Chapter 66
**Logan**
It had been about four days since I had seen Megan or even spoke to her. She wasn’t turning up at school and I had people asking me where she was, I had to lie to the school and to her psychologist and tell them she was ill. Her grandfather had even phoned me to ask what was wrong with her, I had managed to talk him out of coming to see her telling him I had everything under control but there was no way in hell I would call this under control. She had tried to call me late on Saturday but I couldn’t talk to her. I didn’t want to have an argument with her over the phone about this because we were most likely not going to sort it out over the phone.
I had heard from Melanie she was staying with them mostly Brendan because she had apparently upset her without meaning to. Melanie had also took great joy in having ago at me the first moment she got along with Julie. Yasmin on the other-hand had told me where I may find them as they apparently went there a lot and also just told me what she thought on the whole situation. She didn’t find me to be a douche like Melanie and Julie she said I was stupid but it was both mine and Megan’s fault as we weren’t talking to each other enough so we were both to blame. I swear that girl was a very wise old woman in a teenager’s body.
She also told me it was my move, that I had to be the one to make the next move and convince Megan why she should forgive me.
The night air was cold tonight so why they were here I didn’t know. I close my car door and look down at the beach; I look around when I see them. She’s sat on top of him on his lap and they’re sharing a bottle of what I can tell is either rum or vodka. I take a deep breath and walk towards the steps that lead me onto the beach.
“If I ever do finish high school we should totally go travelling like Europe,” she said drunkenly.
“Yeah, I’m not fond of flying,” he says.
“You big girl,” she said giggling. I smile, I love her giggle it’s so contagious and beautifully naughty sounding.
“You could come with me,” I said catching their attention. She looks and so does he, I give her a small smile and watch her climb off him “Can we talk?” I ask.
She nods and stands staggering a little and handing Brendan the bottle. I smile and hold out my hand, she slowly takes it and I walk with her back up to the car with her. She sits on the wall and I look past her down at Brendan to see him standing and walking off.
“It’s not what it looks like,” she said “I haven’t done anything with him, I was cold and yeah,” she explains.
“It’s ok I’m not bothered,” I said and I wasn’t “Right now all I’m bothered about is me and you,” I explain and look at her.
“Really I find that hard to believe, especially when you broke his arm over me,” she said and looks away from me.
“I...that was stupid of me I know, the old me mostly and I’m sorry for that,”
“It’s not me you should be saying sorry to for that,” she said and looks forward. I sigh and move in front of her, she looks away from me.
“I’m so sorry for what I’ve done, I wish I could rewind and slap myself silly,” I said and move my hands onto her shoulders.
“Please don’t touch me,” she said, shrugging my hands off her. She crosses her legs and looks down at the beach.
“He’s gone,” I say.
“Probably back to the party not far from here,” she says. Silence stretches between us.
“Please come back,” I say “I’m so sorry, I don’t even know what I was thinking, I just know that on that night I felt like you didn’t trust me enough to tell me you wanted to see your father,” I explain.
“You’re blaming me for this?” she asks and I see the tear go down her cheek as she looks at me “I went to go see my father so that I could move on with you and get over these stupid fears I have,” she snaps. I frown and she looks down at her lap “I wanted to be able to have you touch me without getting scared or so nervous that I panic and just be able to have you hold me the way you want to,” she explains and I sigh a little.
“Megan none of that matters,”
“Oh really, if it didn’t matter so much why did you go out and sleep with another woman after having a very small argument with me?” she asks
“That meant nothing and it wasn’t based around sex,”
“So, what? It was a spare of the moment thing?”
“Yeah that’s all it was, it wasn’t planned and wasn’t in my mind when I was having a drink with her,”
“Do you even know the girls name?” she asks. I shake my head and she sighs and looks down at her lap. I sigh too and move my hand to under her chin and turn her to look at me. “I don’t know what to do,” she said and looks down.
I slowly lean in and softly press my lips to hers. She doesn’t kiss me back, I pull back and try again this time I feel her lips move against mine. Moving my hands to her hips I feel her pull on my shirt and move both of her hands up to my neck. I pull her closer to me and she unfolds her legs and I press her body to mine. She then pulls away and I kiss her forehead as she looks down.
“Stop it,” she says, “I’m supposed to be angry with you, and you’ve really hurt me Logan,” she said and I take a deep breath.
“I know and all I can said is how sorry I am, I don’t know any other way I can make it up to you,” I pause and move my hands through her hair “I wish I did honest I do but I don’t, I could buy you a load of things but I know that won’t do anything, it isn’t going to make you forget what I’ve done or forgive,” I explain and hold her close. She takes a deep breath and closes her eyes.
“Maybe we should take a break,” she said and I feel everything stop. Was she serious? She couldn’t be “It just seems for the best because I can’t do this, I can’t keep having arguments with you over things like trust because I have no trust for a lot of people,” she explains “I have only just recently built trust with you and look what’s happened, it may not be the amount of trust you want but it was there plus now it’s going to be difficult for me to get over this and trust you again if I can trust you” she says.
“I know it was and I know it will take a long time and I’m willing to do anything to help you trust me again,” I said and she shakes her head through everything, “Ok,” I said in a sigh “how about you tell me why you didn’t tell me?” I ask.
“Because I didn’t want us to argue over it, because I wanted to be able to do it on my own, because I thought you would get angry and demand to know why and stop me from going,”
“Exactly you thought and that’s what’s got us here we’re just assuming things we’re not talking to each other, we haven’t got a connection, we had it I’m sure we did but we’ve lost it and we need to get it back,” I said hoping she will change her mind “please don’t give up on us,”
“It’s just a break Logan,” she said “you can even sleep with as many girls as you want then,” she said no
“You know it’s nothing do with that and yeah a break that’ll turn into a break up and I really don’t want that,” I explain “please I’m begging you Megan just give us one more chance and if I mess up again then I’ll accept it even though it’ll probably kill me I’ll do what you want until you think you are ready to be with me,”
“If,” she adds and I close my eyes.
“Yes if you want to be with me,” I said and look her in the eyes “please Megan,” I beg. A tear leaves her eye again and she looks down “Please,” I beg “please Megan,” and she’s silent. I close my eyes and move my hands up to her neck “Ok,” I said giving up. She had obviously made her mind up about us and wasn’t going to change her mind.
“Promise you won’t hurt me like this again,” she said suddenly and I look at her.
“I promise,” I said quickly
“Ok,” she said and leans in to kiss me “please don’t break it,” she said and kisses me.
“I won’t, I swear on your life I won’t break it,” I said picking her up and moving her to the car. I slowly let her down and kiss her while opening the car door for her. I pull back and move hair out of her eyes “get in so I can take you home,” I say. She smiles a little and gets in the car and I shut the door and walk around to get in next to her.
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