Chapter 96: Bryn

Bryn


I had not planned on hanging out with the guys at the rink today, but I’m not going to tell them that. It's a lot more fun to mess with Sawyer after what he said. What he said didn’t hurt me. Ive been a mess the last few weeks, and I feel terrible that the guys have had to put up with my crazy moods. Some of it is because of hormones, but the other half is me wanting to get this baby out so I can feel like me again, but also feeling guilty for wanting that.

Then there was my doctor visit today. Maddox took me, but I asked to see the doctor alone because I had some questions I didn’t want to discuss in front of him. I’ve been trying to be strong for them as they healed, so I didn’t want them worrying about anything else but that. So when I started spotting a couple of days ago, I immediately called my doctor for an appointment to check on the baby. If it was nothing, I didn’t want the guys worrying until I was sure what was wrong. Maddox wasn’t happy about it at first, but I was able to bribe him with another ready session tonight if he would give me some time with the doctor alone.

“What has you worried?” The doctor asked.

I felt on the verge of tears the whole time. After everything that happened, I didn’t want to lose my baby after she fought so hard to live.

“I started spotting and I’m worried.” I told her.

She gave me a sympathetic look and pats my hand. “Let’s not worry until we have to, okay? How about we do a quick ultrasound to see how the baby is doing?”

“Yes, please.” I told her, feeling a little relieved that she didn’t brush off my concerns.

I don’t want to be one of those women who are scared of every little thing and thinking it can be something terrible, but I was worried. So the doctor set up the ultrasound machine and looked around for a little while. Little girl’s heart still sounded strong, and she was moving around any time the probe thing pushed against her.

“Is everything okay?” I asked her when she’s quiet for a little longer than I would like.

“Baby looks good, but I see the reason you have been spotting. There is a condition known as placenta praevia. Now that you are getting closer to the birth, your cervix is expanding and rubbing against the placenta, which is very close to the cervix right now.” She said.

“What does that mean?” I ask her with a bit of hysteria in my voice.

“Well, at this point, it isn’t too serious, but it would be too dangerous for you to have a natural birth. It could lead to complications for both you and the baby. Plus the ordeal you endured and how close you are getting to your due date. I think we should schedule the c section and have you come in every week until that day.” She explained.

“Okay. So when should we schedule it for?” I asked her.

She looked up my due date on the computer. “It looks like you’re due December fifth. So let’s schedule you for that day, but go to the hospital right away if the bleeding gets worse or you start having contractions. That could mean you are going into labor and we can’t have that if you aren’t in the hospital. Okay?”
“Yeah! Let’s do that.” I nodded several times even after I stopped talking.

She put her hand on mine where it rested on my belly. “Everything will be fine, Bryn. I’m going to make sure you and the baby are both healthy by the end of this. Okay?”

“Okay. Thank you.”

“Of course. Let me make that appointment and give you some instructions so you know what to expect and look out for. Okay? Hang out here and I’ll print everything off for you.” She said.

“Thanks.” I told her and then I was left alone.

I would have to tell the guys. They’re going to be worried, and I hate that. Sawyer and Maddox are going back to playing this week, and they need their heads in the game. I can always tell them closer to the c-section day. Once the visit was over, Maddox asked me how things went and I told him everything was fine. He smiled and wrapped his arm around my shoulder. The guilt immediately sank in and I knew I would have to tell the guys tonight. There was no way I could keep this from them, and it was cruel of me to even consider it. I wanted them to be okay, both physically and mentally, but this wasn’t about me. This is about the baby and her health, so they need to know everything.

My plan had been to ride with Maddox to the rink and drop him off before heading to my councilor's office and talking to her about my plans now. I didn’t want to drop out, but I did some research and because I’m pregnant, they have something similar to maternity leave. I get time off for the birth of my baby and after without losing my place in the school. Since I’m not sure when I might need to go to the hospital, even with my scheduled c-section, I don’t want to be in class and then having to race to the hospital.

Nope. It’s time to take things easy and get ready for this baby. That means I also need to go shopping. Surprisingly, I haven’t done nearly enough thanks to my family and Sawyer’s too sending us all kinds of things for the baby. There are still a couple of things I wanted to pick up on me now, and Jaxon is working the night shift tonight, so I’m sure he’ll want to go, too.

Speaking of…We had dinner with his parents a week ago and his mom has also started buying all kinds of things for the baby too and gave them all to us that night. She mentioned she didn’t think Jaxon would ever give her grandchildren, so him being with me was the best thing that could happen. She doesn’t care that this baby isn’t genetically Jaxon’s, but it made me think about if the guys would want me to have children with all of them?

I would love for them to have that if that’s what they wanted and my body is capable of it. It’s hard to know for sure, but I haven’t really spoken to them about it. Maybe it’s a discussion we should have if everything goes well with this birth. Again, I don’t want them getting their hopes up.

Anyway, after my appointment I was feeling a little down, but now, I feel more upbeat and ready to kick some cocky puck pushers butts. For old times' sake.

The other guys are happy I’m here. it seems, given the giant group hug I received. Bishop offered me his arm like a gentleman and led me inside with the other guys behind us. They dropped me off at the bleachers and now I get to wait for them while they change. Maddox made sure to leave me with his coat so that I would be extra toasty. Since it’s nearly winter now, I already had a nice coat on, but a little extra warmth is always welcome rink side. While I wait for the guys, I open the family group chat (as in me and the guys. There are two other family group chats on my phone as well.)

**Jaxon:** What’s for dinner? Does mom need to cook something? She’s been bragging about some vegan recipes she’s found.

**Nolan:** Nothing can beat that Thai curry we had last week.

**Jaxon:** Please man, my mom knows how to make anything taste good, including veggie stuff.

I laugh to myself. The whole vegan things has been a change for Jaxon for sure. He had never had vegan food before we got together…well most of the guys hadn’t except for Sawyer, of course. It's been a change for all of them, and I’ve told them before that they can eat whatever they want outside the house. The only thing they would need to do is brush their teeth before kissing me. Nothing too extreme, but they refuse. They’ve all decided out of solidarity to follow in my dietary needs. I’ll admit they have become very creative in remaking their favorite dishes into vegan meals. I’ve tried some really good food, and I believe Jaxon when he says his mom has some good recipes. She could make a shoe taste good!

**Me:** I will never say no to her cooking!

**Jaxon:** I’ll let her know. How did the appointment go, Angel?

**Me:** Alright. I’ll tell you about it later.

The guys send me a few concerned messages but I ease their minds for now. Everything will be explained later.