Chapter 143
Inside Zeno's room, the lights were turned off, and he was lying across the bed staring up at the dark ceiling.
He was quiet, but his head was filling with loud thoughts.
A jumble of emotions and thoughts were racing together in a maddening dance. The silence around him was sinking him deeper and deeper into the endless abyss of destructive thoughts.
Zeno felt alone.
The image of Mr. Orion in his home, as he orchestrated the destruction of his home, as he orchestrated the destruction of his home was seared into his brain like a branding iron.
The pain and anger simmering beneath the surface were now threatening to boil over, and Zeno was struggling to keep them in check.
In the darkness, he felt abandoned, unsure of what to do next or who to trust. The only that was certain was that he couldn't stay in that state of limbo forever; eventually, he would have to face his darkness head-on and find a way to overcome it, even if it involved disagreeing with the people he loved.
But, at that moment, he just lay there, trapped in his own private hell, with no escape I'm sight. He didn't want to do it, and he didn't want to work with Bison, but would he be considered a coward if he chose to let the person who killed his parents go scot-free?
How about Sebastian? Was he willing to walk away from him? If he wasn't, was he ready to stay with someone who he knew didn't love him? Someone who probably just got together with him to spite his father.
Yes, he was jumping to conclusions, but he knew that his instincts were never wrong.
Zeno soon heard his door being opened and he knew it was Sebastian. He didn't move from his position, he lay there, waiting to hear what Sebastian wanted to tell him.
He and a sudden urge to tell Sebastian about Bison, but he decided against it. Bison might think he was a fool, but he wasn't. If he succeeded in finding that secret pen, he wasn't going to give it to any party; he would hold it until he heard the story from both sides of the party.
Sebastian walked into Zeno's room and saw how dark it was. This was the first time Zeno was leaving his room in utter darkness. He didn't turn on the light, he knew that Zeno wanted to stay that way.
He carefully walked over to the bed and stood beside it, "Zeno..." He sighed and lowered himself on the bed, his hand sought out for Zeno on the bed and he soon found his thigh.
Sebastian realized that Zeno was lying across the bed, he removed his hand from his thigh and lowered his upper body across the bed to lie beside Zeno.
He tried again, "Zeno," He moved his hand to the side and found Zeno's hands, gently taking it in his, "We need to talk," Sebastian said in a calm voice even though he was anything but calm.
He was scared, anxious, and unsure of what was going to happen from that moment.
Zeno didn't remove his hand; he didn't want to; he still loved Sebastian; he just wished that Sebastian was more honest with him.
"We do..." Zeno replied, feeling his throat hurting from holding back the sudden sob that wanted to escape.
He could feel it; he was going to lose Sebastian; it hurt, it hurt him so badly, and he wished they never got to the point of confessing their love to each other because now it was very hard for him to leave him.
"What's happening to us? We're drifting apart...and, it seems like we don't have control over it. How do we resolve our differences? Because; I do want to. I don't want to lose you, Zeno," Sebastian's calm voice seemed to be the key to Zeno's locked emotions because the moment he heard his words, a sob escaped his lips, and he felt tears rolling down from the side of his eyes.
Sebastian heard his sobbing and immediately pulled Zeno into his arms, holding him close to himself.
Zeno let Sebastian hold him; his face was buried in Sebastian's neck, and his arm behind Sebastian, clutching his shirt.
"Don't cry, baby, we'll work it out, okay?" Sebastian whispered soothingly, rubbing Zeno's back.
Zeno forced himself to stop crying, he couldn't speak to Sebastian if all he did was cry.
"It's alright, baby...I need to see your face, can I turn on the light?" Sebastian asked gently.
Zeno nodded.
"Lights on, Siri," Sebastian spoke.
Zeno squinted his eyes as the lights came on, brightening the whole room.
"Hey," Sebastian placed a hand on the side of Zeno's face, waiting for him to open his eyes and look at him.
Zeno slowly opened his eyes and saw Sebastian's handsome face staring at him with admiration in his eyes.
Zeno would always fall for Sebastian's charm; the man was fire. But Zeno feared that he might just be falling for deception all over again.
"I miss you," Sebastian whispered.
Zeno bit his lips, he missed him too; heck, he was almost dying when he couldn't see or hold him.
Sebastian slowly slid his hand inside Zeno's hair, his face leaning in on Zeno's, "I love you," He whispered and kissed Zeno.
Zeno kissed him back; he felt the warm rush of tingles ripple through his body from the satisfaction of finally having Sebastian in his arms and his lips on his.
He'd missed Sebastian so much.
Zeno was the first to make the bold move, he slid his hand into Sebastian's shirt and started to trace his abs, pushing it further by tracing his nipple.
Sebastian groaned, gently withdrawing from Zeno's kiss; his eyes were heated up and darkening with lust, "I do want you, baby, but we have to talk," He kissed Zeno's forehead and removed his hand from inside his chest.
"Our lust can never be questioned, Zeno. But how about our love?" Sebastian looked into Zeno's eyes; he could see the turmoil going on in there, and he wished Zeno could let him in.
Zeno sighed, "What do you want to talk about, Sebastian?" He slowly lifted himself and went to sit at the edge of the bed.
Sebastian went to sit beside him too, "About yesterday, I'm sorry for overreacting. I was feeling so hurt, Zeno. I thought you never loved me and were just here because my father had asked you to. I'm sorry," He stared at Zeno's face.
Zeno blinked slowly, this was the hard part. Even though Sebastian might actually be innocent of his father's actions, but wasn't free of the knowledge. Why hadn't he told him? Even after they got into a relationship.
He was conflicted.
He shifted closer to Sebastian and held his hand, "I love you, Sebastian, and I'm sorry for keeping those things from you. However..." Zeno paused and removed his hand from Sebastian's.
Sebastian felt the withdrawal deep in his soul, "What do want to say, Zeno?" He asked quietly.
Zeno looked at Sebastian, he saw the fear in his eyes, and he knew that what he was about to say would probably make Sebastian's fear come to pass.
It was his fear too, but he had to say it.
"I think we should break-"
"No!" Sebastian pushed Zeno down on the bed and got on top of him.
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