Chapter 62 Time

Ava's POV
I think I must have been crying for a long time.
How else could I be completely unable to make a sound when I wanted to speak?
I was trying to hold it in. When I suddenly realized that I was staying in my room and that the one who had just gone out was my own sister.
At that time, I was just thinking that I was finally safe now and didn't have to worry about whether or not I would be caught and torn apart by someone again, or if someone knew who I was and pounced on me to tear off my skirt.
I looked down at myself.
I was wearing the simplest white nightgown that Madame Tamera had made for me a long time ago.
I think the dress I was wearing when I returned must have been torn to the point of being completely invisible and then discarded by Kate.
Honestly, for a few seconds, I actually felt a little sorry for the dress that I had worn only once and then completely torn away. After all, it was the first skirt I had worn since I was old enough to wear it.
I thought I would wear it for the last time for someone to see.
I thought ......
I tried to move myself, and the pain in my legs and back together made me give up on the idea of getting out of bed and going for a spin for a while.
I wanted to call my wolf. But she wasn't there.
It wasn't until this time that I finally remembered that she was probably hurt too.
Because I remembered that when I was dragged down on the ground by the pack of wolves, the last voice I heard seemed to be her calling my name.
I think she probably showed up after I passed out.
I slowly moved to lie down on my own again, intending to rest for a while longer. But as I lay down, my eyes swept over to something on a side table and I suddenly froze.
It was a dress.
It was green.
It had been mended well and washed clean.
All the memories instantly rushed towards my blank brain like a tsunami, and I bent down and held my head with difficulty, and couldn't help but let out a groan.
It was as if the door had been slammed open and a familiar smell wrapped around me, it was Kate.
"Sister! How are you!"
I covered my head and fell into her arms and said, "Nothing, just a headache, don't worry, I'll be fine soon."
But she burst out as if she couldn't stand it anymore: "How dare they hurt you like this! It's unforgivable, I'm going to plan with Carson to wipe them out!"
My head hurt even more, and I slowed down and said, "Don't be so capricious, you're Luna now, you're responsible for the pack."
Kate sniffled and said, "But I don't want you to suffer, you suffered so much for me in the past, you can't do the same now, then what use would I be." She said, gradually silent.
Seeing her finally calm down, I breathed a sigh of relief and said, "Don't worry, it's really no big deal, with my health, rest for a few days to ensure that I'll be alive and well again, I can promise you that I will accompany you to do many things, no?"
I hugged Kate, she naturally buried her head into the nook of my neck, just like when she was a child, "It's good that you're back, I'll never let you go on such a dangerous mission again."
There was nothing I cared about anymore.
I risked almost dying to come back to my own home, my own place, to see the person who really loved me, so why shouldn't I cry?
But seeing her in this state of shock, I couldn't shed a tear any more.
I touched Kate's back again and again, and tried to soothe her with my softest voice in my ear.
"It's okay Kate, it's okay."
"I know." She nodded, "But you know what?"
"What?"
"Did you know you were going to be okay?" She looked at me, "Do you believe all those things you said to reassure me, yourself?"
No need to say more, I understood. Kate knew everything.
But it's been like this since I was a kid, no matter what happens, she's supposed to be the one being comforted and protected, and I'm used to that.
"I'm used to it." I smiled a little, "Can you bring in some food for me? I feel hungry."
Kate looked at me, not moving.
"Okay?" I said again, "Also, help me get that dress out and throw it away." I turned my head and felt her body heat as I buried my face in her embrace, "I don't really want to see it again."
"Okay, fine." Kate said, "Then I'll take it out later, okay? Make sure you don't see it for the rest of your life."
After she said that, she sighed and came up and hugged me again, "It's going to be okay baby." She stroked my hair, gentle like a mother, "Everything will be fine. Everything will pass. Don't think about it anymore, it doesn't matter, we have a future."
"Is there?"
"Yes." She looked at me and said firmly, "I promise."
That look was like the way she looked when I was watching her beat herself up when we were sad about not having candy as kids - patting her little chest and promising me, "We'll have candy later. I promise!"
"I believe you." Through the tears I tried to smile toward her, "Everything will be okay."
Yes, I will always believe in her like that.
Just like believing in myself.
I couldn't just lock myself in the house and lick my wounds after this. That's not my style. Nor was I willing to remember the hurt I'd suffered over and over again later.
"But I failed Kate." I looked at her, "I didn't finish the mission and I screwed everything up." I couldn't help but sigh as I said, "Carson was right, I'm not cut out for this at all. Forcing myself to do it just ended up hurting everyone, including myself."
Reader's POV
Carson just stood outside the door and listened quietly.
He had heard that Ava had woken up and rushed to drop what he was doing to visit her, only to hear just such a passage outside the door that made Carson think he might not see her at all any time soon.
After a while, Kate came out, carrying a dress in her hand.
He looked behind her, and Ava was sitting on the bed, her face toward the window with no visible expression.
"Well?" He asked in a low voice, "Does she look okay? Do you need a doctor?"
Kate shook her head, "I'm not sure. I'm going to go get her food ready now. We'll talk about the Blue Moon Pack in a while, I think we should let her rest."
"That's for sure." Carson hadn't planned to ask her about the Blue Moon Pack now, and now he wanted to ask even less. "Then I'll go take care of work while you take care of her."
Ava's POV
I turned my head when I heard the footsteps of two people talking away outside the door.
I buried my face into my knees, and tears finally came out, but I couldn't make too much noise or I would make them worry even more.
My body couldn't help but tremble, and the wounds on my body felt as if they were going to rip my whole body apart, but it was nowhere near as bad as the pain in my heart.
I'm so stupid, really. I once heard that even the most powerful alphas can be hurt by their feelings, and I never thought I would be the same when the day came.
Maybe, I should let go, or rather, it's long overdue.
"You finally want to open up?"
An extremely weak voice came, that is the fog, hearing her voice, I finally eased up a little and said: "I'm sorry, if I had listened to you earlier ......"
Misty interrupted me and said, "You do not need to say sorry to me, remember these injuries, you and I will become stronger."
Although this time the injury is very serious, but again as if breaking through my physical limits, my wounds surprisingly in just a few days to recover almost, such a speed even Carson had to praise.
"You are afraid that this physical quality is going to exceed me, the Alpha, that kind of injury, can actually heal so quickly, it is a miracle. Welcome back Ava, I don't think we need to recruit another wolf pack doctor."
I smiled and said, "Don't worry, I won't be running around anymore, I'll be back in the lab tomorrow, I have some new inspirations."
Carson shook his head helplessly and said, "I hope so, it won't take that much of a rush, you'll get some more rest."
Kate also came up and took my hand and said, "I learned some new tricks from Mrs. Griselda, you know how good her cooking is, it won't be long before you get to taste it."
Carson whispered, "I don't usually see you learning a trade for me." However, he was met with a blank stare from Kate.
"I'm going to go back, there are still a few steps I haven't figured out yet."
After Kate ran away in a huff, Carson came up and whispered, "You better be careful, there's always a smell of paste coming out of the kitchen lately, and the logistics have bought some new stuff. And don't forget to put in a good word for me at Kate's, I've been sleeping on the couch for days."
I almost laughed out loud, then said seriously: "Don't worry, after all, the clan's reproduction is very important, but it's been so long, no movement at all, I can have helped Kate long ago to do a physical examination, is it ......"
Carson helplessly pinched his brow and said, "Bright Moon in addition to Kate, you dare to talk to me like this, but that aspect I am obeying Kate's wishes, you have to help me to do her work ah."
After saying this Carson showed a 'you understand what's going on here' smile, and then hurried away.
"Why did he leave so quickly?" Misty said disgustedly "as if afraid that tomorrow there will be some improper remarks in the community."
I laughed, stood up and stretched myself, and looked out the window.
I'm glad that Carson and Kate were considerate enough not to ask me what happened at Blue Moon Pack so that I wouldn't have to recall those memories and to give me some time to breathe.
But I think that one day I can tell them about that past without a care in the world, and when that day comes, maybe I'll even be successful.
"You should have rested a little longer." Misty said.
I said helplessly, "I know what you mean, but I think I need to get busy now to keep my mind off things, you know, and leave the rest to time."
Yes, time is fair.
Time will not stop for anyone, all hurts will be released, all difficulties will not be able to knock me down.