More Than heartbreaks

Lilian's POV

Everything happened so fast. It all happened without me even thinking.


I didn't even get the time to act up. It was all a whirlwind of emotions, desires, and impulses that left me completely breathless and bewildered.

I still couldn't quite wrap my head around what happened and how it had happened.

How had it all escalated so quickly? I didn't even get the time to think it through, to process it, or to consider what was happening until it was over.


Now, I was lying in Kaiden's bed and wrapped in the warmness of his arms, the reality of everything began to sink in. My mind raced with a whole lot of conflicting thoughts. The intimacy we had just shared. Oh my gosh, the intimacy!



We just had sex! Kaiden and I. And .........it was something I had longed for, something that had been hiding under the pretense of our interactions for far too long. But now that it had happened, I felt an incredibly choking feeling of uncertainty.



I looked over at Kaiden, who had left the bed to go to the bathroom. My heart was still pounding in my chest. I could still feel the desire and a growing feeling of apprehension that swam inside of me.


What would happen next? How would this change things between us? Would it even change anything at all? Or was I just over exaggerating things?


I wanted to talk to him. I wanted him to address the situation at hand. The elephant in the room. I wanted him to clear the air, to make sense of the emotions that were swirling inside me.


But when Kaiden returned, his expression stopped me in my tracks. I was going to smile at him, and ask him how he had felt about last night.


Oh well, maybe not exactly that, but something that resembled something like that. But I was stopped abruptly. His face was hard, almost cold, as if the warmth we had shared just moments ago had evaporated into thin air.


He didn’t look like the man who had held me so tenderly, who had whispered my name with such passion.


Instead, he looked...angry?
"Kaiden…" I started, my voice was a little hesitant, but it was all I could muster under the intensity of the way he was staring at me.

What was the matter? Did i..? Did I do something wrong?


I had thought that after everything that had happened between us, he would at least be willing to talk and open up to me and we would be like every other couple. I had hoped that we could address what had just transpired between us.


But before I could continue, he cut me off with a sharp, almost dismissive tone.


"Get up and go back to your chambers." He said to me.


Wait what?
I blinked, not sure I had heard him correctly.


"What?" I asked, my voice came out in barely a whisper, I searched his face for any sign that I had misunderstood.


But his expression remained cold, his eyes were hard as he repeated himself, this time with even less patience.


"I said, leave." He said in a clipped tone.
His words cut through me like a knife, it felt so freaking sharp and unforgiving.


I felt a lump form in my throat, as hurt and anger bubbled up inside me. I had thought… I had hoped… But clearly, I had been wrong.


It really shouldn’t have shocked me, but it did. The Kaiden I had seen just moments ago was gone, replaced by the aloof, distant man who had hurt me so many times before. The man I was already used to was back now.



"You don’t have to be so cruel," I managed to say, my voice shook slightly as I fought to keep my emotions in check. I didn’t want to show him how much his words had hurt me or how deeply they had cut. But I couldn’t keep the pain from seeping into my voice.


Kaiden's jaw tightened, his eyes flashed with something I couldn’t quite place.


Was it guilt? Regret? Or was it something else entirely? But whatever it was, he pushed it aside, his expression hardened even further as I saw the shield he used to hide his emotions fall into place.


"You shouldn’t have stayed," he said, his voice was cold and distant. "This was a mistake, Lilian. Now go." He told me.

A mistake?

The words echoed in my mind, repeating themselves over and over until they were the only thing I could hear. Was that all it was to him? A mistake? After everything we had shared, after all the emotions that had been laid bare between us, was that really all it meant to him?



I should have known. What was I even expecting in the first place? This was how it was always going to be. But it still hurt nonetheless.



I could feel the tears burning at the back of my eyes, but I refused to let them fall. I would not give him the satisfaction of seeing how much he had hurt me. Instead, I steeled myself and forced my voice to remain steady as I responded.



"Fine," I said, my tone was clipped as I pushed myself up from the bed. I gathered up the remnants of my dignity as I moved to leave the room. "I guess this is how you would put it." I told him.



Kaiden’s eyes darkened, but he didn’t respond, his silence only fueled the anger that was now burning inside me. I didn’t wait for him to say anything else. I didn’t want to hear any more of his hurtful words in the name of excuses, his lies.


I just wanted to get out of there, to put as much distance between us as possible before I broke down completely.


I grabbed my dress, my hands trembled slightly as I pulled it over my head, my mind was racing with a thousand different thoughts, each one was more painful than the last.


I had thought that we were past this, that we had finally reached a point where we could be honest with each other, where we could let down our walls and just be...together. But clearly, I had been wrong.


Without another word, I stormed out of the
room, not bothering to look back at Kaiden. I didn’t want to see the cold indifference in his eyes. I didn’t want to be reminded of the fact that, despite everything we had shared, he was still pushing me away.



I slammed the door shut behind me, I could hear the sound as it echoed through the empty corridor as I hurried down the hall. I could feel my damned heart pounding in my chest.



I didn’t know where I was going, I didn't care. All I knew was that I needed to get away, to find some space to breathe, to think, to process what had just happened.



But as I walked, my anger began to give way to something else, something much more painful.


I had let myself believe, if only for a moment, that things could be different between us, that we could move past the hurt and the pain and find something real, something lasting. But now, I wasn’t so sure.


Had I been a fool to think that we could ever be more than just two people caught up in the heat of the moment? Had I been stupid to believe that the passion we had shared was anything more than a fleeting escape from the reality that we both knew all too well?


I didn’t have the answers, and I wasn’t even sure if I ever would. All I knew was that Kaiden had hurt me so deeply again, and this time, I wasn’t sure if I could forgive him. Not this time.


The tears I had been holding back finally began to fall as I reached the end of the corridor, my steps faltered as everything that had happened crashed down on me all at once.


I leaned against the wall, I could feel my breath coming out in ragged gasps as I struggled to keep myself together.


I had thought we were past this, but maybe... Maybe we would never be past it.

Maybe this was all we would ever be—two people, forever caught in a cycle of hurt and longing, never quite able to break free from the chains that bound us.

And maybe, just maybe, it was time to accept that.