Miss him
RENEE'S POV
I was becoming swarmed with millions of thoughts and concerns. Bane's weird behavior.
Brent rejecting Alice. Bane being unaware of the secrets.
This ceremony in a couple of weeks.
I creeped out of bed and walked over to the window. The morning sun was hidden behind a few storm clouds. I opened up the window, allowing a cool breeze to blow in. I inhaled, the scent of nature and rain was beautiful, relaxing almost.
Small growls erupted from behind me. I turned around, only to see Bane squirming and growling in his sleep.
I walked closer to him. His body was drenched in perspiration. I touched his arm, his body was always warm to the touch but now it felt like he was on fire. I was growing concerned. What is wrong with him?
"Bane?" I mumbled.
He mumbled a few nonchalant words and growled out as though he was in discomfort or pain.
"Bane?" I placed my hand on his forehead to clear away the sweat. In one swift move, my arm was locked in his grasp. I struggled to move away but my arm didn't budge from his tight hold.
However he was still asleep.
His once look of discomfort turned into a look of hatred and anger. I attempted to pull away. His hold on my arm tightened. I looked down at his hand, watching his nails elongate, the tips scrapping against my flesh.
"Bane!" I tried to yell.
His eyes popped open, color removed from his eyes and replaced with the black darkness of the coal. Even though his eyes were open, he was still unfocused, like he was under some sort of trance.
He was staring up at the ceiling and he was panting heavily. I was scared, not for me but for him. Ive never saw him look like this.
"BANE, BABY!"
The darkness of his eyes faded away, bringing the natural color of green back to them. His grip on my arm dropped and he inhaled the air around him. He looked over to me, worry and hurt laced his face suddenly.
Tears began to flood my eyes, nearly clouded my vision of him. Ive never seen him look so helpless, so strange, so hurt.
"Dont cry, Im sorry, did I hurt you?" He leaned up.
Tears streamed down my cheeks as I jumped into his arms and wrapped my arms around his neck. Fear and panic was all I can think about.
Red, no. Blue, no.Yellow, no.
What the hell got into Jason this morning? It was like he was in a different world, like he wasn't himself.
"Hello!" Renee waved her hand across my face. I turned away from the rack of formal dresses and looked toward Jess and Maya.
"What got you all worried?" Maya questioned as she remand focused on the dresses on the racks. "Nothing. Just...nothing." I lied.
"Is it this weird party that got you all paranoid?" Renee asked.
Yes, Renee knew of the celebration and me meeting Jason's family for the first time but no, she was still left in the dark about what they were. Honestly, I knew the day was coming when I was required to tell her. I didn't want her to find out like I did.
"Yeah just trying to figure out my attire, thats all." I gave a sheepish smile to throw them off. "Should I go long or knee length or what?"
"Look. This is cute." Jessica held up a pretty peach colored dress that was shaping at the top and loose at the bottom, reaching the knee.
"No, I dont think thats a good idea." Maya chuckled.
"Why not?" I asked.
"Well, Mr and Mrs Hall are the former leaders and also very old fashioned. You see, the celebration would be considered a party for you guys, but for them, its more of a ball. Have you guys ever seen an older movie? You know, large ballrooms. long evening gowns, dress to impress, elegant." She corrected.
"Oh." Renee placed the dress back onto the rack. "So what would you recommend?" I asked Maya.
"Well, since you want to blend in or go unnoticed, I would suggest a nice neutral color. Green, dark blue, burgundy.."
She pulled a simple burgundy floor length dress from the rack. It was ruffled at the top and simple at the bottom. Plain and boring is what I would best described this dress.
Perfect.
"Great." I smiled at the dress. "Now, Renee and I." She pulled a black tight fitting floor length dress from the rack. "Can go all out."
"Nice." Renee smiled.
We picked our gowns and left the store and decided to have dinner before heading back home.
BANE'S POV
The sky was beautiful tonight. The moon was magnificent as stars danced and glistened around it.
This was one of those nights where you could spend hours staring off into the sky and feel comfortable.
However, tonight, I didn't feel...right. Something felt wrong, as if a part of me was left somewhere. I didn't feel whole, I felt as though I was missing something. I cracked the bedroom window, allowing the cool air to blow into the room. I tied my hair up into a bun and stripped down to my underwear.
I pulled the comforter back and slipped in to the warm sheets before pulling the comforter over me. I reached over to the nightstand and flicked the lamp off.
Whats wrong with me?
Am I missing something?
I wish my mother was here to help me, to talk to me in my time of need. I miss her advice, even the bad advice I was too scared to take. I knew if she was still here with me, she would be able to help me put my problems or concerns to rest.
Hell I miss her.
I closed my eyes, allowing the warm tears to flow down my cheeks.
I missed the good times. She was my mother and my friend. She was the one person I could speak to and never worry about being criticized. She was my shoulder to cry on when times got rough.
I wiped away the tears that continued to escape however I was unable to keep up with the rapid flow.
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