CHAPTER 40

SIA
"Don't do this Sia." He said.
I sniffed quietly, I was afraid this would happen sooner or later. There's no way he won't pick his first love over me. He couldn't have forgotten her so soon. She holds a big place in his heart, I can see it from the way he acted with her before.
After getting the revelation from my strange grandmother who looks like me, I became totally confused. I realized I was in a daze for way too long. I saw his car arriving through the window, I waited for him wanting to tell him about the discovery.
I didn't want to hide anything from him but I didn't see him. So I kept waiting. Then a maid brought me lunch, I decided to ask her about Kevin. She told me she saw him going into the study, I felt like he might need a hand since he has a lot on his mind now.
The maid led me there. I stopped at the door listening to their conversation.
"...my feelings for you never changed..." That hurt me a lot. He still loves her, then what about me.
I gently pushed the door open and met them in that state. My head spun around immediately. My heart shattered to pieces, I felt numb. I silently walked away closing the door noisily. I dragged myself back to the chambers. Why do I feel this way? Maybe because I can't accept that he is with another woman.
Not just another woman but his first love. A woman he once was crazy about. A woman he cried for when he heard her death. A woman whom he once had lots of intimacy with. A woman who has returned to fight with me and take him back.
She was right, I am just a stranger. They have been together right before I existed.
"You could have told me the truth about your feelings. You shouldn't have treated me the way you did. Why give me so much hope when she still means a lot to you?" I asked shakily.
My voice was breaking. My tears are bitter but not enough to express how I feel. I have never been so emotionally down even when my family turned their backs against me. I just can't accept that the only person I have left as my supporter is going to abandon me soon.
"I didn't touch her. She touched me. That was a big mistake and I am sorry. I would never leave you for her, you have to understand how sincere I am about you. I love you much more than before." He explained.
"I know you are saying all this to make me feel better. You don't have to. If you want to go back to her it's fine. But you have to let me cry, I have lost someone very dear to me. I have no one to fight for me anymore." I wiped the tears flowing freely in my face.
He scoffed, "What makes you think I'll leave you? It was a mistake and I will keep apologizing. Please stop doing this to yourself. Nina is my past, you are my present. I won't leave you, I will not leave you."
He kept repeating those words. Still, it did not make me feel better. I think my jealousy is worse than I think. I can't accept it.
I only want him for myself. The fact that he's had some kind of affection for this woman before makes me so weak.
"But you still love her. How can I be rest assured when your feelings for her haven't changed. I am not saying you should toss her away. Still, I have feelings too. I have gotten used to having you to myself, now I have to share you with your first love." I told him.
He grunted in frustration. "What are you talking about? You are not sharing me with anyone. If you can just calm down, you'll see that you have nothing to worry about."
I wiped another tear from my face. I simply can't stop myself, it hurts badly.
"I am not trying to compete with her. I want to believe you but what can I do when you two are getting intimate again. You just couldn't resist the urge to kiss her!" I finally yelled.
He tried to touch me but I moved back.
"I was so sure. I was so happy that you won't leave me. I became scared the moment I learnt who she is, but thinking that you won't leave me made me feel more at ease. Now I don't know if I should prepare myself for more of this or give up."
"Why won't you calm down and let me explain? She kissed me, she tried to seduce. I have pledged my loyalty to you, I will not go back on my words."
His eyes portray so much pity. I feel so pathetic, of course he feels sorry for me. I don't blame him though, my life has never been good. Just when I thought things would be different at least, I am having more issues with him and his family.
On the other hand is my father, and Robin who hates me so much. What could make me more pathetic than this?
"Sia..." He tried touching me again.
I moved back, "I'd like to be alone please."
With that, he left the chambers. He didn't argue or protest, and that made me glad. I walked to the inner chamber and fell on the bed. I let my bitter tears soak the sheets, I just wanted to cry. As if it will make me feel better, all I want is to cry.
I cried myself to sleep. My life has never been good but I've tried to be strong. However, I don't know how long I can hold on. All these is becoming too much to bear. To lose Kevin is worse than anything, I forgot my family to be with him. It's so hard.
•••••
I laid on the bed even after waking up from sleep. I didn't have the strength to do anything or talk to anyone. Kevin did not come back yet, makes me think that he's with her. And...
Bang!
I felt his presence immediately the door closed. I turned to the side pulling the sheets to myself. His scent became stronger and stronger, indicating that he is very close to me.
"I know you're not asleep." His cold voice rang through my ears.
He sat down beside me, I did not turn to look at him or move at all.
"Are you hungry? Let's have dinner elsewhere." He suggested.
"I don't feel like going." I replied.
"I promise I won't pester you. I'm not trying to bribe you with this. I only felt you need to go out since you haven't in days." He tried to convince me.
I turned to look at him, he looks like he's been very sad. On the contrary, I am quite hungry. I sat up without looking at him.
"Let's go."
I walked into the bathroom and fixed my hair and face. Then I left with him. As always, I felt those angry pair of red eyes staring at me from a corner. Whoever that is, would be one of the family members. I don't know how I always happen to feel them though.
Luckily, no one came to stop us. He drove us himself out of the mansion into the city. He stopped at a very big restaurant. There aren't much people there but it looks like a quiet place. Someone came to welcome us immediately we entered.
"Your majesty, It's such a pleasant surprise to see you. It's been so long." Someone who looks like the manager came to welcome us.
He called him your majesty, that means he's a werewolf too.
He looked at me, "And you came with a new partner?"
Huh? Why is he asking that? Is that any of his fucking business? Is he trying to make me understand that he always comes here with Nina before?
"I don't like this place." I said to Kevin.
He seemed to have noticed my mood, he frowned at the manager.
"I see you have added poking your nose into your customer's business to this restaurant's services. I can't wait to give my ratings to this restaurant."
The man's face turned pale, he quickly bowed in fear.
"No your majesty. I am very sorry, please don't take it the wrong way. What can a beta wolf like me say before our mighty pack leader? I am no one, please don't take my words to heart." He begged.
"Really? You are no one yet you can tell your king what to do with his life! You dare talk to my Luna that way. Excuse me, this restaurant will close down by tomorrow! That's a promise." Kevin growled at him.
He went down on his knees, "Please don't do this your majesty. Luna, please forgive me. I didn't mean to say anything offensive. If this restaurant closes down, then I'll have nothing to feed myself and my family."