Chapter 119: Bryn

A low hum vibrates against my cheek waking me from a really good dream. As I start to wake up I hear muffled voices in the other room and what sounds like Henry cooing. I smile and snuggle further into the warm body next to me. Another rumble and fingers begin to run through my hair making me sigh.

“Morning love.” Nolan’s voice is rumbly and delicious sounding.

“Morning.”

“Sounds like everyone else is awake.” He says.

I nod. “I don’t want to wake up yet,” I grumble and bury my face in his chest.

Not a minute after I say that the door to my room is thrown open and a large body launches onto the bed. Jaxon catches himself before he can crush me, tucks his arms under me and rolls us so that I’m lying flat on top of him.

“Morning Angel! Ready to get married? Again?” He asks with a wide smile before he buries his face in my neck.

“Did you have to kick him over to our room Nolan? He climbed in butt ass naked!” Sawyer cries from the living room.

A laugh sputters out of me and I smack Jaxon on his still naked chest. He thankfully has some sweats on now.

“I was worn out, so I climbed into the first bed I saw and passed out. It wasn’t a come on so chill brother!” He yells over my shoulder.

I drop my head to his chest and laugh. He is seriously going to get his butt kicked by one of these guys one day and I just might allow it.

“Come on we have breakfast all set up for you,” Jaxon says before pulling my head down for a kiss.

He takes the opportunity to group me before breaking the kiss and rolling me back over to the bed. “Get dressed, Angel!”

He saunters out of the room and Maddox comes in with Henry. “I wasn’t sure if you wanted to feed him now that you’re awake.”

“Of course!” I reach out for the baby who starts to whine as soon as he’s in my arms.

I smile down at him and settle him in to feed. Maddox tilts my chin up and gives me a soft sweet kiss before leaving the room. Sawyer stays leaning against the door frame watching me with a small smile on his face. This fatherly pride look always shows up any time he sees me with Henry. He’s bragged a few times that he gave the family the first boy. I roll my eyes and focus on Henry until Nolan grumbles next to me and pushes himself up to sit beside me.

He leans over and kisses Henry on the head before throwing the covers off of him and climbs out of bed. At some point, he had pulled on his boxers again while I had passed out in nothing. He walks to the bathroom and Sawyer walks toward the bed and climbs on to take his place. Once he’s comfortable I rest my head on his shoulder and we watch Henry quietly.

“He’s getting big.” He says after a couple of minutes.

“Yeah, too fast.”

“Jaxon seems to think he knocked you up last night.” Sawyer chuckles when I start coughing from the sound of shock I just made.

Okay, so we didn’t use protection but I read that the odds of getting pregnant after having a baby could take up to six months. The body is adjusting and breastfeeding can also prevent pregnancy as well. Not that I expected it to stop me from getting pregnant. Shoot we really need to talk about this before we keep going on without protection.

Once I’m done feeding Henry I call a family meeting. The guys have ordered all kinds of breakfast items and have set everything up on the table in front of the couch. When I sit down and join the guys Maddox hands me a plate of waffles topped with strawberries and whipped cream. I lean over and give him an appreciative kiss before I take a big bite.

“So what's on your mind sweetheart?” He asks.

All the guys are watching me, and I’m suddenly unsure how to broach the subject. I mean we’ve kidded around about having more kids but I’m not sure if now is the best time. We just had Henry and are starting in a new place…it might not be the best time to add a new little one to the equation.

“Come on baby spit it out will ya?” Sawyer says before he shovels some eggs into his mouth.

I narrow my eyes at him annoyed, but it’s enough to push my anxiety on the subject away.

“I wanted us to have a serious conversation before we have more nights like last night.” Even after everything we’ve done I can’t help the blush that appears at the reminder.

“Alright, go on,” Nolan says.

“We haven’t been using protection and I think we should decide what we want to do. Should we start using protection again? I mean we’ve been sort of talking about having another baby but do we really want that? Do you guys want another one? And this soon if it happens?” I throw it out there and sit back with my waffles.

The guys are quiet for a minute and glance at each other. Maddox, the sweetie that he is, Speaks first. He rests a hand on my leg and gives it a quick squeeze.

“Sweetheart, this isn’t our decision to make. You just had a baby, so it’s understandable that it would be too soon for you and that's okay.”

I nod. “I get that, but do you guys want more kids? This is something we need clearly decided from the beginning. I don’t want there to be any confusion or regret later once we start this.”

“Do you want more kids?” Nolan asks me.

Of course, it makes sense for me to have an answer for this, but honestly I hadn’t really given it a deep thought. Did I want a kid with each of the guys? I wanted to be a mom for sure, but I never considered how many kids I was willing to have in total. I want to make the guys happy, but am I willing to carry and give birth to several more kids?

Henry is with Jaxon now and I smile at the thought of having a baby that looks like me and him. His mom would love that, but even if it didn’t happen he would still love Henry like he does now. Without a doubt, I know the guys would be happy to be dads to Henry and that would be enough for them. That alone gives me my answer.

“I would be happy to have more kids, but I want to make sure that you guys will be okay if it never happens again. I mean love won’t fix me if I can never have another baby. If each of you wants to be a father someday and can’t will you be okay with that?” I don’t want them to ever resent me if I could make them fathers.

There’s a silence that feels too long and too loud between us before Maddox smiles and leans over to kiss me. “I love you B. To me, Henry is just as much my son, and if I never become a biological father it wouldn’t change how I feel about you.”

I smile and pull him in for another kiss. When we break apart I look at Jaxon and Nolan.

Jaxon smirks. “My mom would love to have more grandbabies, but she also loves Henry like crazy so she would be happy just spoiling him. There’s no way I’m going anywhere Angel even if I don’t have a kid of my own. Henry is enough.”

My heart swells and I can feel my eyes stinging with tears, but I turn my focus on Nolan. His normally blank expression is making me nervous right now. I have no doubts about how he feels about me, and he loves Henry for sure but will that be enough for him?

“Nolan?” I push because his silence is making me nervous.

He sighs and leans forward putting his elbows on his knees to look at me.

“I had a vision of what I wanted my life to look like, and I never imagined I would be with a woman who had other men in her life. I also didn’t think I wanted to be a father. I’m not a warm and fuzzy kind of guy and figured someone like me wouldn’t make a good dad.” My heart starts to ache, this isn’t what I was hoping to hear. “But then I met you and we have Henry. Being one of his dads has made me realize I could be a good dad and husband. He’s more than enough for me and so are you. I don’t deserve either of you, but I’ll keep you all the same.”

I smile and let out a relieved laugh.

“On one condition…”