Her powers
RENEE'S POV
I turned to face him slowly, showing him my wolf was in no violent frenzy as the other wolves whom I was running with began to stop beside me. They were all curious about why my second in command had halted our exercise in the middle of the woods.
But Bane paid them no attention. His icy blue eyes found mine and he announced, "Alpha Bane from the Red Raven pack is here and he is requesting your presence." I couldn't tell anything by his tone, or maybe my own emotions simply drowned his out.
Alpha Jason. He was the leader of a nearby pack. His pack was large, strong and well respected throughout the werewolf community. My heart automatically fluttered in my chest with hope and anticipation. This could be it. This could be my break.
I was too excited to even dismiss anyone. I bolted directly towards my private cottage, stumbling of fallen logs and roots like a clumsy mutt as I went. But I could hardly find it in myself to care. I needed to shift out of wolf form, presumably shower and somehow make myself look decent for this man.
This could be an outstanding opportunity. I had never met this man before but he could be the one. I prayed he was the one. He would save me from all of the ridiculing I was tormented with from other packs- and occasionally, even my own. And he would make my disappointed and disgusted parents content with the future of their pack for the first time since I was born. And, my god, he could be the man to subside my heat before it tore me apart.
I shifted into human form just outside from front door, hardly bothered by my nakedness. Even if bare skin wasn't a common occurrence within my community I wouldn't have cared. There was a chance to make my life and the state of my pack substantially better, and that chance was loitering around on my territory, waiting for me.
I darted around my home. First I showered and scrubbed my skin and hair until there were no scents of my run left on my skin, just the soft smell of lemon shampoo. Then I ripped through all of my drawers, desperate to find something appealing to wear. All of my clothing was functional; versatile.it could transfer from a training session to an emergency attack. But that meant that nearly all of my clothes were ugly.
Eventually I ended up having to slip on a hoodie and a pair of untorn jeans. They didn't scream classy, flirty or cute, but if he was the one it wouldn't matter. He wouldn't even be aware of the people around him, much less my clothing.
"Alpha." Bane called from the basement. He must've brought our guests here, to my home, to keep them off the territory and away from prying eyes. I could hear their quiet voice in the background and my stomach filled with butterflies.
I sucked in a deep breath to calm myself then opened my bedroom door.
"Yes Bane?" I asked as I descended the stairs.
But I wasn't paying attention to my second in command. The second the other men were in my sight I let my eyes rove all over them. They were all just as I had suspected. Just as /should've been. Tall, muscular, intimidating with cold eyes, unsmiling lips and scars.
I strained my nostrils as much as I could without being obvious. Wasn't I supposed to smell his scent by now? Wasn't it supposed to be driving me wild with lust and desire? Weren't my eyes just supposed to find his both that was made for me?
"Luna Renee." A man said.
Judging by the power wafting out of his pores he was the alpha. He was alpha Jason.
My body didn't quiver at the sound of my name on his lips. I wasn't intoxicated by some heavenly smell. I didn't feel like I was supposed to. Like I hoped I would.
Instead, I felt my lip curl up in disgust. If I was in wolf form I would've snarled at him. "It's Alpha Vienna." I corrected tightly. He would not disrespect me in my home, on my land.
But Alpha Bane didn't seem to care. I could see the disappointment in his eyes. It was the same thing I felt in the pit of my stomach.
"I came here to make sure our treaty was still intact." He said.
We both knew he was lying. I had just turned eighteen; I had just come of age. My mate could take me now, my body was ready and my mate would finally sense it. Jason was only here to see if I was his mate to claim, if my pack could not be melded with his pack and his territory could expand.
He wanted to be my mate like I wanted to be his, but for an entirely different reason. I could already sense it.
"It's all right, Renee." Bane cooed as I wept uncontrollably. His voice was low, gentle and as calm as ever.
We were sitting on the couch together in the living room, Alpha Trenton and his pack members long gone-thank God. And it seemed that the second they closed the front door I was in tears, bawling so hard Bane had to guide me to the leather couch because I couldn't see it on my own. I couldn't even explain why I was so distressed. I just kept crying and crying until my eyes felt swollen and sore and my throat ached from the rough hiccups.
This is why women weren't supposed to be alphas. How was I supposed to lead my pack into battle if I cried pathetically just because some man, some alpha, wasn't my mate? I was weak. I was pathetic. My parents were right. My pack should shun me. I should hate myself.
I did hate myself.
"I'm never going to find a mate." I whimpered. I keep my face buried in my hands. I'm horrified by my actions but I can't seem to stop myself from this weakness. Even though I know Bane is right next to me, watching me crumble to pieces. I feel so alone, so helpless, and so confused.
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