CHAPTER 8

SIA
Everything today happened so fast. It still feels like I'm in a dream. I feel like the moon goddess is finally on my side. After I shifted to an omega, everyone deserted me. In some cases, the families of the unfortunate omegas would support them. But that's not my case. The whole pack hates me, even my parents.
Nothing could be more painful than to have your own parents blame you for something that's not your fault. I get bullied and harassed, they did nothing about it. Eventually they felt like I needed to leave because I was bringing them nothing but shame.
My aunt took me in when I left. She's the only one who understood me right from start. My parents had to make her life miserable for accepting me. Sometimes I wonder what kind of person my father is.
His own sister and daughter, he's making her pay for my crimes. That's why I owe her a lot and I will do whatever I can to pay her back. She deserves to be happy. The death of her husband wasn't easy for her, I know she's struggling.
I changed into a lingerie and laid on the bed. I am still shocked someone stood up for me today. He almost killed his brother because of me. Sheila says that's what he does if anyone dares to harm his employees. But then I feel like this is more than just being his employee. He was just defending me as a person.
I felt thirsty. Since my boss isn't around and there's no male inside the mansion, I can just go in this and get back. I rushed to the kitchen and got myself a glass of juice. I began drinking and coming out of the kitchen.
I thought I was alone, I was wrong. His scent filled the living room as big as it is. I didn't want to look there but I had to. I just love his scent so much.
"Mate." My wolf Lena said.
"Come on Lena, not now." I told her.
I was wondering what he's looking at that his eyes are so dark when I remembered that my lingerie is revealing. He didn't stop looking at me, I felt uncomfortable and at the same time, liked the attention.
"Sir?." Was all I could say.
He didn't say anything so I ran upstairs to my room to get something better. I didn't want him getting the wrong idea about me. Probably thinking I'm some kind of whore. I roamed my closet looking for the appropriate thing to wear. His scent is so close, I wonder where he is now.
"Can you stop doing that?." He demanded in his usual cold voice.
I jumped in fright, he startled me. I didn't even realize that he followed me up to my room.
"What are you doing here Sir? I... I actually wanted to change to something better." I stuttered, nervous and a bit uncomfortable.
I've actually been feeling hot since I got back. Am I supposed to tell him that, it feels like something is happening.
"Why are you running from me?." He asked.
I gulped, "Nothing Sir. I just didn't want to give you the wrong impression of me."
"I came to ask how you're doing. I guess you are doing great since you can hide your body from your mate. Excuse me." He walked out.
I'm confused. He says I am hiding my body from my mate. Does this mean he accepts me as his mate?. Wake up Sia, it's not gonna be easy like that.
My phone notification rang, I went to check it and I saw a reminder. Oh no. It starts tomorrow. How do I tell my boss about this embarrassing thing?.
Thankfully, tomorrow is the weekend. There may be no office work but I'm sure he has errands for me. How am I going to cope with this? I am going to suffer so much.
No wonder I've been getting the signs for the past few days. I was so engrossed in getting a job that I totally forgot.
I changed into my pyjamas later and went to his study. I knocked on the door and waited for a reply before going in. The study was silent, only the sound of me walking in was heard.
"Excuse me Sir. I need to talk to you." I said bluntly.
He looked at me and removed his reading glasses. How many times will I say that's he's so good looking, sometimes I wonder if it's a bonus to look good as an alpha.
"I'm listening." He replied.
He didn't even offer me a seat. Rude.
"I wanted to ask for permission to take a few days off." I said.
"Why do you need a few days off a job you started yesterday?." He asked.
I sighed, "I... I'm not feeling too well Sir. I just want to get a few days off alone to heal myself."
My reason sounds lame and stupid. I can't tell him what is happening to me so I think this is the only way.
"You know you're not making sense right? What exactly is wrong with you? Why are you asking for a few days off already? I could get someone to treat you, why do you want to be alone?." He asked suspiciously.
I fidgeted my fingers, how do I explain this? I feel so embarrassed.
"I am telling you the truth Sir. I need to take care of myself and heal alone. I don't want to do something I'll regret. I always stay indoors to avoid unnecessary attention..."
He raised his brow as if he already understood what I'm trying to say. Great. I still managed to embarrass myself, I can't look at him.
"So you want to leave here?."
I nodded. Maybe leaving tonight will be a great idea. I'll just stay indoors and my aunt will help me. I'm going to be in pain but I'll manage just like I've always done.
He stood up and walked close to me. His eyes still roaming my body.
"You can't hide forever. Can you handle the pain?."
I nodded again. "I can try. I've always been able to manage the worst of pains. I can still do it this time."
He scoffed, "I am not a female but I'll tell you what you don't know. The pain of your heat cycle is going to be worse this time, because you met me. How will you handle that?."
He's right. I never thought of that. If the pain becomes unbearable, I'll have no choice than to mate with someone. I don't want to give myself to just anyone. This is what I've always been trying to avoid, it's inevitable.
"You can stay here. I'll get someone to do your job till you are done. Good luck with the heat."
"Thank you Sir... I'll leave now."
I walked out of the study in thoughts. If I need to mate with someone, can't I just do it with my mate?. I've forgotten my mate is the Alpha. He doesn't seem to be interested in my life, now I know he only defended me as his worker. It may also be due to the anger he feels for his brother.
I walked into my room and shut the door behind me. I laid on my bed thinking about what he said. I can't even stay a minute now without thinking of my mate. He didn't reject me neither did he accept me.
He's sure to reject me, the pack would never want someone like me as their Queen. I am still willing to try my luck.
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I couldn't sleep all through the night. I feel so sore and painful. Everywhere hurts a lot. He was right. The pain and the desire is way too much. It's true that if I've met my mate, the feeling is like hell. After taking my bath, I simply wore a black short sleeveless dress that could be loosened with the ropes around it.
I need to get myself some food and drink. I need a cold drink. I sluggishly got out of bed and found my way down to the kitchen. Breakfast was already prepared.
I took my own portion and got a glass of juice. Then I walked back to my room. I couldn't eat much due to the pain. The pain is killing me, I don't know what else to do. My boss didn't even come check on me. I'm glad he didn't. I picked my phone and put a call to my aunt.
"Sia dear. I was just about to call you. How are you doing?." She asked after picking the call.
"I'm not fine aunt. I need help. My cycle..."
She gasped, "Goodness! Why didn't you tell me? How do you feel?."
"Worse. Aunt, I don't think I can bear this pain any longer." I writhed in pain.
"What are you going to do? Why don't you come home so I can make you my herbal relief tea?."
I know she's worried but no tea is going to stop the pain I feel right now. I need to mate with someone. I need my mate.