Chapter 158
Zeno stared at Sebastian, holding a gun to him, and chuckled, "Go ahead, Sebastian, shoot me for loving you. You shouldn't have bothered saving me from Bison if I was doomed to die anyway. I mean, I would have preferred to die than face this shit you're putting me through right now," He boldly marched forward, stopping right in front of Sebastian's gun.
"Shoot me, Sebastian, stating slave already feels like being in hell, do me a favor and put me out of my misery," Zeno urged.
"You want to die that much, huh?!" Sebastian asked through gritted teeth.
Zeno raised his hand, reaching for Sebastian's face, but Sebastian stepped back, "Leave while you still can, Zeno, it's a warning," Sebastian told him in a dark tone.
Zeno chuckled, looking over at Sakura, "I'm sorry for punching you, but I'll do it again if you try coming close to my man," He smiled at her.
Zeno was losing it; he didn't care how he looked; he was simply a man trying to salvage a relationship with the man he loved.
He looked at Sebastian and sighed, "I'm not leaving. I'm going up to my room, and we will talk when you're in a better mood," He told Sebastian and tried walking past him, but he felt his shoulder being held and pulled, spinning his whole body to face Sebastian.
*Click *
Zeno heard the sound of Sebastian's gun cocking, he froze as he saw Sebastian's finger moving to pull the trigger as the gun faced his forehead.
"Fuck!" Sebastian groaned as he fell to the floor.
"Have you lost it?!" Ezra was the one to push Sebastian away, causing the gun to fall off his hand.
He kicked the gun far away from Sebastian's reach and glared at him.
"This is none of your business!" Sebastian stood and pointed angrily at Ezra.
Ezra scoffed, "Right, so you just want me to stand and watch you kill a human in front of me?" He turned and held Zeno's hand.
Zeno was still too shocked to speak; he couldn't believe that Sebastian was really going to shoot him; it was the last straw that broke the camel's back. Killing someone takes a lot; it meant that the person who wanted to kill another had absolutely no feelings for his target, no love, no companion, nothing, just hatred and... hatred.
It dawned on him that he truly had been making a fool out of himself in front of Sebastian.
"Then get him out of here! Or I promise next time he will be standing," Sebastian threatened.
Zeno's lips wobbled, but he held it in; he tightened his hand on Ezra's and moved closer to him, "Let's go," He muttered quietly.
Ezra sighed and put his hand around Zeno's waist, Nicholas immediately came over and placed Zeno's other hand around his shoulder, giving Sebastian a nasty look.
"Don't worry, Zeno, you'll get over him soon, I promise; he's not worth it; it's a good thing you're letting him go; he's a waste of time," Nicholas purposely said these words while keeping his eyes on Sebastian.
They helped Zeno walk toward the door; as they passed Sebastian, Zeno no longer looked at him; he kept his eyes focused on the exit; looking at Sebastian would only sharpen his pain; he wouldn't do that to himself.
Sebastian had told him to have some dignity for himself, as they passed Sebastian, Zeno no longer looked at him, he kept his eyes focused on the exit, looking at Sebastian would only sharpen his , and that was what he was doing; Nicholas had told him to love himself from now on, that was exactly what he was going to do from now on.
Sebastian gritted his teeth as he watched Sebastian Zeno walk past him without sparing him a glance; he was so angry, fuming.
Zeno left. The door closed. Everything was quiet, just as he wanted it, right?
Sebastian sighed and raked his fingers through his hair, feeling his anger raging higher and higher, he couldn't tone it down anymore.
"Fucking bastard," He cursed, walking toward the kitchen.
He grabbed water from the kitchen and was about to drink it when he suddenly recalled the water incident with Zeno in that same kitchen.
He threw the water on the counter and placed his hand on top of it, his head lowered as head as he allowed his head to play all the memories in his head for the last time before he finally abandoned them.
"Hey..." Sakura came and placed a gentle hand on his back.
"Hey," He raised his head and smiled at her.
"I'm sorry you had to witness that, and I'm sorry for this," He touched the cheek where Zeno had punched.
"It's okay; I understand it's hard for him to come to terms with your breakup; anyone would feel devastated in that position, even I. Promise me you'll never break up with me, Sebastian, please; I'm not as strong as Zeno, I can't bear it," She hugged Sebastian.
Sebastian sighed heavily, "I promise," he kissed her head.
***
Zeno was hugging Nicholas tightly as the car sped across the street; he was crying, loudly.
Nicholas hugged him back, gently patting his shoulder and rubbing it soothingly. He didn't even try to stop him; he wanted him to let it all out; that way, he would feel lighter from the inside. Holding in your hurt could break someone to an unimaginable extent, he didn't want that Zeno, he didn't want Zeno to become a shell of what he used to be, he wanted Zeno to return to his usual easy-going self, the person he had met in the boxing gym, he had fallen in love with him since then and was very devastated when he learned about he and Sebastian's relationship.
But, now, maybe he could be his remedy; he knew it wasn't advised to make yourself a rebound, but he didn't care; if that was what would make Zeno feel better, he would be just that.
Ezra glanced at them through the front mirror and felt conflicted; on one hand, he felt sorry for Zeno, and on the other hand, he was worried for Nicholas, he just hoped they wouldn't hurt themselves more in search of easy comfort.
Again, he knew he once romantically liked Zeno, but the unsettling feeling he was getting as both of the guys hugged each other wasn't from seeing someone he once liked hug someone else, it was... he couldn't even tell what it was, but it wasn't the best time to think about what he was feeling.
It was time he took Zeno back to the hospital and showed him something that would brighten his spirit.
"We've arrived, Zeno; you don't need to walk up by yourself; you've already exhausted all your strength; I'll get a wheelchair.
"Okay," Zeno's voice was hoarse as he responded, he didn't even feel like walking; he felt dead; he just wanted to be left alone to wallow in his pain.
This was his hardest breakup, and he was very sure he was never going to date again. If Sebastian could hurt him, then anyone could, too.
He had received so much love from Sebastian, so much reassurance, so much attention, so many promises, yet, it all ended in a matter of a few seconds. His trust for everyone was shattered, there was no such thing as love; to him, love was the biggest feeling of deception to get you to open up to someone and become very vulnerable to that person, it was a feeling that readers you powerless to another being, and from then on, he wasn't going to give anyone that kind of power over himself again.
He knew it was going to be hard, and long before he got over Sebastian, he wasn't going to deceive himself by pretending to be over him the next day while he was still hurting inside.
He was going to take it slow, one day at a time; the said time healed, but that was a lie, time only taught us how to live with the pain, and with more time, the pain just gets numbed whenever we think about it.
It's never healed, it's never forgotten, it's just accommodated.
"Here," Ezra and Nicholas helped him sit in the wheelchair, and Ezra gently pushed him inside the hospital.
He was going to accommodate this pain, learn how to live with it until it becomes numb, and with every pain a person undergoes, a new him is borne, he couldn't wait to embrace his new self, he wasn't going to fool himself and think that he was going to go back to his usual self, that was just impossible.
Pain changed people, and he wasn't going to be an exception.
"I have something to show you," Ezra said when they were reaching Zeno's hospital room.
Zeno wasn't interested, "I just want to sleep," He told Ezra.
Ezra nodded, "Okay then, I'll just drop you off in your room and ask the nurse to help you out with whatever you want, alright?" He calmly asked, pushing him closer to the door.
"Yes, Thank you," Zeno replied dryly, gently turning his face to look at Nicholas beside him.
He knew Nicholas still liked him, but that was no longer his business; he was never going to date, and even if he ever reconsidered, it would never be Nicholas.
He wanted nothing to do with anything or anyone connected to Sebastian Orion.
"Here you are," Ezra announced as he pushed Zeno inside the room.
Zeno looked forward and prepared to stand from the wheelchair, but he felt the air leave his lungs when he saw the person sitting on his bed.
"N-Nana?" He stammered.
He believed his pain must have made him start imagining things because there was no way!
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