Chapter 46

Jasmine


The heavy weight on my eyelids started fading ever so slowly, the atmosphere around me remained still and silent within my recognition.

I was still in the bathroom, and apparently, I had fainted on the floor.

I slowly sat up, a headache accompanying me and a weird mixture of pain remaining livid as if to make the pain of the open wounds on my back and cuts on my fingertips more apparent than it already was.

The wounds hadn't healed like it was supposed to, every vampire was supposed to heal automatically and these open wounds and cuts of mine were just telling me that I might be a vampire but I was still under the spell that was holding that side of mine in and keep me under the disguise.

Groaning I stood up, forcing my limbs to work.

I did not care the slightest bit about these wounds, from the moment I woke up, the only thing that swirled in my mind was the flashbacks of what I had seen right before I fainted.

The truth I unveiled and it was time to go and face the person who kept it covered for so many years.

Martha...

And today I was not going to let her get away or avoid my questions, today she would have to answer all of my questions.

I hurriedly walked out of the room, ignoring the gawking gaze of the maids I walked past as I headed to Martha's room with my blood-covered disheveled clothes.

Till I reached her room, any sort of emotion or empathy I had in myself had faded into nothingness. It was rage, only the rage and the pain I could see through it.

She was the bloody reason why this truth was hidden from me for so many years, how I grew up thinking of myself as a different person rather than knowing and accepting myself as who I was.

She was the reason behind the suffering and insults I faced due to not knowing my identity.

She was the damn reason I had to see my mates suffering they I was unable to help them.

It was enough, I had had enough of it.

There was no holding back this time, there was not going to be any chances to escape the hell she had put me through by keeping my entire life a secret

I found the door half-closed and without thinking twice I barged into her room, the door hitting the side of the wall with a loud bang, and Martha who was looking outside of the room watching the color of the moon going from the deepest to the darkest shade of red whipped around in surprise to look at me.

"Jasmine..." The shock sprouted in her orbs and it soon turned into dismay as she looked at my state.

"Jasmine, oh my god. What happened to you?" She hurriedly walked closer to me and tried to touch but I grabbed her hand in my harsh hold.

Her eyes widened, not only because of the tight hold I used on her but also because of the cuts that were still there on my fingertips as the sign of the nails that had extended for the first time in all these years or maybe for the first time ever.

I pushed her away from me, and she stumbled backward. Her eyes not moving their gaze away from me, the fear of something shining in them and her attempts to cover it up not working at all.

"I have sad news for you, Martha," I walked closer to her with slow steps, a strange power making my rage work as a trigger to the feral that somehow was still alive within me.

"Despite all your efforts, you still couldn't keep the truth hidden," The chuckle that automatically left my mouth had no humor in it at all.

She stopped backing away at this moment, her motions freezing as though her body has went frigid as ice.

"Now I know who I am..." I whispered grabbing her arms to make sure she had got no way out.

She began shaking her head as if she did not want to hear me, as if she did not want to hear the truth that she herself had known this whole time along. As if she was terrified to hear it.

She tried to look away, seeming reluctant to face me but I grabbed her face and made her look at me.

"I am a vampire," I stated.

She once again shook her head, her action merely surprising me in this state where the rage was trying to overpower me from every side as the tears gathered in her eyes.

"No, you are not!" She said, "You are a human."

"Stop fucking lying!" Shouting I harshly shook her, "I know the fucking truth, Martha!"

"And I also know that you knew this the whole time but kept it a secret, I am bloody aware that you are the one who transformed me into this human form!"

She looked miserable at this moment, there was the guilt I could see in her eyes but that was not there because of me.

It was for someone other reason as if she had lost something or failed to....keep a promise?

"It shouldn't have happened..." she whimpered to herself, the grief roofing her voice.

"But it fucking happened! It's no longer a secret that you are a traitor, Martha," I spat, "Under this disguise of a naive woman who rescued me from the riverside, you were able to fool me for all these years but now I know, You are a selfish and vicious woman! All you care is about yourself. You can no longer fool me, Martha. Your true colors are exposed!"
"No, that's not true..." Her voice was barely audible.

"That's the truth, Martha. That's the truth I couldn't understand. Just because of you, I went through all of these— I remained helpless, watching my mates going through those tough moments and not being able to help them, I faced those insults, and every time those unanswered questions remained unanswered I was the one who had to go through the very same hopelessness that made my skin crawl with fear. You are the reason behind all these." I shouted, "Did you hear me, Martha? Did you fucking hear me?"

Tears came streaming down her face, but no word left her mouth.

Among all these going on, the only thing that bugged me the most was her silence.

I hated every bit of it.

I harshly let her go and took a few steps back only so that I could keep the mere amount of control I had over myself.

"Tell me, Martha. What did you get from all of these? Why did you get by keeping all of these a secret that only you knew? What did you get by transforming a vampire into a human and changing her identity forever? What did you get?!"

No answer came, she was not even uttering a single word as though she had found her escape from this trauma in the silence.

"You know...my whole life, I considered you my own. I was grateful to have you in my life thinking of you as the kind woman who saved a child from the riverside and embraced her with open arms but you...." The venom dripped from each of my words, "You broke my trust, betrayed me, keep me in dark for years, and still you are keeping everything within yourself, trying to keep me in oblivion. I thought of you as my family, but you turned out to be someone I never even knew, You are completely opposed to the Martha I knew."

"You are a traitor!" My tears betrayed me and they managed to become visible despite my efforts.

She still remained silent, saying nothing. Her eyes remained still and her own tears continuously made their way down to her cheek as every second passed.

"But amidst all these, god still made me know the truth. Even the spells couldn't stop the truth from coming to the light and there's one more thing I have discovered too and I am sure you would be very happy to hear that." I roughly wiped my tears.

"Now I also know that I belong to Vaidel Dynasty, I know what my mom and dad looked like and that they belonged to the royals."

Martha's eyes widened upon my sentence, she went pale as a ghost as though one of her greatest fears have come true without letting her know.

"And Martha, now I know a lot more than you have probably ever wanted me to know. It won't take me much time to reach the end and get to know my real parents." I said.

The panic was there, vivid in her orbs.

"You know who my partners are. Yes, you are bloody aware of it, aren't you? Martha!"

If her previous expression was a look of panic, this time it surpassed every boundary. She looked miserable. The fear, the anxiety, and the rush, everything had made her a mess of emotions that I could sense from her right now.

"Or maybe it was you, who hurt my parents in that fight? I do not doubt that it could be you. Did you abduct me and raised me till now just so you could sell me at a good price just like human slaves are sold? Was that your real motive Martha?!"

"Enough, Jasmine!" She finally snapped, the hurt and anguish screaming through her voice, "Do you even have an idea of what are you saying? Are you hearing yourself?!"

"Yes, I fucking do!" I shouted back, "I have no trust left in you, Martha. I have these flashbacks in my head, I hear these screams of the unknown, I saw the sight of blood and fire everywhere in my dream, I saw the faces of my parents but can't recognize them the way a child can and whether you accept it or not, You have all the answers to it yet you are refusing to tell me a word. Then how can I not believe that you have some motive behind all of these? How can I trust you?!"

She emitted a heavy sigh of defeat, once again saying nothing keeping the silence as an escape.

But now I had had enough of it, I was done wasting my time on her.

"Just forget it, I won't be able to trust anything coming from you anyways," I bitterly chuckled.

"But on the brighter side, I now have a door open," I smiled, "I still might be under the spell but now I know who I am and what I need to do for the ones who accepted me in every way possible—My mates."

Realization seemed to pass through her eyes upon my words, a plain sheet of dismay covered her face.

"What are you planning to do?"

"Exactly what you are thinking, today is the last day of the blood moon and I am going to take the risk that none ever had." I announced, "I am going to make them mark me."

"NO!" She said almost immediately, "Enough is enough, Jasmine. I am not going to let you put your life at risk, you have not turned into a complete vampire yet." She grabbed my hand.

"I know that very well, the spells are still holding my vampiric side back but after losing so many years of my life already, I am not going to miss the chance to let my mates claim me in every way possible. I won't let them go through the unbelievable amount of pain they will have to go through because of this blood moon and not being able to mark their mate."

"You are out of your mind, Jasmine!" She shouted, her anger surfacing, "You can end up losing your life."

Only a small chuckle left my mouth this time.

I removed her hand that had grabbed mine and uttered the next words, "I know, and trust me I'll make sure that either tonight will be the start of a new chapter of my life or it'll be the end of it. I am done."

"No, Jasmine. I won't let you do that!" She once again grabbed my hand, determined to not let me go.

"You can't stop me, Martha. This time I'll write my fate on my own." I pushed her away from me and walked out of the room before she could even reach me.

I quickly locked the door from outside so that she can't get out of the room.

"Open the door, Jasmine! I can't let you out your life to risk, the chances of you surviving are thin!"

She kept shouting and banging against the door in order to get out.

"Open the damn Door, Jasmine."

I ignored all her shouts and attempts because I had already made up my mind.

"Make sure she can't get out of the room until tomorrow morning," I told the guards and they nodded obeyeing my order immediately and standing on both side of the door.

I looked at the door one last time before I walked away from the place with only one thing remaining in my mind and one decision remaining unmoved.

Tonight it'll either be the beginning or the end.