Unrequited Guilt

Lilian's POV

Everything happened so much in a blur that I could not understand what happened anymore.


One thing and the Alpha and Luna along with their entourage were embarking on a journey to the neighborhood pack and the next thing.......the scout party sent to escort them back came back with heart breaking news of their demise.



It was all so difficult to take in and I broke down.

Both Alpha Authur and Luna Caroline had been so good to me.


They didn't deserve to die this way. They didn't deserve to be murdered while on their way back to the pack.


It all happened like it was some sort of planned attack. I knew it was. Otherwise how would......?


I gasped for air at a thought as my eyes suddenly widened in evident shock.

Oh no! It can't be.

I looked around me just to be sure that no one else had seen me react the way I did.


Luckily for me, no one saw me. It was just me, alone with my thoughts with no one else to share it with.


It was Henrik wasn't it?

No wonder he had been asking for intels on the activities of the Blue Moon pack.

It had to be him.

But why did he do that? How could he? That was so cruel and the Alpha and Luna of the Blue Moon pack did not deserve that.


They were such sweet souls.

No one deserved what had just happened to them.

Not even the cruelest, most evil, most devilish villain deserved that, and Henrik had to do this to those harmless and kind souls.


I watched Kaiden act up.

I saw the way he pretended to act like everything was fine.

Like he wasn't entirely shaken by the news of the death of his parents. I watched him address the pack members with so much courage that I had not seen in one man before.


I saw the way he was holding up and it broke my heart the more.

Especially when I realized that I infact knew what had happened to his parents.

That I knew who was behind their deaths and that by extension, I was somewhat behind it as well.


I longed desperately to go to him and to comfort him.


To hug him and allow him rest his head in my breasts while I told him that everything would be alright.


But he would not have any of that. He would not even let me come close to him.

He was just that closed off. He would rather go through it all alone.

To cry alone in his chambers with no one else to console him, than to allow me to touch or try to comfort him.


And I wanted to go to him and tell him about everything I knew.


I wanted to tell him that I was in fact the one who had given Henrik the information about the impending journey which the Alpha and his Luna were going to embark on.


But I feared greatly. Not in the least bit for my life, but for the hatred that I knew would be imminent should Kaiden find out what I had done.


I just knew that he would hate me eternally.

And that nothing would make him look in my direction ever again.


Frankly, that sounded selfish and all. But I was selfish, you could say that. I wished that I could take back the hands of time and undo the wrong that I had done and I desperately prayed and asked that this would be made possible but it seemed so.... impossible.


Of course it was only in folktales and fairy tales where such things happened.

Not in reality. And I needed to face the reality of my actions.


I spotted a pack maid taking something to Kaiden's chambers and I quickly walked up to her and stopped her.


"Where are you going?" I asked her as I examined the things she had in her hands.


She held a tray and I could perceive the aroma of freshly cooked meal coming from the tray.


"I'm taking some food to Prince Kaiden, my lady." She responded to me as she curtsied slightly even with the tray on her hands.


This was indeed an opportunity for me to go to Kaiden and at least speak to him.


"Let me help you with that, since I am already on my way to his chambers." I said as I stretched my hand to take the tray from her.


She looked like she was unsure. As if she was not supposed to let me take the tray.


"Uhm," she muttered. "I think I can manage my lady." She said somewhat reluctantly.


"I insist." I maintained as I stretched my hands further and this time I took the tray from her. "There, now hurry on along with doing whatever it is you would want to do.


I just saved you the stress." I said to her just to pacify her and she nodded her head as she bowed and walked away.


I turned on my heels and headed towards Kaiden's chambers.


As soon as I got into his chambers, I braced myself up, prepared to receive whatever storm he would throw my way and I knocked lightly on the door.


There was no response and so I opened the door and entered his chambers.


When I got in, I could see that he was nowhere in sight.

I wanted to call him. To make sure that he was in the room before stepping in any further but my sense of judgment decided against that and I walked towards the table and placed the tray of food there.


I turned around and looked around the room, I could see that the room resembled Kaiden's personality, dark, masculine, neatly kept and quiet.


I looked around the room as I examined all the artifacts that I had not had the chance to look at in my few times of being in Kaiden's chambers.


Everything was made of dark furniture. Including the mirror stand and the huge king-sized bed.


I looked from the furniture and then onto the drawings of himself when he was younger.

I could see that young Kaiden was a lot happier than the always scrolling adult version of him.


And then there was a portrait of him with his parents and that broke my heart in more ways than one.


I continued to stare at the picture not knowing when someone stood behind me.

Not until they spoke up.


"What are you doing here?" A raspy voice asked from behind me and I recognized it immediately as I felt my heart skip so many beats at once and I turned to see who it was.