CHAPTER 62: MATCH MADE IN HEAVEN

The flaps of tissue located in my larynx got intertwined with its passage, which intermittently prevented words from coming out of me at what he uttered. I was literally speechless at what he just declared as my heart continued to somersault and radically malfunction inside my chest. I could barely feel my body as it numb with nervousness at the thoughts that filled my mind.


Lewis' words were like piercing arrows that struck straight at the center of my heart. I heard him loud and clear. I knew what he said was true and utterly valid, but my mind kept on contradicting them as much as it could. I want to deny those facts he was saying, castigating my heart not to flourish the feeling furthermore. There had been a battle undergoing inside me for days now, a conflict between two powerful forces that obviously made me restless and utterly disturbed.


“I’m sorry, Lewis, but I simply can’t willed my mind to think the way you are thinking. I caused a lot of suffering to several people in the past, and believe me, I regret everything I’ve done to them. God knows I didn’t wish to commit the same mistake all over again. So you can’t blame me for acting this way towards this circumstance, because I swore to myself that never again will I be the cause of someone’s pain and grievance.”


Out of nowhere, he suddenly pulled off to the side, which created an abrupt panic attack on my system. He swiftly faced me. His eyes were intensely passionate that merely looking at it burned and destructed every defense I built for myself. Gently, he held my trembling icy hand, urging me to stare straight at him. Once I did, his other hand lightly caressed the side of my face. I was literally frozen with the warmth of his touch. Time stopped instantly for me as once again I was hypnotized by him.


“I understand where you are coming from, Penelope. God knows I do. But what I can’t fully grasp was your decision. I can feel it. I can see it in your eyes. What you’re uttering was the total opposite of what your heart was conceiving.”


“No, that’s not true” I immediately blocked his words while shaking my head vigorously.


“You are starting to fall for me, Penelope, don’t deny it. Why resist it when we both knew that we needed each other to heal our past? You needed me as much as I needed you, Penelope. Why fight the feeling when it will be the cure so you can free yourself from all those pain Michael inflicted on you? Trust me, Penelope. I will never do a thing to hurt you. I care for you and I will commit to anything just to make you happy.”


“I don’t know, Lewis, but…”


My words were instantly suppressed and abruptly blocked with his lightspeed movements. His lips covered mine with just a matter of seconds, locking it with fiery caresses as he secured my head with both hands. He kissed me with ardent devotion as if he was committedly inclined to. My mind had literally stopped circulating, while my heart unexpectedly rejoiced at the unison of our lips. Everything failed to exist around me except the kiss he was compellingly administering.


“I love you, Penelope,” He whispered softly after slightly releasing my still trembling lips. His sincerest and heartfelt confession made my eyes streak with uncalled for tears. I could feel my heart swelling as it was slowly being wrapped with the first three words he just exclaimed. “Let me love you. Permit me to enter your life, your heart. I will never let you regret it. I love you so much that I could no longer be at ease every time I didn’t see you. Your absence makes it hard for me to breathe. I need you, Penelope,” He slowly held one of my hands and placed it on his chest where his heart was beating outrageously. “This beats for you alone. There’s no one in this world who could make it crazily beating as it does now, except you. Please, let me love you.”


Still wanting to resist the urge as my mind was starting to circulate once again, but the enigmatic and mysterious force hastily built a strong fortress to barricade any thoughts from sneaking in. I looked at his eyes as he stared intently at mine, drowning with all the love it contained as I felt his heart still convulsing.


Unexpectedly, my mind suddenly halted from its retaliation and accepted defeat. Letting the stronger force overrule it as it gradually encompassed my whole being, allowing me to see alone the man who trespassed on my still battered but starting to heal heart. Without thinking, my face slowly leaned forward, cutting our distance before as I gently closed my eyes and let my lips touch his.


I felt him gradually smiling as our lips intertwined. His free hand silkily crawled at my nape, pulling me closer to him as his lips moved and explored every corner of my lips. I let the sensation wash over every doubt inside my head, which made my heart soar freely in the heavenly realm.


After minutes of silent intimacy, he caged me tightly in his loving arms. His gestures were obviously implying his happiness. Feeling the warmth of his embrace, I could feel myself being released from the captivity of my past. His simple yet heartwarming touch evidently scorched away those taints I acquired in the past. He was like a vacuum sucking all the painful remnants of yesteryears, leaving me with only a feeling of unexplainable joy and indescribable content.


“I love you, my gorgeous baby. Thank you for giving me a chance” He unclasped me from his embrace and gazed at me with shimmering eyes. There were shining crystals enveloping them, beads of utmost joy and exuberance. “From this night on, I devote my life and heart to you alone. I will not let anyone hurt you ever again. You don’t know how you made me happy tonight. I felt like the luckiest and most blessed man alive right this very moment.”


I simply smiled at his overjoyed statement. I am feeling the exact same thing as he is feeling at this moment. Nothing could be compared at the extremity of peace my heart was clinging on now. There’s not a single word that could describe how joyful I am to finally experience being loved by someone. The feeling of being wanted, being needed and being cared for was extremely overpowering that made me lose words to say.


The heaviness around us earlier was no longer in the air. It was hastily replaced with jovial silence as he started to drive again towards our destination. The smile on his face didn’t fade away the entire evening. He held my hand almost the whole duration of the event and consistently whispered sweet nothings to my ear.


I felt like a teenager all over again, experiencing for the first time how it was to be in love with a man who loved me all the same. Lewis was definitely the one for me, I highly conclude it now. We are match made in heaven, because everything in me now felt right and divinely light.