So annoyed

BANE'S POV)

I arrived at the pack infirmary , my wolf pacing anxiously inside me. The moment I stepped into the reception area, the scent of antiseptic and herbs filled my nostrils. A woman behind the counter looked up as I strode forward.

"Alpha....", She started. 

"I'm looking for Renne," I stated urgently.

"Hold on, Alpha. I'll check the records," she responded, pulling a thick ledger from a drawer.

I clenched my fists on the marble surface, my impatience barely contained as she flipped through the pages. Every second felt like an eternity.

"Yes, luna Renee, she was brought in last night. Accident case. She's in room 95, Wing C, second floor of the infirmary."

That was all I needed to hear as I briefly thanked the lady before hurrying off. I got into the elevator and punched in two and it rode up. I alighted when it got to the floor and beckoned a nurse for direction.

"Renee" I said. "Where is she?"

She pointed down the hall. "luna is in end of the corridor, last room on the right."

I took off, my steps urgent. When I reached the door marked 95, I hesitated. What if she didn’t want to see me? My Wolf whined in the back of my mind, but I shoved my hesitation aside and pushed the door open then stepped into the room.

Inside, Renee was sitting up in bed, talking to Ashley. The moment she saw me, her expression froze.

Relief surged through me at the sight of her alive and awake, . Both ladies were fine but my chest tightened at how frail Renee looked.

It was just 24hrs, but it felt like I had not seen my mate in months. Dressed in a pale blue hospital gown, she appeared even paler than usual, her skin marked by bruises and scratches. Her usually vibrant hair was disheveled, and the dark circles under her eyes told me she hadn't slept well.

Over all, she looked sick.

"Renee?" I called, cautiously approaching her. The look on her face when I first walked in was of surprise, but now, it was unreadable. Stoic. Cold. My stomach twisted at the lack of warmth in her eyes. 

She didn't even reply to me.

"Thank the Moon Goddess, I'm glad you're fine, I was so worried", I exhaled, trying to touch her hand. But before my fingers could graze her skin, her next her reaction was unexpected. It threw me off balance.

"What do you want?" she snapped, swiftly throwing my hands off her.

I recoiled in shock. Why was she harsh and unreceptive? Did I do something wrong? Then I recalled how she saw I and Sofia. Of course, she had every right to be angry which is why I have to explain to her that what she saw was not what it appeared to be.

"Look, Renee, things are not what they seem to be. What you saw was nothing-"

Her laugh was hollow. "How shameless can you be?", She hissed out. "I can't believe you came all the way just to tell me lies and justify your cheating ass. And oh, I know what I saw. You, Nicholas, left work for home just to fool around with the one person you call "just a friend!" Have you no dignity? She's a pregnant woman, Nicholas."

"I promise you, I was not doing what you thought I was doing with Sofia. It's just a misconception that I need to correct. Just hear me out, please."

"I don't want to hear anything you have to say because all you've done is tell me lies. To think I returned home early just to make your favorite, and was welcomed by the sight of you making out with another woman on our bed. I would rather not see you, or speak to you. Just get out!"

My heart sank at this revelation. Renee had returned home to prepare my favorite? That finally explained why she was home earlier yesterday. My heart broke the more to think it was all my fault. She was in this condition because of me. I shouldn't have accepted the alcohol from Sofia, that way I wouldn't have been dizzy and drunk, and Renee wouldn't have seen what she saw. Wouldn't have gotten into an accident.

"Babe-" I tried to reach for her hand, but she flinched like. my touch could scald her skin.

"Don't touch me, and don't call me that. You never called me endearing names, it was always Renee. Stick to that. Was it so hard?"

I blinked in confusion. "I don't think I understand-"

"Was it so difficult to love me?", she asked, her voice trembling. "I know our mate bond wasn't exactly about love, and I didn't push for it, even though I wanted it. I was okay with your respect and loyalty, but still, they were difficult to give when she returned."

I didn't bother asking who it was she was referring to because I knew who. My throat just dried speechless.

"I batted an eyelash even when it was glaring that you still loved her. I badly wanted to believe your, "she's just a friend," mantra. I wanted to live in denial, clinging to the false hope that I just had to put in more efforts to make our mate bond work. But she frustrated all my efforts, and do you know what hurts the most, you, Nicholas, abated it!" Renee screamed. Her voice had cracked now, and tears threatened to spill from her eyes any moment.

"You let her , you let her....", She was screaming more.

"Renee....-"

"You neglected me for her. My opinion suddenly stopped being a priority while hers were. I should have known, and stopped fighting. Should have known that your love would always be with her, and maybe, just maybe I wouldn't have lost it. I wouldn't have lost the one thing that would have filled in the gap your absence created. I was so foolish, so, so foolish."

I was confused and filled with dread now. What was she talking about? "What did you lose?"

Renee gave a laugh, except that it can not exactly be defined as one because it was a brief throaty sound that conveyed bitterness. "Of course you didn't know. Well, news flash, I was pregnant and I lost it."

I winced, my face contracting like a severe blow was served to it. Pregnant. Pregnant. Pregnant. The word echoed in my head until I felt lightheaded. "P... Pregnant?"

"Yes, pregnant. I was going to tell you the night you ditched me during our anniversary dinner just to go pick up Sofia at the airport", She whispered. "Remember that night? There were several other times I wanted to tell you, but Sofia always got in the way. All the while you've been giving her preferential treatment because she was pregnant, and the times she subtly called me barren, I was pregnant",

A sharp, icy pain stabbed through my chest.

"But not anymore because all thanks to you two, I lost my pup yesterday from an accident after blindly running into the streets because I saw you two. My baby is dead. You two killed my pup!",

I staggered backwards, almost tripping over as if she had physically struck me. Renee was pregnant? Has been pregnant? And I didn't know? And she lost the baby? No, this was too much information to process.

A guttural snarl tore from my throat, my Wolf howling in pain.

"Get out, Nicholas", Her voice was hoarse, her eyes glistening with unshed tears. "I do not want to ever see you again."

I barely heard her, I was too dazed, too caught up in the shock of all I heard. My unborn pup, my first fruit was dead in a gruesome way. He or she didn't even have the chance to make it to this world. I didn't even have the chance to know about its existence.

"Leave!!!" Renee yelled, her shrill voice bouncing off the room's wall.

I didn't refuse. I was mentally tired to argue, so I simply turned around, and walked out of the room morosely.