Chapter 104

(Maya POV)

That night I barely slept as the talk I had with Tommy ran through my head over and over again. He had been my first mate, the one I was sure would be through everything with me after everything we went through and how far we had come. Yet, he was letting fear of his pack turning against him cloud his judgment. He knew his place here and although I wanted to support him, I knew I would not belong here. Even now with my other powers so far from my grasp I felt the need to be more. I had never felt this kind of pull before, but I was done bending over and falling Ingrid line with everyone’s expectations and hoes hole not giving a damn about my own.

I was told that I was meant to lead our people to peace and yet I had gone far from that in every way possible. I let my fear and submissive nature allow me to fall into a malleable pile of compliance. That was wrong, I knew that and my talk with Tommy helped that fact lock in place. I would not bow to him or anyone, I was never meant to. What the hell was I doing? Power or not I was born to bring all of our people together no matter what. But where was I supposed to start? My uncle sat comfortable on the thrown of the Fae world, and I had let him. My father was dead leaving my pack without an alpha to lead them. My pack…That was were I needed to start.

They were weak and vulnerable. How had I forgotten the debt I owed them? They deserved a leader that was fair and kind after the torture they endured under the rule of the men of my family. I was a woman but hell if I was going to let a man stand in the place I was born to take. I would become alpha and lead my people out of hardship and darkness and then I would bring the others along with them. This was the first step, and I was going to take it.

I sat up and didn’t waste a seconds before packing my bag. There was no discussing this, and I didn’t care who came with me but I was leaving today. The sound of my intense movements soon stirred Thomas from his sleep, and I met his eyes. I didn’t have to say a word though, because my Fae knew every part of me, mind and soul.

“I’m going with you.” He said crawling out of the bed.

I took a moment to look at the boy still asleep in our bed. “I want to take him with us.”

“Then we will. We will talk to the care giver and find a way to bring the boy with us.” Thomas said wrapping his arms around my waist.

I could help but lean into his touch and rest my head on his chest. He really had changed for the better and although I respected his distant nature I was glad to share these new moments with him. My ice prince as melting all around me and filling with his new warmth and I couldn’t ask for anything more.

He stepped back and looked down at me. “What about the others?”

“I honestly don’t know. Hey are loyal to Tommy, and I know he will not want me to go. But I have to Thomas, look what I have done by not fulfilling my purpose. I may have not wanted any of this but something has shattered in my heart and is pulling me to do what must be done. I was ready to give in to Tommy and bend to his wishes even after I tried to stand up for what I wanted. And I realized that is all I have ever done. Lay down and let the world take me and pull em any way it wanted. I can’t do it any more. I want to be free.” I said feeling my heart race at the last part of my words.

Everything that had happened in the last few months came rushing over me and I cursed myself for being so stupid.

“I will go to the caretaker and explain our wishes for Isaiah, and bring him to gather his things.” Thomas says turning to get dressed.

His ease of falling in line to my wishes mad my heart bleed for him just that much more. As much as I loved my other mates, Thomas and I had such a deep and intimate bond that I knew I could always count on him to put me first. Wolves were passionate and that made them unpredictable sometimes, but Thomas was calculated and went over ever detail. So if he agreed with me, I knew I was on the right track. I didn’t waste another moment and opened the door to face my mates, I may just lose them all but this was bigger than all of us.

As I walked down the hall to reach the stairs I heard voices in a heated debate, and I took a second to gather my resolve before heading toward them. As I came down the last few steps I heard Eli first.

“Tommy what the hell are you doing? You are just going to roll over and turn you back on Maya as if her wishes mean nothing?” He ground out.

“She has to know this is for the good of the pack!” Tommy shot back and I cringed at his anger, almost letting my body lower it’s self to submit.

“You know she will never be what they want, she is more than that!” Noah added.

“She was more than that when she had her powers, now she has to find her place in this world. That is to be Luna of this pack and commit to protecting her people.” Tommy said firmly.

“Do you even hear yourself? Have you gone mad? After everything you are following in your father’s footsteps willing to sacrifice everything for the pack? This pack only respected him because he kept peace, but you have to feel the air shifting. Maya was meant to bring peace and until she does there will never be true peace!” Eli growled.

“How is she supposed to do that now? She was bonded to us to create a being strong enough to bring all our people together, but that power is gone!” Tommy was yelling now and I felt my resolve snap back into place.

I didn’t wait, I didn’t cower, I marched down and walked right up to him.

“You think I am weak Tommy? You think I can nothing more than an accessory to your rule? Then I have already lost you.” I say to him.

His eyes widen at my words, and I know he understand exactly what I am saying. If I had to severe our bond I would.

“You can’t mean…” He starts to say his voice sounding hurt.

“I don’t know what has pushed you to the point where you think I am below you, but that ends now. In fact I know exactly what I am mean to do, powers or not. That power was meant to be a weapon and shield in my fight but it doesn’t not make me who I am. Starting now I am not asking permission, because I know exactly what I need to do.”

I say taking a step back from him.

“What is that?” Noah asks softly.

I turn to him and keep my resolve firm, they needed to know I meant every word of what I was saying.

“I am going back to my pack, the one left alone after the death of my father.” I say straight out.

“You can’t be serious! I am to be presented as alpha with no Luna by my side?” Tommy said furiously.

I turned to him. “I was never meant to be meant to be luna of this pack Tommy, but if it means that much to you to stand in front of the pack with a woman by your side then do so, but it wont be me.”

He scoffed. “I can’t believe this. You are running away just like that? Not even considering us in your choice.”

“I am offering all of you to come with me as I take my place, to fulfill my birth right, but I wot force you to follow me. You know what we were told, and I have not been living up to my role but trying to fit in the mold that everyone tried to fit me in. I don’t belong anywhere because all of this world is part of me. My power was from the very elements of this world because we are all apart of this world, and yet we fight to stay in control of something that was never meant to be controlled.” It was like the words were spilling out of me, as my mind was cracking open.

As my mind broke free I felt a flutter just below my skin, a pulse not my own.