Embarrassed
RENEE'S POV
"I always thought in the beginning that it would pass, or maybe it was all in my head. Something I had probably conjured up in my head. Now, I was sure. I was sure my title would never die. I was sure that being a Rogue would always describe me."
He began to laugh. Not one of those laughs one would use when they found something to be comical. But one of the laughs someone would opt for when they found something more pathetic then funny.
"I remember Renee was on the phone. Her mother called. She did not fancy their conversations and I never knew exactly why until I heard what her mother had said to her. After a long summary of what was going on back at their home, her tone of voice suddenly changed. A change that captured my ear. It was as if she was warning her; informing her to watch herself while she was staying here. She went on to explain how the main ground was tainted. I knew she meant the main pack house. Tainted? Me. She rushed out of the room. I never told her that I heard it. I just didn't want her to try to explain or justify the statement."
Bane extended his hand just in time to catch the falling carving I had finished once again before he beamed it toward a blooming flower. He struck it; with great speed, it was able to rip through the blue pedal of the flower.
I began to think. Selfishly, I regret asking. I regret hearing the story. I regret knowing the trials and misfortunes he was forced to endure without our knowledge.
"You will always be a Rogue." I confirmed without an offering of emotion behind it. "You will never be linked to this pack like the rest. You will never be able to say you were born within this line. You will never be able to feel, know, experience the bond most feel within this tribe. You can never say you were born into this tribe."
Bane, without much of a verbal protest, he nodded. A man, whom I have known to talk even against my wishes, was without words for the first time.
"And I don't want you to ever want to."
"Why is that? Embarrassed?" He questioned with a little smile.
"Well, a little."
I pulled another small branch from the tree.
"Do you remember when we first came in contact with each other? You, a stupid ass rogue, walked into my territory. A territory that was under the watch of two different packs might I add. You walked through nasty snarls and vicious comments from many before you got to that cabin."
"Yeah." He chuckled with his head still low.
"You almost fucking died."
I remembered like it was yesterday. When he laughed, I was sure he did too.
"I could have killed you but you kept your stance and did not shift. Even after I threatened you. I did not trust you. I did not want your help and truthfully, I thought about killing you." I admitted. "I thought you were going to cross me. Most Rogues have hidden agendas but you kept true to the plan."
"I offered my word." He reminded me.
"And your life." From the far corner of my eye, I watched him shift around just far enough to look up at me. "I watched you risk your life for someone you didn't know. I watched you go against them just to free a girl you knew nothing about. I was never really sure if you were suicidal or what but your suicidal attempts not only saved her, but me as well.
She fought for you to be here because she saw something in you. Even if most of us didn't in the beginning, she did."
"I would thank her a million more times if I could." He confirmed.
"He I will always call you a Rogue. Why? Mainly because I think it's funny." I assured him of my reason. "But remember that is not the only title you carry."
"What others? What do you mean?"
"Well, an ass. With your best friend Bane being the hole, put you two together and I'm sure you have an idea of where that goes."
I found a laugh. A real one this time when he thought about what I meant.
"A good friend. I'm sure she sees you as someone she can trust enough to speak to. Also Renee.
I know of Renee's family and their strict views on her life. I guess that is why I offered her a chance to come here. She was trapped; confined behind their crazy views on the life they wanted for her.
I always noticed she never really broke apart from their line though. How could you when you were raised to almost believe what they wanted for you was also what you wanted for yourself?
Dating you? I just saw it as a step outside of her normal. A confirmation that for once, she was thinking and doing for herself."
"I never knew-"
"Most didn't. Everyone just knew she was a secret." I shrugged; my nails still carving at what was left of the tree's branch.
"And you?" He joked with a childish smile stretched across his face. "What do you title me outside of Rouge? Crazy? Wild? Or just the asshole description?"
I thought for a moment.
He helped create a label for himself from me that I never knew I would use. A title held by only a few.
"No."
I didn't really realize how hard I began to squint when I thought of all of the things that led to the title I had given him; the things that surpassed my expectations. The things that confirmed his true trustworthiness and dependability with not only me, but my family. What title did I give him? What title did I use to describe an annoying, talkative, maniac that did not seem to understand basic prompts given when I wanted to be alone? What title could I give a selfless man who proved to me, a man who was reluctant to admit fault at times, that I was wrong?
"Besides Rouge?" I asked. "A brother."
Again, he was speechless.
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