Book 2: Chapter 64

**Chapter 64 **

The next day I awoke to Cyrus getting us breakfast with some great tasting coffee. Last night was nice and relaxing. Getting to spend time with him like this was going to be missed. We were still as connected as we'll ever be. The only thing that'll be gone is how much time we spend together. If Cyrus said he couldn't make that commitment then this is what it had to be.

Now it was time for me to get ready to go. If I stayed here longer it would just make it harder to say goodbye. The night was long enough. I didn't need either of us to get reattached. That would do no good to Cyrus's already depleted emotions. The less hurt that I cause him the better. Plus, we still have another week to get through.

Cyrus saw me getting ready and immediately got sad. He didn't want me to go but he also didn't want to forgive me. It was such a double-edged sword that neither of us could figure out. Mainly me because I have no idea what he wants me to do. I don't think he even knows what to do in this mess. He seemed conflicted on the matter.

"This is it then?" He asked stuffing his hands in his pockets.

I sighed. "I guess so unless..."

Cyrus laughs with a shake of his head. "I'm not answering that." He smiles before sighing again.

"You're still going to marry Jenna?" I had to come right out and ask.

It's none of my business anymore but anyone could see he's doing this for all the wrong reasons. He's so afraid to stand up to his mother that he's going to torture himself. I had no room to talk but Jenna was not worthy of having Cyrus. He was way too kind and way too understanding for somebody like her. There was so much better out there that he could have had. Though he's probably over-dating for a long while.

My question startled him as he didn't expect me to ask that. It was stepping over the line but I still cared about him and his well-being. Why would he continue to do something that doesn't make him happy? Their relationship would not end well if he continued to go through with it. There had to be another way out.

That only made him turn sour. "What choice do I have?" He shrugged.

My eyes jumped out of their sockets. "Umm, you have a choice to be with whoever you want," I argue.

His head shakes as he looks at me. "The person I wanted didn't choose me. So what's next?" He would throw that in my face.

I crossed my arms with a pout of my lips. "That's not fair," I whined.

Cyrus's laugh fills the room as he walks up to me. "You're so cute when you're pouty." He compliments.

His sweet words weren't helping our situation right now. The compliments, the night we spent together, we were doing too much to be saying goodbye to our previous relationship. Did he want me to go away or did he want me to stay? His actions said one thing while his words said another. Maybe he couldn't come to terms with me splitting my time between him and Jay. But what did he want?

My eyes rolled. "Cyrus I'm serious. I want you to be happy."

"And my happiness is dating my ex-best friend," he says with anger in his voice.

There was no use in arguing since he'd just use whatever against me. "Cyrus—"

"I appreciate the concern but trust me, I'll be okay."
He cuts me off.

I knew he would be okay. That was never a question in my mind. Being okay and being happy are two completely different things. He can be okay so long as he pleases but being happy was something much harder to come by. Cyrus wasn't seeing that and only thinking to please his mother. The last person he should be putting above himself. It made me sick that he was still going to go through with this wedding.

Nevertheless, I wrap my arms around him tightly. I wanted to take in his every scent. Feel his body against mine one more time. Who knows if we'll ever be able to do this again? In my mind, we were just going to be cordial. No more worrying about him and he'll no longer worry about me. It felt weird to go from being so intimate to essentially nothing. For his sake, I hope he knows what he's doing.

After minutes of hugging. I finally let him go not ready to say goodbye. There was no choice in the matter since we couldn't stay in his room forever. It was the perfect way to end our relationship but leave it to Cyrus to always leave me guessing.

"If you ever are alone again maybe we could try one more time," he opens the door as he says that.

I giggle. "Won't you be a married man?"

He shrugs with a smirk on his face. "Who knows, I like to give you a surprise or 2."

I'm not sure what he meant by that but it got my mind wondering. He said he was going to go through with the wedding. However, with that sentence alone he must have had something up his sleeve. I hope it won't be anything too crazy. His mother was already on my ass. If Cyrus does anything else ridiculous Farah would lose her mind. Disobeying his mother seemed gratuitous at this point. Like he said, he loves giving a surprise or 2. I should know.

There wasn’t much time to think about it since Jenna and Ocean were walking my way. Cyrus had already closed the door before I could run back in. The minute she saw me I knew she would lose her mind. Lucky for her we were only saying goodbye to each other. Nothing else happened for her to freak out about. This is still Jenna we’re dealing with. Anything to do with me and she loses her mind.

Immediately her eyes caught mine and the fire in them was bright. She was not happy about me standing in front of Cyrus’s door. Her attitude said otherwise though.

Smirking, she crossed her arms like she won some sort of prize. “Don’t you look pathetic,” she spat. “If you think you’re going to win him back get over it.”

My eyes roll in annoyance. “I don’t want him back you weirdo,” I inform her. “We just cleared the air.”

She scoffed. “Cleared the air my ass. Just face it, you fucked up! He’s mine now and doesn’t want anything to do with someone like you.”

“Will you give it a rest already Jenna, you already won,” Ocean stepped in. I still don’t know how she deals with Jenna every day.

Jenna yelled at her though. “Shut up!” She says before returning her attention to me. “I don’t even know why you’re still here.”

Her words didn’t bother me per se but it was getting annoying hearing her bitch at me. What’s done is done and there wasn’t anything else she or Farah could hold against me. Cyrus already knew about Jay and me. What else were they going to say to make him mad? I’m sure he was mad enough as it is. Yet, he still wanted to see me. He still accepted me in his room. Our relationship isn’t the same but if she thinks he doesn’t want to see me then she is as stupid as she looks.

There was no reason for me to hide stuff anymore. I was done with all her bitching. I’m stuck here until their sorry-ass wedding is over but I’ll still let her have it. All she could do was whine.

“I’m here because you’re too much of a bitch to have any friends.” I smile vindictively. “And even though Cyrus and I are done we spent one more night together last night.”

Her eyes nearly fell out. “You did not! Take it back!” She yells at me.

I laugh. “Oh yes, I did! It was amazing and you know what the best part is?”

“What?”

“There’s nothing you can do about it.” I laugh again.

This time I’m the one being a bitch and I lived for it. The way Jenna was fuming at my words was hilarious. If she didn’t hate me before then she hated me now. To her, I was the reason Cyrus didn’t want her when in reality he didn’t from the beginning.

All that aside, seeing her face was quite comical. It brought joy to me seeing her like that. Call me an ass but Jenna’s been a jerk too since we met. Even when I do nice things for her or we seemingly have a heart-to-heart, she still goes after me. Well no more!

Stomping her foot, Jenna was even more angry than the first time. That cocky smirk she wore on her face turned into a frown. Everything I said was true but it was always fun getting under her skin. Especially now that she couldn’t use anything against me. Cyrus knowing everything gave me such a leg up with Jenna. There were some good things to come out of that train wreck of a break-up. If you could even call it that.

Jenna scoffed once more. “You’re such a bitch!” She screamed. “Stay away from him!”

My shoulders shrugged. “Fine by me. We already said goodbye.” I push by her.

I can hear her losing her shit but decided to ignore her. There was no sense in wasting my breath on her anymore. She was going to be upset regardless of what I told her. Jenna was impossible to please there was no use in trying. There were only two weeks left. Getting through them would be agony but there was a light at the end of the tunnel. No more Jenna.