Chapter 127: Bryn

Something is wrong with Sawyer. My smiling laid-back hubby isn’t right. I noticed it last night but he isn’t one to talk if pushed so I let it go. He’s finally letting me see how tired he is.

“Sawyer…” I brush my fingers through his hair and his arms tighten around me a little harder.

“Fuck, baby. I’m drowning here.” He admits.

“Why?” I ask softly.

He finally lifts his head to look at me. “Those threats. They scared the hell out of me. We’ve been through a lot of shit but this is the first time I've been scared that you could actually be hurt. With Henry in our lives now I’m fucking terrified of something happening to you guys. What do I do? How do I protect you guys? The only thing I can think of is locking you both away but then you’ll feel trapped and I never want to do that to you.”

My heart aches seeing the fear and worry in his eyes. He’s truly scared and I don’t like it. I never want to be the reason he has to worry, but what can I do? Like he said I could hide away but how can we raise a baby hidden away from everything? They wouldn’t be able to have a normal life if we did that.

“Running and hiding won’t fix anything. It might even anger the person more, but I can’t tell you what we should do. I don’t know either. All I know is that I won’t hide. I want us to be happy and that means living our lives in a way that makes us happy. I’ve spent too much time feeling guilty and blaming myself for every bad thing people have said about us. This is just one more thing it would be easy to blame myself for but we haven’t done anything wrong. We’re living our lives peacefully, it’s everyone else who is making a big deal of it all.” I remind him.

He and the guys have constantly told me that our lives are ours to live and that what others say doesn’t matter.

“All we can do is protect our home the best we can and let the police know if anything else happens. If it helps we can hire a bodyguard to go with me and Henry when we leave the house. Would that help?” I ask him.

As silly as it sounds to have a bodyguard…I mean I’m the wife of a hockey player, not Taylor Swift or something…I’ll do it to give my guys some piece of mind.

He sighs closing his eyes and pressing his forehead against me again. “I don’t want to make you uncomfortable but I think it would make me feel better.”

I rest my hands on either side of his face and tilt his head up so he’ll look at me. “It will make us all feel better, so I’m okay with it. Maybe Jaxon has some ex-cop friends who can help.”

He gives me a weak smile. “I guess it comes in handy having a cop in the family.”

“I guess so.”

“Thanks, baby. I hate putting you in this position but I’m selfish and couldn’t imagine living this life without you.” His eyes start to look glossy, but I don’t want him to cry thinking of a life where we aren’t together.

“I would never have been happy without you. I loved you from the moment I saw you. You think I would have ever let you get married to anyone?” I tease him.

He laughs. “Come on, you didn’t want anything to do with me when I showed up.”

“I was acting tough. You are the only boy I ever loved, but I would have let you go off and be happy with someone else.”

“I know you would. You’re a better person than me. I always loved you but I was so far up my own ass to pay attention to it until I thought I lost you. It was cruel to think you would always be there waiting for me to finally figure things out, but I’m glad you let me back in. I could never let you be with someone else, and I would have kidnapped you before you ever married another guy.” I shake my head and lean down to kiss him.

He threads his fingers in my hair and holds me to him to deepen the kiss. I break the kiss and brush the side of his face with one of my fingers and he closes his eyes sighing like my touch is relaxing him. His hands slide to hips and when our eyes meet I can see the heat in them. It’s been a while since we’ve been alone like this and as much as he seems okay with sharing me in the bedroom I know he needs this as much as I do.

“Bryn…” He whispers before grabbing me and pulling me onto his lap. “You won’t torture me will you?”

I shake my head. “Never.”

“Good because I couldn’t take it. I’m too impatient right now.” His words switch the slow way he had kissed me before and takes me in a vicious kiss that makes me moan.

He lifts me off his lap enough that he can fumble with the button and zipper of his pants. When he’s let himself free from his boxers he slams me down onto him making me cry out. He takes my lips again as he uses his hold on my hips to help me grind against him.

“I’m going to embarrass myself, but it feels like it’s been forever since I've been inside you. Sorry ahead of time.” He says before he thrusts upward making me gasp in surprise.

A few more thrusts and I feel warmth fill me and he groans dropping his head back against the chair looking way more relaxed than I minute ago.

“Fuck sorry baby, you didn’t come.” He says with a genuinely apologetic look on his face.

“I already did with Maddox.” I remind him.

He gives me a scowl. “Fuck that.” He stands forcing me to wrap my arms to wrap around his neck. “I won’t let that asshole take all the credit.”

He walks us over to the bed and drops me down on it pulling my legs so that they hang off the end and widens them so he can kneel between them.

“Sawyer…” I try to warn him but he’s between my legs feasting on me before I can remind him that I didn’t wear protection with Maddox.

I don’t bother reminding him because he makes me come so hard that I feel like I might have passed out for a second. We lay together on the bed for a little while before Jaxon comes knocking letting us know that our dinner has arrived. Sawyer reluctantly lets me go with the promise that he gets to stay the night with you.

“We’ll all be staying together tonight,” I tell him and smirk.

He narrows his eyes on me. “What are you scheming baby?”

I smile and quickly get dressed leaving him without explaining my surprise. The guys will hopefully like my wedding night gift.

We head downstairs to find a feast waiting for me and I do a little happy dance when I see the amount of mangos piled on one of the kitchen counters. Even better is that there are several dishes and deserts starring my favorite fruit of all time. We stuff ourselves on the delicious spread and there’s nothing left when we’re done.

“The officiant called and said he’ll be here in an hour. We should get ready.” Nolan says when he comes back into the dining room after leaving to take a call.

“Shit, this is real now,” Jaxon says and I give him a look. “What? I mean I knew it was happening but now it's real not something that seemed far into the future. I’m going to marry a woman with three other husbands. Can’t say I ever saw this coming.”

“Neither did I,” I admit.

I look at Sawyer and he smiles. “I don’t think any of us did, but I don’t have any regrets. Thanks to my genius we’re all exactly where we’re meant to be.” I roll my eyes at him but he’s right.

“The best decision I ever made! My family has never been…close so this has given me a family that actually feels like a family.” Maddox adds.

“My life is not boring anymore that's for sure, and I don’t think I could have ever found a woman who loves so unconditionally that she’s willing to put up with not only me but three other men. You’re a saint love.” Nolan says making me laugh.

“Hardly, but I do feel like this was always meant to be our destiny even if none of us knew it,” I say holding my glass of wine in front of me.

“To fate and a kickass woman,” Jaxon says.

The others clink their glasses with ours.

“Let’s get married boys! Whoo!” Jaxon says grabbing me around the waist and slamming his lips to mine.

The others boo playfully and then descend on us in a group hug.