Chapter 47

**Megan**

I remained silent and closed my eyes once more. The sound of his heart beating gave me butterflies. I never imagined I’d be this close to him. The only thing separating our bodies touching skin to skin was his t-shirt. Somehow I had this urge to take the t-shirt off but I also wanted to keep it on just because it was his t-shirt, he had worn it and it smelled like him. It was like a massive hug from him around my body. I loved it.

“Why do you always wear these bracelets?” I ask, looking at him and pulling on the two bracelets that looked handmade.

“My wife made them for me and I’ve never taken them off,”he says. I smiled a little and rested on his chest again.

“What was she like?”

He was silent for a minute and he let out a low sigh and stroked up and down my hand “She was amazing,”he said and I looked at him to see how much he did love her and the pain he had felt when she died. “She was a little like you but much more stubborn and she was really carefree even with what was happening to her, she would act like it never happened. Looking at her you would have never guessed she was getting abused,”

“Why?” I ask .

“She did what you did, wore a lot of makeup and if it couldn’t cover a bruise she would say that she walked into a door or one of her cousins did it or while she was babysitting her neighbour's children the child hit her accidently,” he explained. “Eventually her friends would call her clumsy and the children babysitter beaters,” he sighs “for a long time I actually believed her until one night we had quite a bit to drink and I saw the bruises on her ribs, we got into an ugly argument and she would not tell me who had done it to her,” his facial expression started to change and the anger started to show.” She finally told me and I wanted to kill her mother, it was mainly her mother and her mother was a lawyer surprisingly. It turned out her mother was hitting her father and when she wasn’t hitting him she was hitting her.”

“Why didn’t he just leave?”

“Her mother was one of the best lawyers in the city and well he wasn’t all that great himself when he cheated on her mother countless of times so she’d get everything in their divorce, he did try and he had been saving money for them and when we went to Vegas to get married he ran off thinking that we weren’t going to come back. And when we did get back her mother got worse with the beatings they started being more often and she started blaming Stephanie for her father leaving so it got worse that way as well.”

“Wow, that sounds really shit and I feel sorry for her,” I said and sat up more and looked down at him “you blame yourself,” I state. He frowned and then looked away “I can see it, that’s why you always look so troubled,”

“I don’t blame myself I just think if I hadn’t have taken her to Vegas then she’d still be alive,”

“Which is blaming yourself,” I said and smiled while moving on top of him.

“I was supposed to get her away from all that I even promised her I’d get her away from it all and I broke that promise,”he said and turned me off him. He looked me in the eyes, the sadness showing fully clouding his blue eyes. “It seems that’s all I seem to be good at doing though,”

“That’s not true,”

“All I’ve done with you is break promises to you. I'm just repeating everything I did with her,”he states and moves my hair from my face. He stroked down my neck and a sigh escaped him and the look on his face deepened. “It’s really know wonder you hate me and why you’re not getting any happier,”

“Logan,” I said quietly and he sighs while pulling me towards him and into his arms.

“I’m so sorry,”he said and kissed the top of my head “will you forgive me?” he asked.

“Of course Logan,” I stated and looked at him and pulled me into a kiss. I pulled back and sighs while looking at him. It was funny how he could do what he’s done and I forgive straight away as soon as he’s said sorry.

That was different with Tyler, with Tyler I wasn’t a push over, I’d stay angry with him for at least a couple of days. I sigh and push him away from me and then get out of bed.

“What’s wrong?” he asks.

“Nothing,” I said and walked into the bathroom and shut the door behind me.

“It doesn’t seem like it,”he said loud enough for me to hear. I remained silent and started to run myself a bath. “You know it will take a while for that bath to run because it is a big bath,”he states. I smirked a little and walked towards the door “I can get in it with you if you like, but that is entirely up to you.” I sigh and unlock the door and open it to look at him. He gave me a cheeky innocent smile.

“I’m mad at you,”

“Why?” he asks, completely confused.

“Because I’d never forgive someone that easily and I should be mad at you,” I state.

“Oh ok,”he said and walked back to the bed. He laid in it and as he did there was a knock at my door. I frowned as I looked at it.

“Megan,” my eyes widened. It was Brendan. It had completely slipped my mind but we talked about our relationship last night and I wasn’t too sure but I think I’m going out with him. Logan looked at me and I looked away from him to the door.

“You need to hide,” I said quietly and then looked at him “Now,” I added on.

“Are you serious?” he asks.

“Yes now hide,” I said walking towards him and pulling him up and dragging him into my closet and then shutting the door. I took a deep breath and walked to my door unlocking and opening it. I gave Brendan a small smile and my smile widened when I saw his bed head hair. “Why did you leave me last night?” I ask now, looking him in the eyes. He smiled a little and walked into my room laying down on my bed.

“Because Megan you didn’t half turn me on last night I needed to leave because I couldn’t sleep,”he states and patted the bed. I smiled and sat on the bed, he frowned. “Whose is that top?” he asks.

“Oh this I think it's Tyler’s or Logan's. I just pulled it out of my wardrobe when you knocked,” I lied. He sighs and sat up looking at me.

“Last night you said some things,”he said, taking a serious tone and look. I sigh and look down, “nothing bad, just things that worried me,”he states. I sigh “You may not like what I’m going to suggest and I’ll drop it as soon as you say whatever you are going to say afterwards but you should think about it because of last night,”he said quickly, “OK?” he asks. I nodded and watched him “Maybe you should think about moving in with your grandfather, now just hear me out before you said no. Living here is fine but you don’t have a lot of guidance because last night with what you told me Logan’s hurting you in a way that will take a lot to get over because he says all these things to you and he tells you he cares about you but then acts like he doesn’t. It doesn't take a genius to figure out he’s got demons of his own and well maybe you need time away from all this. From the drama with Logan and probably with me because I know I’m not helping you much when I take you to parties and shit. Time away might do some good,” he explained.

“I get what you mean,” I said quietly “but I’m scared when I’m not with Logan or with you,”

“But he’s scared you before and you still have a fear of him,”he said “I’m not saying he’s a bad guy because he isn’t, he does care about you believe me I know that but I’ve never seen you in the state you were last night,”he says, “Because to be truthful you scared me with what you said,”

“I’m sorry,” I said and looked at my lap “What did I say to you last night because in my mind we’re going out?” I ask . He laughs.

“You asked me out after we did a few things but I told you I didn’t want a girlfriend and you didn’t want a boyfriend and you nodded in response,” he explained “it was because we were talking about past relationships,”

“Oh,” I say.

“Well I need to go. I have to get my car from the beach and I also need to get shouted at by my parents because they love shouting at me for some reason,” he said with a small smirk and leaned in and kissed me on the forehead. “I’ll phone you and make sure you’re ok, ok?” he asks. I nodded and watched him stand and walk out of my room shutting the door behind him. A sigh escaped me and I stood up at my window waiting to see him walk out of the house and down the drive and after a few minutes I saw him do exactly that.

“Maybe he’s right,” I heard Logan say. I looked at him, “I’m just saying,”he said and stood in front of me. “So you thought him and you were...” he trailed off.

“No,” he raised his eyebrows at me “Ok I did but I was going to tell him that we shouldn’t,” I explained and he smiled a little “and I don’t want to do what he said because that would mean leaving you and not having you sleep next to me and,” I felt myself start to blush as he moved closer to me.

“And?” he asks.

“And well I sort of not really but do need you,” I stuttered quietly. His smile widened and he moved his arms around me and pulled me closer to me.

“Sort of not really but do?” he asks confused.

“Ok I do need you because I know that if you weren’t here I’d be a complete mess,” I admitted and buried my face in his chest hoping to hide my now very red face. He laughed and I felt his chest heave up and down as he hugged me tightly.

“You’re too cute,”he said, which made my blush deepen if it could. He rubbed my back and then pulled away and looked down at me “We’re going to do something today,”he states. I raised an eyebrow once I looked at him. “We’re going to get to know each other a little more,” and straight away a thought came into my head “not like that,” he laughed. I smiled “because we’ve argued more than we have talked, we will spend the day and night together and we will not argue at all,”he states.

“We’ve spent most of the day in bed,” I state.

“See we’re already off to a good start,”he said with a smirk. “Now come on I’m starved and I could actually eat a herd of horses, never mind one horse,” he said, pulling away from me and taking my hand as he dragged me out of my room.

“What about my bath?” I ask .

“Turn it off and then get back here,” he said and I did what he said and walked back into my room. He smiled and took my hand in his as he dragged me out of my room down the stairs.