Chapter 51 Leaving

Ava's POV
I didn't know what kind of attitude I should take about my relationship with Aaron.
If I had felt a little sad about his compulsion before I woke up today, I should probably feel a little more relaxed now that I already knew he was out of control because of the drugs.
But in fact it didn't.
I just wondered if it was a little too cruel for him to leave at this point in his life.
Would he feel sorry or sad about it?
It's hard to imagine that one day I'll think that way too.
Before I came to Blue Moon Pack or a long time ago I always thought I was a very cold-blooded and numb person, I was the same to everyone, except Kate.
The world was divided by me into two simple categories, one for Kate and one for people other than Kate.
So when I found out that Kate and Alpha had some other feelings I was about to go crazy with jealousy.
I couldn't understand how she could have feelings for other werewolves.
Shouldn't she just be with me?
Shouldn't it be that as long as we can be together, nothing else matters?
I don't understand.
But I know that as her sister, her family, I shouldn't try to stop happiness when it's coming, even though I really don't want to.
God knows how many evenings when she sat beside me and told me about her fantasies of happiness in the future I was very touched on the surface, but I felt nothing in my heart, I even felt a little ridiculous.
How do you know what kind of gift he will prepare for you? Maybe he'll send you off with a loaf of bread, maybe he'll just say "oh happy holidays baby", maybe he won't even prepare a gift.
At that time, you will feel how ridiculous you imagined at that time.
But now, after doing something last night and planning to leave today, I can't help but do what I used to laugh at.
I soaked my entire body in the bathtub and felt the water running over my skin.
There was no place on my body that didn't make me feel sore.
"Do you need a little medicine?"
Misty said worriedly, "You know how long we have to walk, and I think there's a good chance we'll have to spend the night in the forest with you the way you are."
"It doesn't matter." I slapped the water with my palm, "It's still early, we can make it all the way to Bright Moon if we leave now."
"I know we can make it all the way there." Misty obviously does not trust me, "But have you ever thought that now you can not transform into wolf form."
I had really forgotten that there was such a thing.
The physical energy consumed yesterday was indeed too much, and it was true that a werewolf who had just had sex would not be able to transform into a wolf for some time due to physical weakness, which I had forgotten.
"That's okay."
I tried to be firm, "Even if it's a night in the forest it's nothing to worry about, it's not the first time."
Misty sighed and stopped talking.
I cleaned myself up at a faster pace, applying medicine to my injuries along the way.
Probably because I had soaked in hot water, my back and legs were finally not so sore.
You know, when I woke up this morning, I couldn't even get out of bed and walk.
It was probably because of this that Misty was a little hesitant, although I knew she had wanted to leave for a long time.
"Are you sure you don't want to think about it?" Misty added, "Or go and say goodbye to Adele, it won't take much time, will it?"
If Adele knew, she wouldn't have let her go alone, Misty thought to herself, perhaps even prepare something for the road and then send us on our way.
That would certainly be nice.
"No need." I put on my clothes and went to the bed, "She won't be happy to let me go alone if she knows, and will most likely see me off. I don't want to see her at this time."
Especially after having just had that kind of relationship with her brother.
"All the previous letters have been taken care of, right?" I asked Misty, "Is there anything left behind?"
"You'd better see for yourself." Misty said vaguely as if she had gone off on a bit of a tangent, "All the stuff you threw inside the closet."
I didn't quite understand what her attitude was, so I went to the closet and reached out and pulled it, and a closet full of things fell down with no money, all from Aaron.
I then understood why she spoke so.
Of course there is no letter or anything like that.
Because all of the dangerous letters were disposed of after I got my hands on them.
As for the part that was left ...... I rummaged through the closet and found a few letters of little use from the bottom drawer, all of which were some useless nonsense written by Kate, shredded and thrown into the toilet.
That would do it.
I changed into the clothes I was wearing before I came to Blue Moon Pack.
The clothes were washed by Adele, and I haven't worn them much since.
Frankly, Aaron is the best werewolf I've ever met, whether as an Alpha or as a brother, or whatever the role is.
Like these things he sent me, some of which I would have liked very much indeed, like the silver quill, and then the book he carried in his arms.
But perhaps something special in fate was destined to put us on opposite sides of the fence.
I will probably never be able to see how lovely and good he was as a partner and lover.
I wanted to close the cabinet, but my hand stopped the moment I closed the door, and there was a piece of green fabric pressed between the cracks.
What was that?
I reopened the cabinet door and tried to tuck it in, but it seemed to be wedged between something and couldn't be moved at all. I had to pull it out slowly, along with the top and bottom.
Misty let out a small gasp.
Even I myself froze in place.
It was a green dress.
To be exact, it was a green evening gown.
Silver silk threads sewed together dark green silk and light green tulle, letting them cascade to create a texture similar to that of a lake and a forest, with pearls the size of grains of rice set at the hem.
The sun shines on them like the morning dew scattered in bits and pieces around the skirt.
It was caught in the middle of a pile of letterhead that Aaron sent me, and I never intended to use it, so I never found it until today.
It was as if I finally understood the look in his eyes when he came to me that afternoon and asked why I wasn't going to the dinner party.
I thought if I had gone then he would have hand delivered the dress at that time instead of having it wedged in the middle of a pile of not so important things waiting to be discovered one day.
"I've changed my mind." I whispered as I stroked the pearls on its skirt.
"You're going to take a day off and leave tomorrow?"
Misty said very loudly, "That's the way it should be. It's really not a good idea to rush today."
"I have no such plans." I said somewhat helplessly, "I just plan to wear this skirt to go."
"In this skirt?!" Misty's voice got louder, "You're going to wear this dress to catch up?"
"Yes." I nodded and took off the dress I was wearing.
"You mean you're going to wear this dress?" Misty continued in disbelief, "The sludge and dew will make it too dirty to look at, and the pearls, it'll get scratched all the way up, and by the time you get to Bright Moon they'll have fallen off without a single one left."
"Yes." I agreed with her, "But I'm still going to wear it."
I've never worn such a beautiful dress in my life.
"And I'm going to braid my hair." I looked in the mirror, "How about just wearing it in a bohemian style?"
"Whatever you want." Misty muttered in a small voice, "Do whatever you want."
There was just one thing that was a bit more troublesome, and that was that the dress it didn't have room for my own surgical instruments.
But I managed to fix it perfectly and I tied them to my legs very conveniently.
I was on the verge of not recognizing myself when I looked in the mirror.
Probably because the visual residual image was a little long, I actually had the feeling that I was on my way to the party when I was supposed to be going downstairs quickly to avoid everyone.
Especially when I was going down the stairs.
But this feeling was also quickly dispelled.
"Which way to go?"
Misty asked in a whisper, "It's not a good idea to just go straight out."
Of course I didn't plan to go straight out, "To the library." I said, "There's a secret passage there, Adele said so."
We were planning to sneak out of there together for a bit of fun, but it never happened.
"The library again." Misty said a little unhappily, "Nothing good happens every time we're here, and this time we have to go through here."
"I don't want to go through here either." I said helplessly, "But it's more convenient from here. You don't want us to be stopped and questioned by the sentry."
Misty shut her mouth.
I found the secret passage without much effort, I thought it might be a little more trouble, but it turned out that it was hidden behind the last shelf, just move the shelf a little.
In normal times, such a bookshelf is not a problem for me at all, but not necessarily now. I paid the price of a broken arm to push it out a short distance.
Some barely able to squeeze in, but it's a pity that the skirt, just put on, had to get dirty.
The moment before entering the secret passage, I finally did not resist looking back towards the place where I used to sit, the book in that position was still in its original form, as if waiting for someone to open it.
But there will be no one else.
After I leave, no one should come to this loft.
Maybe Adele will come, but it won't take long for the building to be pushed out.
I remember Sam saying that they would make this place into an auditorium.