#Chapter 38: Escaping Temptation

AVA’s Pov
Ever since Connor and Eyolf’s attack on us I noticed that Elijah has been on edge. Though I cannot blame him. I came home today noticing that he had completely fixed the damages to the house.
Knowing my boss was so handy with tools sent me straight to the shower. As I turned on the shower and quickly got undressed, my mind wandered to all of our encounters.
He held me so close when we slept in his office. He started making a habit of touching me. Not that I would object to it.
Being away from a pack made me yearn for everything that I was missing out on. Being pregnant I would be away from the father of my child and the comfort that he could bring me in my uncertainty.
However as I stepped into the shower and let the cold water fall onto me I realized that I could not have Jacob. I never had Jacob. For the longest time I felt that in time he would come after me and proclaim that everything was a mistake.
I grabbed the shower gel and towel and began to wash myself. The scent of lavender and sage filled the bathroom. I took the bottle of conditioner that I had gotten from my condo and emptied half of it into my hair.
I found myself sweating more lately even though I was standing the majority of the time during filming. Sally informed me that my body probably had not gotten used to the brightness of the lights yet.
And I was lost in my thoughts.
I thought about Jacob and how he abandoned me for another woman.
I thought about the loveless marriage that I was in.
I thought about my freedom.
Then I thought about Elijah. Throughout my time here in the human world, Elijah seemed to be a constant. Even though he was condescending like my ex, Elijah made it his mission to build me up.
He respected my opinions and valued me. Even though I lied to him, he still wanted me around.
He was kind, loyal, and handsome. I could not see why the Alpha was not mated yet. He was a great leader and compassionate about his tribe.
Then there was the man himself. He was perfectly sculpted from his abs that he kept hidden in his dress shirts to to his biceps that were constructed in his clothing.
I found it at times hard to focus when his ocean blue eyes penetrated my soul. He was the epitome of everything a man should be, and the thought alone made a fire resonate within my core.
I opened my eyes against the ponding warm water. I finally came out of my thoughts to realize that I was getting hot and bothered over my boss.
Oh shit…
I could not believe that I had been pleasuring myself while thinking about Elijah. What was the matter with me? He was the Alpha of the Harbingers and as of right now the only thing keeping me from being carted out to prosecution.
I could not fathom that I had been touching myself to the thoughts of the man that could decide whether I would live or die.
I felt myself grow hotter from embarrassment. I hurried to rinse myself off and shut the water off. I redressed into my clothes trying to calm myself down.
With a clean body and fresh clothes I made my way to the sink to splash cold water in my face a few times for good measure. I tried to douse the fire that was burning inside of me before I got anywhere near Elijah. There were only a few times that I had experimented with myself but I never thought about anyone I knew.
Not even Jacob.
When I finally emerged from the bathroom I heard talking to someone over the phone. Even though I was truly curious I did not want to evade Elijah’s privacy. He had done so much for me.
Part of me wanted to talk with Elijah and get an understanding about our relationship. But the other half of me did not want to confront him about anything between us. I gathered my things and began to make my way to the door.
“So what did you find, Martinez?” Elijah said into the speaker phone.
I could hear Elijah discussing something about the dogs.
“What were they drugged with, my friend?” Elijah said in an authorizing tone. It did not make sense why would anyone drug Connor or Eyolf.
While they were different dogs than the human realm was used to they did not raise attention. I slipped out of the house without gaining Elijah’s attention. I took the car that he let me borrow while he said he was on a business trip.
He soon told me that he had a meeting with his pack.
As I started the ignition and drove out of the lot I had a pain in the pit of my chest. Why would anyone target Elijah’s dogs? What were they drugged with?
After Elijah and I cleaned up his manor he assured me that the dogs were back to their normal selves. As I traveled further away from Elijah’s manor I had the tempting mindset to go back. But I knew that I could not. I needed space between him.