Book 2: Chapter 54

**Chapter 54**

Following strange events occurring, the next day was even stranger. Nothing that happened made any sense to me. It was the catalyst to get Jay and me in lots of trouble. How could we screw up in such a way? It only happened once and here we were in this unpredictable predicament. It was neither of our finest moments and a shock to us both. Things couldn't get any more weird than this.

The day started strong. I woke up with Jay missing from the bed. It wasn't something that I was too worried about because that usually meant he went to hit the gym. So, I did what I normally did which was wash my face, clean my teeth, and head downstairs to make us coffee and breakfast. This time, however, Jay seemed to be the one filling my role. It was shocking to see but such a sweet attempt on his part. Whatever he made smelled heavenly and the view of his body is superb.

Jay hadn't noticed me there so I decided to take a cue from one of his cards. Unfortunately, I wasn't as tall as he was but it didn't stop me from wrapping my arms around his torso. My head rested on his back as I felt him shiver at my touch. Turning his head, he looked down at me with a smile, flipping the egg he was working on in the pan. I didn't care if I got burnt so long as I got my hug in for the day.

Finishing up, he turned the stove off before turning to me. His hands move down to my waist, pulling me into him. It was a nice start to the morning as I was the one getting breakfast cooked for me this time.

"Good morning, beautiful," Jay said with a quick kiss on the lips.

I smile licking my bottom lip. "Good morning, I didn't think you'd ever cook," I say shocked. "It smells great!"

He laughed. "Meh, it's only a little something. It can never compare to what you would make me." He's so humble.

I disagreed. "No, it'll be better!"

That wasn't necessarily true, but I liked to have hope that my boyfriend knew what he was doing. If he didn't he wouldn't have attempted to make me anything. It was a simple meal, over easy eggs with avocado on toast. My teeth couldn't wait to sink into it as I loved avocado. The way he had everything seasoned made it look even more delectable. The only problem is, I wasn't going to be able to enjoy it.

As we sat down, I geared myself up to take a bite, and when I did it tasted great. That is until the urge to spit it out found itself upon me. Pausing for a split second, my body jumped out of my seat to the nearest trash bin. Jay looked utterly confused yet worried at the same time. Nothing that was happening made any sense. I have been feeling sick on and off for the past week. I'm not sure if it was something I ate or drank but whatever it was is catching up to me.

Jay looked bewildered. "Jeez, was it that bad?" He asked me confused.

I wiped the corners of my mouth, shaking my head to look at him. "No...no it just didn't sit right with me that's all." I was trying to make sense of it.

"Are you sure? I won't be upset," he chuckled. "Do you maybe need some water?"

My head shakes again. "No, but I am going to go to the bathroom for a second," I say power walking to the bathroom.

Jay understood, letting me handle whatever it was I had going on. Thoughts started running through my head of what could be wrong. It's been days since the bachelorette party and I got over the effects of the alcohol. Kameron only shared a bottle of wine with me last night while we ate Chinese food. There wasn't anything out of the ordinary that happened for me to be feeling this way.

Things only got stranger as I pulled my pants down to sit on the toilet. When I looked down, there were obscure amounts of blood coming out of me. Normally, I'd think nothing of it as it's normal for this to happen. But something told me that this was different. This wasn't your average monthly bleeding session. I'm not sure how I didn't notice this when I woke up. There was a lot and I immediately freaked out.

Panicking, I didn't hesitate to call Jay in here. "Jason!" My voice is frantic.

Jay wasted no time running in there and was horrified by what he saw. He wasn't equipped to deal with this. Neither of us knew what was going on and freaking out wasn't helping. Sadly, I didn't know what to do as my breathing picked up. It was coming and wouldn't stop no matter what I did.

"Jason..." I was freaked out. "What do I do?" I asked like he would know the answer.

He didn't and tried to keep me calm but it didn't work. "A, just relax okay? Will figure this out." He keeps his voice low and controlled.

It was too late though, I was already over the edge. "Jason, I'm...I don't feel too good."

That was the last thing I said before passing out from what I was looking at. The last thing I heard was Jay calling my name as he caught me in his arms. I'm not sure exactly why I fainted. All I'm sure of is that it was too much blood and not in the normal way. I'm hoping everything was normal but that's not how things work in my world. Nothing can be normal for me and this was about to cause such a shit storm.

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It's unclear how long I was out for. My mind was foggy as my eyes tried to open. The sounds of beeping and a TV playing in the background started to irritate me. My body moved around slowly still trying to open my eyes. This simple task felt so hard but there was no giving up on my end. My eyes were going to open and see what was going on! It was now or never.

Slowly, the lids of my eyes start to wiggle. It was a tedious process but eventually, they opened to brightness. It was so bright that I had to squint my eyes for them to adjust. As expected, I was lying in a hospital bed and felt a little weak at the moment. Not only weak but I was starving! I hadn't eaten since that morning of the incident. My belly was craving for something to be in it. I'm surprised I didn't wake up sooner from how overbearing this hunger was.

The most shocking thing was feeling someone holding my hand. They had a tight grip on it and when my eyes followed the arm, my heart melted. There Jay was sound asleep holding my hand ever so tightly. His undereyes were so red. It looked as if he was pretty distraught. I was glad he was here though and couldn't help but smile at his sleeping face. There's no doubt that he must have been super worried. It wasn't my intention to worry him. Admittedly, I was freaked out too.

Jay wasn't the only person here with me though. The door opened and to my surprise, my mom came walking in. She was shocked to see me awake but rushed over to hug me so tight anyway. I'm assuming Jay informed her of what was going on and she rushed here as well. The one person I was wondering if he told anything to was Cyrus. I'd like to think that he would come here as soon as possible too if he knew. With Jay here as well though, I'm sure they would've got into a pissing contest to see who was going to take care of me better. That we didn't need.

Stroking my hair, my mom wore this somber expression on her face. Her eyes focused on Jay as she shook her head, but not in annoyance. "That boy...I mean, I should have thought more of it when he said it over dinner but he truly does love you A." I wasn't expecting that to be her first words to me.

She was right though. "Yeah...I guess he does,"
I say looking back in his direction.

"He was very upset about this. It took a lot to calm him down." She sighed. "Whatever the case, don't let him get away Autumn. You'll do yourself such a disservice."

My eyes turned to her confused. "What do you mean?" I asked her.

My mom grabbed my other hand as she began to explain herself. "I truly don't know everything about your relationship but I do know when people are made for each other."

"Mom, you're being very vague." Either I'm still foggy or she wasn't being clear enough.

Her eyes rolled. "Whatever comes to you in the future, just make sure you're wise about it."

Wise. A lot of my choices so far have been far from wise. It's like I didn't even know the meaning of that word when it came to choosing between something. The more I thought about it, the more I got what she was saying. When it came between Cyrus and Jason I'll have to make a choice. Granted, I don't want to. I want them both for different reasons that make it hard to choose just one. Even if Cyrus finds out about us, it's not going to be easy just letting him go. My mom was right that there was a good thing going on with Jay. There are no intentions of me losing him either, but giving up on Cyrus...I don't know.

That thought alone has been stressing me out. It's always in the back of my mind. Now, that very situation was about to spill over.

Heeding my mother's words, I squeezed Jay's hand back to feel some kind of solace. That small gesture seemed to have triggered his senses and he immediately opened his eyes. It took him a minute to process that I was awake, but once he did he sat up with a swiftness. His grip on my hand got tighter but I didn't mind. I was happy to see him.

"A, you're awake." He sounded relieved. He took my hand bringing it up to his lips. "You don't know how happy I am to see you looking at me right now. I thought for sure that I would..." he stops himself as his voice cracks.

I knew what he was going to say, but there was no need to worry. "Jay, you remember what I promised you?" He nods. "Good, because it's never going to happen. I'll never leave you."

The fight he was putting up not to cry failed as a tear slipped down his cheek. I couldn't help but smile at his worry for me. Though, I honestly didn't expect him to be this upset. It was hard not to feel like I should apologize to him for this. This happened out of nowhere with no intention to scare him. Sometimes I forget what's happened with Jay since he's been a better version of himself as of late. Deep down some things still scared him and this was one of them.

Luckily, I was ok per the doctor's words but there was something else that was causing all the bleeding. This was shocking news to all three of us. It was hard to even fathom how this may have happened. However, the air in the room changed drastically. Why weren't we more careful?

Coming into the room, the doctor looked happy to see me awake, but his facial expression read like there was important information to tell me. "Ms. Monet, it’s lovely to see you awake," he said.

"Thank you," I respond. "Can anyone tell me what went on? I know why I fainted, but why was there so much blood to begin with?" I wasn't quite understanding.

The doctor sighed, sitting across from me and the others. "First things first, are you comfortable talking in front of everyone in this room?" I nod. "Well, you fainted not only because of the amount of blood but because you were on the brink of dehydration."

Dehydration. I guess that made sense. I haven't been doing much to keep up with my health like I should have been. There's also the fact that a lot of alcohol has been consumed recently. These last few weeks I would be sure to cut back and drink more water. Hydration was very important but it still didn't explain everything else that happened to me. The absolute horror when he told us couldn't be hidden. I was mortified.

"Okay, so what caused the bleeding?" I wondered.

"And how can we stop it from happening again?" Jay chimed in.

The doctor cleared his throat, looking between Jay and me. "Is this your partner?" He asked me.

I nod. "Yes...he's my boyfriend."

Sighing, he gave us a tight-lipped smile before announcing some shocking news. "I'm not sure how to say this but you...you had a miscarriage."