Chapter 122

**Megan**

It’s strange I’ve been expecting him to want me to touch him since earlier but he hasn’t. Everytime I touch him he redirects my hands to his neck, I don’t really understand. He’s saying to me that he’ll have a hard time controlling himself if I do touch him but I thought that’s what men like. Is he lying to me? Did I not do it right? Or is what he is saying the truth and he’s just trying to protect me from himself?

I dry my hands and look in the mirror to see my hair is a mess but the bags under my eyes have faded so I can’t complain. I should probably ask him why he doesn’t want me to touch him rather than jump to conclusion but I don’t know how to bring up a conversation like that. The last thing I want is for us to end up arguing. I take a deep breath and open the door to the bathroom to walk out.

“Logan,” I call as I walk out. He turns to look at me and I see that he’s stood talking to David. I feel myself blush at the fact I’m stood in nothing but my panties and Logans t-shirt that only just covered me. I pulls on his t-shirt a little and I notice Logan smile at me and I know he’s laughing on the inside. I sigh and walk behind the desk to hide myself a little more.

“Hi,” I say with a small wave.

“Hello Miss Wright. How are you feeling today?” he asks.

“Neither good nor bad,” I say with a tilt of my head. Logan frowns and they both walk towards me. It is then I notice the plates on the coffee table. I watch them both sit in the chairs at the desk. I sit in the desk chair and I know they’re about to ask me what is wrong. “Due to what his Uncle has been doing and his idiotic actions it’s hard to feel good, yet to be back with him it’s hard to feel bad,” I explain and Logan just looks anywhere but at me or David.

“I told him just how stupid he is,” David says referring to Logan “As for his uncle, Logan has told me your plan and I admit, it is a good plan, I’ve always said behind every good man there’s an even better woman,” he says looking between Logan and I.

“Well it is if it all works out, Logan has to do his part,” I say looking at Logan.

“It will not be difficult, Mr Peters loves his women, I think tonight will be a good time to start, I’ll get someone following him right away, I’ll also look into the company books for you,” He says looking between Logan and I. I give him a small smile and watch him stand. “Enjoy the rest of your day, I sent them all to a theme park, I told them you weren’t feeling well and that Logan intended to speak to you,” he explains.

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“Tell me about your parents,” I say looking at Logan. I’m laid between his legs with my back to his chest. We had finished watching a movie and were talking about my mom. He had asked me about her and I told him everything from the way she laughed to what her favourite item in her wardrobe was.

“There’s not much to tell, they worked and argued a lot, my mother was really nice the first few years, I think it was when my father started cheating on her that she stopped caring for me. I think I reminded her of him too much. My father was always distant and cold towards me, when I got in trouble he used to hit me but only got really violent a few times. That’s why I’m close to David, he would tell my father when enough was enough and he’d be the one who would bandage me up and try and make sure it didn’t happen again but it always did. I think he just took things out on me really,” he explains. I look down at his stomach as I try to take all that information in. It makes me sad to have Logan think his parents never loved him. It’s not like he can ask them or ever find out why they did the things they did.

“That's horrible,” I say and hug him tightly. I can’t even picture a child version of Logan, let alone one terrified and hurting.

“It’s not that bad really,” he says, hugging me back. “My mother always tried to show me off because well I have an IQ of 150 or I did, I don’t know now with all my idiotic moves,” he says. “She got me to play the piano and study most nights of my life. My father got me into kick boxing when I was young as I was apparently weak. David taught me that,” he says and then looks down at me.

“David was like a father to you then?” I ask.

“Yeah but don’t tell him that, he’ll get a big head,he already acts like my father,” he states and I smile.

“He just cares for you, he wants you to be happy,” I say and press my lips to his.

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"What really happened between you two?" Yasmin says once Melanie and Julie both left.

When they came back from their day out I had all three of them asking me what Logan wanted to talk to me about. Luckily Logan and I spoke about the excuse I would make and that was; he wanted to speak to me to let me know that he still cares about me and that we couldn't be together now that the Principal Mrs Kitson had seen us together in Paris. That part threw the girls which meant I had to explain to them what happened in Paris, I just missed out the fact we had sat with them and had breakfast. I made up that Mrs Kitson wanted to speak to Logan privately which led to his decision to break things off in the first place.

Melanie seemed to be a little annoyed at the fact I have agreed to still be friends with him but she didn't voice that, I could just tell by the look on her face. Julie however thought it was sweet and thinks we'll end up getting back together even though I profusely told her it wasn't going to happen.

"How can you tell everything?" I ask her as I lay down. She lays next to me and smiles.

"It's because I'm not stupid, plus I saw you both early this morning, I kept the bedroom door open because I was worried about you, When I looked out I saw you walking with him down the hall," she explains and I smile.

"I was going to tell you anyway," I say and give her a small smile. "We are back together, we just want to keep it quiet because people seem to want to get involved and I know you don't want to and he's going to tell Carl," I explain and she smiles at me.

"What was his real reason?" she asks.

"His uncle had blackmailed him and some fears he has, as he has to move back over here at the end of this year and it just made him a little scared," I answer.

"I think that's more than a little scared," she states.

"Maybe but I just have to make sure he knows that it's a stupid fear," I say with a tilt of my head.

"Can I ask you something?" I ask. I never got to have the conversation with Logan over why he wouldn't allow me to touch him and it bothers me. We were having a good day so bringing the subject up didn't seem right.

"Sure," she says, laying her head on the pillow and yawning. "I have a question for you after," she states and I smile a little.

"Logan wouldn't let me touch him you know in...that way," I say using my hands as I try to convey to her what I mean and she frowns at me. I sigh "Sexually," I say and she smiles. "He touched me but when I tried to do it to him he said 'I was the only one to be pleasured today and then told me if I touch him he won't be able to control himself," I pause to see her reaction but her face isn't giving me anything. "I don't understand that, if he enjoys it why won't he let me?" I ask her and she smiles at me.

"You're such a worrier, he practically told you why. He just wanted to pleasure you, he didn't want anything in return, you do know that's not how sex always works right? Just because one does something to the other doesn't mean they're in that person's debt, you know that right?" she asks.

"I guess," I say, frowning.

"What happened with you and Tyler?" she asks.

"Well we didn't do things often, but it was sort of one for one," I say.

"What do you mean, sort of?"

"Well I never had an orgasm with Tyler," I say slowly and she chuckles to herself a little.

"Good job it doesn't work out like a one for one because Tyler would be in debt with you," she says and I laugh at her. I can feel my cheeks have heated up throughout this conversation and I know that's one of the reasons for her laughing. "Listen the only way you're going to know fully what he meant is if you ask him," she states.

"I don't wanna," I groan as I turn onto my back. "It's embarrassing, it's not fair that he has all the experience," I say and she laughs. "And what if he thinks I'm being stupid?" I ask.

"He won't, just ask him when you're next alone with him,"

"Like I can do that," I say with a roll of my eyes and Yasmin laughs.

"Your embarrassment in this subject is really cute," she pauses and takes on a serious expression

"I think he meant what he said, he wants to be able to have control when he's with you. To not scare you away," she explains.

"I guess, what was your question?" I ask.

"Why was Brendan in here with you last night?"

"He came in to see how I am and fell asleep while watching a movie with me," I explain and she frowns. "Why? Did you think something else?" I ask.

"Well Logan came into your room before you left and he left looking very angry, at first I didn't understand why until this morning when Brendan left your room. So I thought maybe he saw something he shouldn't have," she explains.

"Oh," I say. Logan never mentioned anything about Brendan to me.

"I'm so tired, who knew theme parks were so tiring, I ate so much," Yasmin moans and I smile. "I'll go to bed in a minute, oh did I tell you Scott kissed Julie," she says suddenly awake.

"No, when did this happen?" I ask.

"Today, while they were waiting in line for a ride," she says. "And Melanie and Cade seem to be in better spirits too,"

"He told me he's going to break up with her when we get back," I tell.

"Oh My God really," she says and I feel like I'm gossiping. "Tell me," she says, now sitting up. I chuckle slightly and sit up too. I sigh and then give her a smile as I start to tell her what he said.