Chapter 139
Nicholas sucked in a sharp breath, he knew he'd regret this, but he was doing it anyway.
He brought his hand to Ezra's face and gently removed Ezra's eyeglasses, dropping them beside them.
Ezra chuckled when he saw Nicholas blankly staring at his face, "I work with consent, Nicholas. You have to make the move, so I know I'm not the only one in this...we don't want problems later, do we?" His fingers were already hooked inside Nicholas' pants, tracing his waist.
"I...I want to have sex with you..." Nicholas said in a shaky voice.
"Good boy," Ezra smirked before he leaned his face down and captured Nicholas' lips in a hard kiss.
This time, he kissed him with purpose; he knew what he was going for this time; he wasn't testing the waters this time around.
However, Ezra's hand was about to go inside Nicholas' pants but he was stopped by Nicholas.
"Wait..." Nicholas placed a hand on Ezra's chest.
Ezra paused, he removed his hand from Nicholas' wait, holding himself up with his hands placed on each side of Nicholas' head.
"Why?" Ezra asked gently.
Nicholas shook his head. "I can't," He muttered.
Ezra sighed, "It's just sex, Nicholas, don't read-"
"I just can't, Ezra, I'm not attracted to you, and I told you...I don't fuck someone I don't love," he pushed gently against Ezra's chest.
Ezra gritted his teeth, closed his eyes, and slowly nodded. "It was just sex, Nicholas, you didn't have to be so dumb," He rolled off Nicholas and lay on his side of the bed.
"Fuck," Ezra used his pillow to place between his legs, hiding his arousal, what was he supposed to do with it now?
Nicholas noticed Ezra's discomfort and was surprised. He never knew Ezra could react that much to him, but he did encourage him. He was really trying to see if he could forget Zeno as Ezra suggested, and maybe he would have gone ahead with it if Zeno wasn't lying right outside their door.
He just thought it was weird doing it with the person he was trying to forget right outside their door.
Plus, he wasn't really sure how he felt about Ezra's approach. Was he turned on? Yes. Anyone would be turned on if they were kissed that way. But he couldn't carry on with it. He still hated Ezra, his years-long feud couldn't let him carry on with it.
He looked at Ezra and saw him lying with his face facing the ceiling, his arm blocking his eyes from the light.
His eyes caught Ezra's eyeglasses beside him and picked it up.
"Here," He said to Ezra.
Ezra slowly removed his arm from his eyes and turned to see what Nicholas was giving to him. He saw his eyeglasses and quietly took them from him, but he also held Nicholas' hand, staring into his eyes.
"What now?" Nicholas asked in a bored tone.
"Why? I need to have a reason. Don't you think what you did was too cruel?" Ezra questioned, his voice hinting at a restrained hurt.
Nicholas slowly shook his head, "Don't be funny, Doc. We hate each other; I have Zero feelings for you and don't forget, we're both tops," He reasoned.
"I can top you," Ezra replied immediately.
Nicholas scoffed, "Was the only thing you picked for all I said? I've told you before, I can't bottom for you, even if we were attracted to each other, our positions wouldn't allow us...stop this crazy discussion and go to sleep, Doc, stop being a headache," He drew his hand away from Nicholas.
"You know, you just made me dislike you more," Ezra spoke calmly.
"My pleasure, goodnight, Doc," Nicholas replied and turned away from Ezra.
Ezra released a deep breath; it was going to be a long night for him. Meanwhile, the person responsible for his condition was peacefully lying next to him, caring less about the condition he'd gotten him into.
Ezra was confused; it was just sex; why was Nicholas thinking too much about it? They would have been over with the damn lust by now.
But it looked like he wasn't getting any action tonight, which was fine; he worked with consent, but the other party refused; he couldn't force him; that wasn't his style.
It was good this way, they would have really just gotten their already bad relationship to worsen.
***
It was 2 a.m., and Sebastian hadn't slept a wink, he couldn't.
Zeno wasn't by his side, how could he sleep knowing that the other side of his bed was empty?
However, this attachment was what scared him; he was really scared of getting hurt; what if Zeno didn't really love him? What if he's been fooled for so long? Just as a fun thing for his father to do.
He missed Zeno, but he knew he needed this space; he wanted to be able to think for himself, but so far, he'd not thought about anything if not that he was missing Zeno.
He sighed and got off the bed.
He walked out of his room and went down to Ken's room. He gently opened the door and walked in.
He didn't turn on the light, Ken would wake immediately if he did.
He gently got in bed and drew his son I to his arms. Je wanted to sleep with his son tonight. Ken was the only one Sebastian trusted with his life; he knew Ken would never betray him and would t lie to him; at least, if he ended up losing everyone, he'd always have his son beside him.
"Daddy?" Ken's cute voice called quietly when he felt his father's arms around him.
"I'm here, Kenneth, go to sleep," Sebastian spoke calmly.
Ken yawned sleepily, "Where is he, Daddy? Where I'd Zeno?" Ken's sleepy voice questioned.
Sebastian paused; this was another problem; Ken was so used to Zeno. Who wasn't?
Zeno was just lovable, and he feared it would be so hard to let him go, but he wouldn't have a choice if it came to that; his family's security came first before anything else.
"Sleep, Kenneth, he'll be here tomorrow," Sebastian assured.
"Promise?" Ken whispered.
"I promise, son. Sleep now," Sebastian gently rubbed Ken's scalp.
Soon, he fell asleep, wondering what Zeno was doing at that moment. He was worried that Zeno was alone with two guys who had feelings for him, and no matter how ridiculous it might sound, he was scared that Zeno might actually end up doing something with one of them, in a worst-case scenario... both of them.
Yes, it would never happen, and he knew it, but his brain just decided to torment him with this horrendous thought.
He couldn't wait for tomorrow to come so he could speak to Zeno. He knew he had let his anger get the best of him, he should have done better by remaining calm and listening to Zeno's explanation, but hearing Zeno mention his relationship with his father ticked him off, he never expected Zeno to say that, knowing how it was between him and his father, he was quite disappointed.
After a very stressful sleep, Sebastian woke up when he felt Ken's tiny hand on his face.
"Wake up, Daddy, it's morning already; let's go get Zeno," Ken smiled down at his father.
Sebastian sighed, of course, Zeno was the first thing his son asked for in the morning.
"What do you have to say, Ken?" Sebastian asked, rubbing his eyes.
Ken pouted, "Good morning, Daddy. Now, canwe go get Zeno?" Ken asked, blinking at Sebastian.
Sebastian was speechless; this wasn't healthy; he needed to let his son know that nothing and no one lasts forever.
He needed to prepare his little heat for a heartbreak, just in case Zeno was really living them.
"I've got a question for you, Kenneth," Sebastian lifted himself and leaned against the headboard.
"What's that? Is Zeno gone? Left us?" Ken knelt beside his father and stared at him with questioning eyes.
Sebastian shook his head, but he was glad Ken was thinking the same thing he wanted to ask. He carried Ken and placed him on his thigh.
"Then, what do you want to ask, Daddy?" Ken was eager to know.
Sebastian took a deep breath before asking, "You know, Zeno is not part of our family...right?" He massaged the boy's smaller hand.
Ken frowned, the biggest frown Sebastian had ever seen on his face.
"What's the frown? I asked a question, Kenneth," Sebastian pinched Ken's cheek.
Ken pushed Sebastian's hand away, "What do you mean, Daddy? I thought Zeno was family?" He folded his little hands over his chest.
Sebastian sighed. He thought the same, too, but incidents were making him question his beliefs, "What if he left, son? What would you do? You know his time with us is almost over, we have to get used to ourselves again, just like before," Saying those words felt like his heart was being sawed, but he had to call a spade, a spade.
Ken's face flushed as his lips wobbled; he gently leaned in and hugged his father; he sniffed silently, hiding his face in Sebastian's chest, "But I don't want to go back to just you and I, Daddy. Zeno is awesome, I...I love Zeno and he loves me, too. I thought you loved him, too, Daddy, just like Dave and August...I thought you were going to make him stay forever...like, he'll be like my second Daddy!" Ken's shoulder shook, his quiet sob reaching his father's ears and breaking his heart.
Sebastian was shocked; he didn't expect Ken to give him that kind of answer; he gently patted Ken's back and kissed his head.
"Do you want Zeno as your second Daddy?" Sebastian asked carefully, he needed to confirm that he heard right.
Ken nodded his little head, "Yes, Daddy, that's what I said. Can we go get him now?" He raised his teary face to his father.
Sebastian didn't know how to feel; he and Zeno were still far apart emotionally to fulfill Ken's wish, but he had to start by getting him back home first.
"Let's go, little man, you can ask him to come home yourself," Sebastian lifted Ken and carried him out of the room.
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