Cheating
RENEE'S POV
I've been in my room for the past four weeks now and I feel like I'm in prison.
I was rarely allowed to leave my room, the only times I was allowed was at night when all maids are done with the home chores and when both my parents are done with their supper.
My father made an order.
He told me to stay in my own room and move out only if they are all done.
He meant it when he said I'm cursed. He didn't allow anyone to see me. I was a disagrace to everyone.
Everyone feared him and respected him but it was only Jsssica who always sneaked and brought me food. She wanted me to survive because my father's intentions were mainly to starve me to death.
He was so ruthless that even after ordering the guards to beat me like that, he didn't feel any mercy for me.
He went ahead and locked me in my own room and I had to heal by myself.
Everything was too much for me.
Through out the first days, l cried myself to sleep but I had no solution. I had no savior not even my mate.
He also didn’t want me or feel any mercy for me. He came to our house and knew the situation I was in. I didn't see him nor hear him talk but I could feel him near. Though I was locked in my room, I drowned in his intoxicating smell. My wolf was in torture that she didn't see him... her mate and she wasn't actually beside him even though he was so close.
As they say, so close, but still so far.
The worst part is that not being anywhere near him is actually torturing me. The mate bond was physically hurting me. Mates are supposed to be together when they meet and can't be too far from each other. Being near each other makes them strong and well, the opposite happens when they're too distant from each other. Distant not only physically but relationship-wise also.
Lately, I've been getting headaches, chest pains and dizziness. At first, they were mild. As the weeks went by, my headache would be so bad, it kept me awake at night. At times, I would stay in bed because I was too dizzy to even keep my eyes open. I couldn't even eat the food Jessica sneaked in because I'd just vomit it out.
This is just the physical damage of being away from your mate, I heard that it could get worse and could hurt more if you're unable to take the pain.
Tonight, however, I wasn't feeling anything so far. No headaches, stomachaches, nothing. It was like taking a break from the sickness. Or so I thought.
A stabbing pain started in my chest and started spreading in my whole being. I felt like my heart was breaking. At first, I wondered if this pain was the mate bond punishing us from being away from each other. However, no.
An ugly thought creeped its way in my mind and I wanted to shake that away. No, it couldn't be.
It just couldn't be.
But then again, when I recalled everything , expression of Bane, he seemed determined to make me suffer. Is this part of it?
Yes he doesn't like me but Is him being with someone else right now part of making me suffer? Because if it was, damn, it was working.
He was probably with that strawberry haired lady, Carlo.
My heart was sinking, hurting and stabbing and the mate bond just made it feel worse. Tingling pain left its mark on my skin and somehow, I know it came from another girl's touches. Her hands were making their way up his face and I felt it.
I felt everything.
I haven't cried ever since I was beaten severely by the guards and I was determined not to cry. I didn't cry when the mate bond was punishing us for being away from each other. I didn't cry when I felt so damn lonely and imprisoned in this place. But now, I felt the tears rising up and although I tried my best to hold them off, they fell on their own.
My wolf retreated in the back of my mind. I tried talking to her, but she didn't say anything. I could also feel her loneliness and her hurt. What hurt more was that I couldn't help her in her pain because I was terribly hurting too.
'I'm so sorry, Shannon.' I whispered to her and all I could do was hope that she heard my apology. After all, I was sorry that she got to be paired up with me as her human. She deserved someone better. And now she gets to suffer my unlucky life as well. She found me already being called a curse to everyone.
The pain became unbearable after a while and my crying had done nothing. I felt the pain all over.
I closed my eyes hoping that the pain would go away, hoping that it would stop, that he would stop. He had me, his mate. Why was he with someone else?
"He doesn't like me, he doesn't like her too, he likes Aurora",
I tried not to get angry, I tried not to blame myself, I tried not to think about, but it was hard when you could literally feel your mate cheating on you.
I started pacing around the room, thinking about a million things in my head about why my mate would do this to me. Cheating on your mate is probably one of the worst offences you could commit. It was absolutely wrong, an outright disrespect to the moon goddess.
My room suddenly seemed to be so cramped and it was getting harder to breathe. I needed to breathe, this room seems too much like a prison for me and I couldn't take that. I opened the door of my room, although I knew it was wrong for me to do so.
But I couldn't bear up with it anymore.
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