Chapter 30

My new room was quickly put together, but it looked so warm and welcoming, like I was expected to be here all along. Maybe this was meant to be my room, but it was never offered since I had my own apartment. I wasn't sure, but I loved it.

"I hope this will be ok for now." Tommy said nervously.

"Yeah! It looks so comfy I think I could fall asleep instantly with how comfortable this bed is!" I tell him with a smile.

"I am glad." He says taking a seat next to me on my new bed. "Eli and Noah packed up as much as they could from your apartment. I don't think they knew what not to bring, so they brought all your clothes and shoes and bathroom supplies."

I laughed a little at how cute that was. When I looked back at Tommy I could see he was sad, and as much as I wanted to sleep after the day I had including the things I hadn't told him about yet, I knew I should talk to him.

"What's wrong?" I ask him taking his hand and intertwining our fingers into a tight squeeze.

"I just feel like I just got you all to myself and now I am losing you again." He says his voice cracking slightly.

My heart broke at the sound of his voice giving away how close to crying he was. I hated that I was doing this to him. Even though I didn't plan any of this, it still felt like it was my fault. If I had never moved here, never applied to the University then he never would have met me. He would have been free; he wouldn't be hurting like this. I felt tears burning along the creases of my eyes. He was upset and I wanted to be strong for my mate but all I felt was guilt.

"I'm so sorry Tommy." I say softly and releasing his hand.

"Why?" He asks.

I knew he was angry and confused, did he really not know why I was sorry?

"I am sorry you have to go through all of this because of me. I don't know why all this is happening! Maybe I shouldn't stay here, maybe I should go back home." I say struggling to hold in the whimper that wants to escape my mouth.

Tommy looked at me with eyes wide. "Leave? Why would you leave?!" He asks nervously turning me to look at him.

"Because you all are in danger now, and then this whole mate thing just made everything so much worse." I tell him letting out a small cry.

"No Maya! I don't want you to leave. I never want you to leave! We are still mates and without you I will feel empty!" He stopped for a second and let out a deep sigh. "At first the idea of sharing you with two other males infuriated me. How could I ever share you with anyone? But Eli and Noah have been my friends since we were pups and they are like brothers to me. If you are their mate too, I don't want them to suffer from not having their mate in their life. I know how much I was hurting when we were apart, and I would not wish that pain on my friends. Just understand that sometimes I will be a little jealous."

He let out a small laugh, which made smile slightly.

"Are you sure you will be ok with them being around, or me spending time with them?" I ask.

"I can't say I will like it, but I understand it. Maybe over time it will get easier, but they need you too. So, don't blame yourself and don't worry. Just make sure to make time for me too, ok?" He asks lifting my chin to look deep into his eyes.

His eyes looked tired but not angry and not resentful, which was a relief. I had to come up with a way to spend time with all of my mates and not make any of them too jealous. That is going to take some serious planning. Although it didn't seem like they were even in a rush to be with me since I was sitting here alone with Tommy. He leaned toward me and kissed me softly cupping my cheek and caressing it softly.

When we pulled away he wrapped his arms around me and pulled me close to him, hugging me tightly and leaving a kiss on the top of my head. We sat there for a few moments breathing each other's scents. After a little while Tommy scoffed suddenly.

"Well it looks like my time is up?" He says smiling but slightly annoyed.

I looked at him confused until I caught a scent on the other side of my bedroom door. One of my other mates was here.

"I'll let him come in. I'll see you later ok?" He says leaving one last gentle kiss to my lips.

He walked over to the door and opened it roughly.

"You can stop pacing now. Go ahead." He says turning and smiling at me one last time before walking past his friend.

Eli stood nervously right outside the door glancing at me and then at the floor several times.

"It's ok, you can come in!" I tell him gently.

He lets out a sigh of relief and steps in closing the door behind him.

"Hey." He says simply standing awkwardly in front of me.

As much as I was freaking out about this whole situation, the urge to ease his mind was stronger. He was clearly nervous and unsure of what he is allowed to do. I was sure he wanted to be closer to me, to even touch me but he still respected that I was Tommy's mate. All I could do was laugh a little and move toward him.

"Hey, you are my mate too. It's ok." I tell him taking his hand and leading him to sit with me on my bed.

He shuffled several times moving closer than further away from me. I had never seen him so uneasy before, it was actually endearing. He was not trying anything without me being ready, but I could tell he was holding back too much. It felt so strange that this didn't feel weird, being alone with him. In fact, as I looked at him, I wanted to touch him too. Being alone with him felt nice and his scent had this deep warmth to it. If I didn't make the first move, he would be too nervous too. So that's what I did.

I reached over to him turning his face toward me and without hesitating, I leaned in a softly kissed him. He froze and after a few short moments I pulled away and looked at him to see how he was feeling. He was blushing hard and my heart melted for him then and there.

"Wow...." He said releasing a breath he had been holding since our lips met. "Y-you kissed me."

"Yeah I did, it didn't seem like you were going to and if we keep acting like this it will always be awkward for us. To move forward someone had to make the first move." I tell him smiling.

His look of surprise melts into a blushing smile.

"Sorry, this is just strange. We have spent time together before but now...it feels different and I guess I'm not sure how to act with you. I am feeling so many things and I don't want you to feel uncomfortable." He says sweetly.

He was being really sweet with me, and I appreciated that, but I wanted him to feel comfortable being affectionate with me if he wanted to.

"Eli, this situation is strange and I am sorry you have to deal with it but I am your mate too and you can treat me like I am. Whatever you are feeling is ok, I promise and if I do feel uncomfortable at any time I will tell you. Ok?" I ask him.

"Ok. I have really wanted to kiss you since we found out, but I didn't think I should." He admits shyly.

"I know, but you can. You can kiss me if you want to, and I am completely fine with it." I assure him.

"Can I kiss you again then?" He asks with a small smirk and a slight eyes brown raise.

Oh boy the wolf has been released.