes sense.

Who knows what this pregnancy is going to be like going forward and I rather postpone school than fail because of health reasons. I put school off once before, so I can do it again.

“You got pretty upset with Sawyer earlier.” He says next, and I turn my head to look at him.

He better not agree with that butthead. Yeah, I said what I said.

“Are you okay with him trying to get me to date some guy none of us know?” I ask him in return.

“Of course not! I can’t believe that you and him are okay with me being around, but someone else seems like something we need to really talk about.” He says and I nod.

Good boy.

“I just don’t get why he’s doing this. I don’t need a harem of men to look after me. Isn’t that sort of…selfish?”

Maddox doesn’t answer me right away, but he sighs and reaches over to take my hand again.

“We haven’t known each other long, but even I can tell what an amazing woman you are. If anyone deserves to be worshipped and cared for by several men, it would be you. If that’s something you want.” He says carefully.

“Are you okay with that, though?” Because his wishes matter to me too.

He shrugs. “If it would make you happy, then I would find a way to accept it. I can’t say I’ll accept the next guy with open arms, but as I get to know him, then I think I would be more open to it. He will have a lot to prove, though. I won’t trust just anyone with you. You’re too precious.”

I smile to myself and my face gets warm from his compliment. He’s a sweet talker and I’m weak for his sweet words in that sexy low voice of his.

“I don’t know. You and me feels so…oddly normal that I’m not sure what to think anymore. This isn’t normal, so it’s hard to look at it as something that’s okay to do.” I admit.

He hums. “Maybe it is weird, but I don’t feel like we’re doing anything wrong. In the past there were a lot of men who had multiply wives, society is the one who changed the standards for what’s considered a normal relationship. That doesn’t mean we have to let it change how we live.”

Okay, he makes a good point there.

“I guess.”

“Stop worrying about it right now. That’s what got you in this situation, so let’s just do what feels right and enjoy our time together. Okay?”

He makes it sound so simple, but maybe it is that simple. We aren’t hurting anyone by living our lives a little differently, so who cares what people think?

“Okay. I’ll try.” I promise him.

He glances my way with his dimple smile and I nearly melt in my seat. God, he’s so handsome and all mine…wait. Did we talk about him dating other girls, too? My head is a mess and now I can’t remember. I’m sure we did, but just in case…

“Would you want to date other girls? Maybe bring them into what we’re doing?” Even the idea of it makes my stomach turn, but would it be fair of me to stop him from dating other girls?

I’m married to another man, for god’s sake!

He gives me an odd look. “No way. Why would I do that?”

“Well, wouldn’t be fair because I’m with two guys?” I ask, trying to sound casual about it.

“Fuck no. I don’t want to even think about that. You’re perfect for me. I knew the second I looked at you. It was like every other person around me disappeared, and I know no other girl will ever make me feel that way. You are my person now, and I don’t want anyone else. I don’t care if it seems fair to me not to be committed to only you, but that’s what I want. I just want you.”

Okay…swoon! Seriously with this guy. It’s like he read the handbook on exactly the right thing to say to make a girl fall in love with you. Because it’s working! I think I love him already.

“I know it’s selfish of me, but I’m glad. I don’t want to share you with anyone else.” I admit.

That makes him give me a panty dropping, swoon worthy smile with a little bit of cockiness thrown in. I roll my eyes, but I’m smiling too. This day might have not gone well, but right now makes up for it.

“Do you want to keep us a secret for now?” I ask him because I suddenly had an idea for the baby announcement.

“Do you?” He asks instead of answering me.

The answer is simple. “No. I want people to know. That way, there will be no secrets to drag up. Everything will be out in the open.”

“Okay. So how do you want to announce it?” He asks.

“I was thinking that we can take a belly shot with both yours and Sawyer’s hands resting on it. Then maybe say ‘baby makes three’ or something like that. I can explain everything in my comment, but I won’t let anyone else comment on it.”

He gives my hand a squeeze. “I like that idea. But maybe we should call your TA boyfriend over as well.” He winks at me and I smack him in the arm.

“Shut up.” I grumble, making him release a booming laugh.

Things are perfect the way they are, but fate sure makes plans we never see coming.