Chapter 42

(Noah POV)
Maya’s voice sounded distant and weak, but I could hear her.

“Yes, Maya it’s me! Are you ok? Did they hurt you?” I ask her frantically.
“I don’t feel right. They injected me with something, and I keep feeling really sleepy.” She tells me.

I don’t know what to say to her or how to comfort her. I was not good with words and here I was maybe speaking to my mate for the last time and I could not even say the right thing.

“Do you know where they took you? Did you notice anything?” I ask.
“No, I just woke up. I was asleep when they moved me. Wherever I am it’s dark, I can’t see anything.” She replies. “Noah, I am so sorry.”
Why was she apologizing?
“Why are you saying that? You did nothing wrong!” I tell her.
“If I had not stormed of then those men wouldn’t have grabbed me. I must be causing everyone so much trouble.” I can hear the pain in her words, and even with the connection coming in and out it sounded like she was ready to give up.
“Please don’t say that Maya, don’t say this like you are saying goodbye.” I say forcefully.
“Noah, you guys need to stop looking for me now. It isn’t worth the pain and loss the pack may face coming after me. Please just tell them to let me go.” She says in a calm soft voice.

She was saying goodbye and she wants us to give up as well but, how could I? When we had not even had a chance to be happy together. The pain of her being away from me had already started and the desire to be with her was only growing the longer we were apart. I knew if we were apart much longer that there was no hope for me either. Tommy had endured the pain because he was an alpha, and stronger than me. I was not strong enough to survive the loss of my mate, and if she were to die than I was sure to follow her.

For as much as I had fought my feelings for her, they had only grown, and I knew for sure I would never wish to live without seeing her face again. I could never live with the guilt of hurting her before we even had a chance to be happy together.

“Please Maya, keep fighting. Don’t give up yet, we will find you I swear it!” I promise her.
“Please Noah, just let me go. I know what I can do to make the pain less severe, and if I do this then you will live even after I am gone.” She says.

What is she saying? Would she really go so far to keep us from finding her?

“No Maya don’t please!” I beg her.
“If I reject you as my mate then the pain will end, and you will be free. We never fully bonded, you could be free and move on. You never wanted this Noah, and you should not have to endure it.” She says and I could hear her growing weaker as she spoke.

She must be drifting into unconsciousness again.

“Maya, no. I don’t want that.” I tell her.
“Please let me do this Noah, I could set you free. You could be able to forget everything that happened.” She tells me.
“Maya, please I don’t want that. I want you; I have since I realized what you were to me. I was stupid and selfish, and I pushed you away because I was trying to run away. I fell for you the moment I saw you, but you were Tommy’s mate and it was wrong to look at you in that way. I was happy to forget those feelings but when I found out we were mates, I was scared. I was scared of my feelings, and I was scared of what it means to share you. But I don’t care about that, I don’t care if I have to share you as long as you are with us. So please don’t push me away now. We can still find you, just hold on a little longer.” I could feel the urge to cry building as I heard her soft voice trailing off.

“Noah I am so tired….I just want to sleep…” She says with a breathy low voice.
“Sleep love, we are coming!” I tell her and the connection between us dissolves.
I turn to Eli. “She is still alive.”
“That’s good.” Eli says simple.
“They drugged her, she sounded out of it.” I could feel my fears building.
What if we don’t find her and this alpha who has been wanting her will kill her? What does he want with her?
“She wanted to reject meso that I wouldn’t hurt anymore.” I tell Eli.
“Did she?” He asks.
“No, I wouldn’t let her.” I reply.
“Why?” Eli asks me.

“I begged her not to, and she got too tired to say the words.” I felt my chest tighten hearing Maya’s voice replaying in my mind.
The pain grew and I fell to my knees clutching my shirt, and I growled out in agony. Eli ran over to me and tried to check on me, but I could not hold back my wolf. I shifted and knocked him to the ground.

“Noah breath! You need to breath brother, if you don’t then you will lose control. We will get her back, just calm down.” Eli lets out a growl to try and make my wolf submit, but he has sensed something.
“I can sense her!” I say through the mind link.
“What do you mean?” Eli asks.
“I know where she is!” I say to him.

His eyes widen and he runs the the mouth of the cave and calls out for Tommy and Will to come back.

“What happened?...Hey Noah what are you doing?” Will says as he exits the cave.
“He spoke to Maya. She is drugged but still alive!” Eli paused and looked to Tommy with a smile. “He knows where she is!”
“You know where she is Noah?” Tommy ask through the mind link.
“Yes, I was feeling this intense pull and then I shifted, and I could sense her. It was so strong; I am sure I can get us to her! They have covered a lot of ground; they must have run to wherever they were headed in wolf form. But we can find her!” I tell them.
“Lead the way brother!” Tommy and Eli say together, and they shift into wolf form ready to follow.
“Let’s get your girl back, I am so done with all your moping. It’s bad with one of you, but all three of you missing your girl is driving me crazy!” Will teases.
“Shut up!” The three of us said to him before taking off toward where the hills descend opening the way to our mate.