Chapter 60

Chapter 60

Tonight was the dinner and although Melissa wasn't here to help, my outfit was very cute. It was a cute short, plush pink dress. There weren't flowers or anything like that. The style was simple but it worked for the casualness of the dinner theme.

I wasn't excited about this in the slightest. Being around Farah was a workout in itself. Then we have Jay who is still being petty. Cyrus is so sweet yet makes me nervous because of my actions. Then Jenna who I don't think I can trust no matter what she said to me. There is some hidden agenda behind her words but it couldn't be proven. Sitting at the table across from all of them was not something I considered fun but I had no choice in the matter.

Styling my hair in a neat, high ponytail, I head out to see some of the girls there ready to go. Jenna and Bradyn were still missing but that's to be expected. Bradyn wanted nothing less than perfection and Jenna just took forever to get ready. The rest of us looked great though including Jay.

He came out looking amazing I had to try not to look at him. We still weren't talking but he made it difficult for me not to want to. At least letting him know that he looked good wouldn't hurt, would it? My staring alone gave away how much I thought he was attractive. Never mind the drooling I assumed was coming out of my mouth.

Jay looked at me with a smirk forming on his face. "Take a picture it'll last longer," he said smugly.

I rolled my eyes not impressed with his egotistical side showing itself. "I liked it better when you were mute."

"It's cute when you lie to yourself, you know that?" This newfound attitude was starting to piss me off. Was he always like this?

I groaned looking away from him. It was better when we just ignored each other. I couldn't deny how much I missed him though. Even with that short conversation I wanted him to talk to me more. Talk to me with that sweet, sensual voice of his driving my body wild. I couldn't give him a hug when I desperately wanted to. This sucked.

Jenna and Bradyn finally came out and we headed to the house the Hadids were staying in this whole trip. This house was bigger than the one we were staying in but smaller than their actual house. However, Farah had a very specific decorating style that was implemented throughout all three houses. It wasn't anything bad, but it was repetitive. Whatever works for them I guess.

Sitting at the table wasn't as awkward as I thought it would be. The steak dinner was top-notch with the asparagus on the side. Everyone was getting along and Farah was being nice. Quite out of character for her but she was doing her best. I'm thinking Cyrus had something to do with her acting normal for once. She listened to him often so it wouldn't surprise me.

Clicking her glass, she gathered all of our attention before speaking.

"These last seven weeks have been hectic, but I want to thank all of you for participating." She said sweetly. "This last week there will be lots of surprises and a final decision made. May the best woman win."

Surprises? I wonder what surprise she had for the final week. A big decision was going to be made and there was no telling what she was going to do. That made me all the more nervous but happy it was almost over. Apart from Cyrus' decision, I had to make some choices too. Though Cyrus' choice would make it a lot easier. Jay was also aiding in the outcome of this whole thing by being an asshole. It's safe to say they were no help at all.

Dinner was over and everyone began to chat amongst themselves. I, on the other hand, decided to go outside and get some air. Chatting didn't sound appealing to me. Jenna was also flirting with Cyrus and Farah was eating it up. It wasn't something I had an interest in looking at and gladly stepped outside.

The air was chilly but nothing I couldn't handle. My mind was racing a mile a minute thinking about the week coming up. The uncertainty clouded my thoughts because nothing was set in stone. There were so many possibilities my heart couldn't take it. Will I end up with Cyrus or will it be Jay? If someone told me this would happen I would have never agreed to come here. What has my life become?

Leaning against the railing, I sighed defeated feeling an arm snake around my waist. I looked up to see Jay standing beside me. He still looked so good under the moonlight. His eyes encapsulated me without even trying. I was surprised to see him here but happy nonetheless. It's been a few days of him not nagging me. His presence was missed.

Standing up straight, a smile formed on my face. "Someone's talking to me again?" I asked him happily.

Jay stared back at me in good spirits. "Well, I couldn't ignore you forever," he said wrapping his arms around me completely. "I've done some thinking."

That didn't sound good as I snuggled up against him. "And what did your pea-sized brain come up with?"

He chuckled at my comment. "My pea-sized brain realized that I couldn't picture myself without you," he said softly.

My heartbeat picked up while I stayed snuggled up with him. I don't know why my heart was racing the way it was. It's not like I didn't know he felt this way. This was the first time I was hearing him say it like this. So sure of himself and his feelings. There were no walls up and he wasn't giving his normal tough-guy persona. Jay was genuine and it made the decision-making extra hard.

I couldn't bring myself to look at him so I kept my head buried in his chest. "What do you mean?"

"There hasn't been anyone to steal my heart the way you did, Autumn." He rested his head on top of mine. "The things I feel with you I've never had with anyone else. You've changed my world in ways that weren't possible before. Which is why I'm so lucky to have spent so much time with you."

That made me pop my head up. "You're using past tense with me here, what's happening?" He made me worried.

His hand caressed my face. "Relax, I'm just thanking you that's all." He reassured me.

I wasn't sure how to take it but I couldn't stop looking at him lovingly. Without hesitation, I quickly wrapped my hands around his neck pulling him down to kiss me. It didn't matter who saw us at this point. It's felt like ages since I shared a kiss with him and it didn't disappoint. His lips were as soft as ever and every emotion he was feeling, I felt. How were we supposed to give this up? There was so much promise yet unpredictability in our relationship. I craved it more as we spent time together. But we couldn't make it official. Not until we know for sure.

We should have been more careful but of course, that wasn't in my vocabulary. That's why the evil wrench herself caught us kissing. I've got to stop giving this chick more ammo against me. The more I give her the more she'll have to ruin me.

"What's this? I hope I'm not interrupting you?" Jenna said smirking happily.

Jay and I unlocked our lips looking at Jenna. I was worried but Jay looked unfazed keeping his arm around my waist. None of this would bother him because he had nothing to lose but I had everything to lose. If she says one thing to Farah I'm done for. What would she say to Cyrus? Why were we always getting into trouble?

Jay squeezed me tightly comforting me in his little way. It helped but my nerves were still erratic. I felt my body shaking nervously about what she'll do. She said we were cool but how cool were we? This was enough evidence she needed to make Cyrus choose her. This was the perfect opportunity for her to call him out here to catch me. So why wasn't she?

"Listen, Jenna, I'm going to need you to keep this between us." I didn't hesitate to negotiate with her. "I'll do anything you want."

Jenna gave a straight-faced look before smiling. "When did this start?"

"None of your business," Jay spoke up this time. "You're either going to keep your mouth shut or we're going to have serious problems." He threatened.

"Jay!" I yelled wanting him to not make the situation worse.

He ignored me stepping up to Jenna. "Autumn's going to be nice about it because she doesn't want to hurt anybody which is where I step in," he took control turning me on. "So, what's it going to be?"

I fiddled with my fingers in anticipation of what she was going to say. It impressed me how Jay took control of the situation. He was stern but not super mean about it. I loved the way he stuck up for me and is sticking it to Jenna. If this were anyone else I doubt they would have handled it better than Jay did. He was the definition of everything a girl could want in a man and then some.

After staying silent for so long, she finally answered sticking her hand out to him.

"Fine, whatever." She didn't sound happy about this. "I told you I was going to be nice to you so be it."

I sighed with relief as she walked back inside the house. Jay and I stayed outside a little longer as he turned back towards me with his hands in his pockets. He looked pissed off but kept his composure. It didn't change the fact that he looked at me with those same loving eyes he always did. Like we didn't just get caught being close together but that didn't matter to him. There was something different with us this time around. I couldn't quite tell what it was and didn't want to. Getting this side of Jay was hard to come by regularly.

Wrapping my arms around him once more, he smirked squeezing me slightly. There was nowhere I'd rather be than in his arms right now. However, the dinner was still going on and we needed to get back before anyone else came looking for us. Or we could also just stay here. I didn't mind that either.

"Hopefully she really keeps her mouth shut," Jay spoke.

"She should, I mean she stayed quiet about Cyrus and me when she found out," I said unwrapping myself from him. "This should be no different."

He didn't seem comfortable with it. "Still, I don't trust her as far as I could throw her."

I laughed kissing his cheek in the process. "Come on let's go back before anything else happens."

Jay pulled me back into him not wanting to go. "Do we have to?" He whispered sweetly.

"Yes, Jay, we don't want to get caught again." I didn't want to go either but it was the safest thing to do.

He groaned before kissing my lips one more time. "Fine, but I reserved all day for you tomorrow."

I perked up hearing that. "Oh, like a date?" I ask intrigued.

"Mm, you could say that."

He was leaving me to guess which I hated but couldn't deny the excitement. Whatever he had planned was going to be great. Plus, it would be nice to spend time with him alone again. With things coming to an end who knows if will ever get one-on-one time again.