Chapter 36

(Maya POV)

Cold....

Darkness and cold....

Distant voice....."Yes alpha, we have obtained the girl, but we have not crossed the border yet. We are waiting for the right time so we can go through undetected."

Who's voice is that?

Where am I?

HELP!!! CAN ANYONE HEAR ME??

Why can I not talk?

'They injected you with some kind of nerve agent, your body is frozen in place.' My wolf says.

I groan and try to move my body, but it seems like what my wolf says is true. My body is stiff and numb, immobile.

'Where are we?' I ask my wolf.

'I don't know. They must have something covering your eyes, but I do smell something.' She replies

'What?' I ask her.

'Water and metal. It's unusual combination, and a little confusing.' She says.

"Hello?" I say with a trembling voice into what looks like vast darkness to me.

"Quiet!" I loud voice screams at me making me want to hide but I still can't move.

"Who are you? What do you want with me?!" I yell trying to sound unafraid.

"I said shut up!" The voice says and the sound of a loud slap rings out and a slight stinging pain erupts on my face.

"We will need to tape her mouth before we move her again!" Another male voice rang out in the darkness startling me.

My breaths were shaky, and I felt myself wanting to cry but I was too scared to. Ever sound I heard around me would have made me jump if I could move my body. I heard footsteps on the ground coming toward me and a sticky substance was placed on my mouth which must have been the tape. Now I was blind, mute, and paralyzed. This had to be one of the worst feelings I have ever felt! To be void of almost all control with only two senses at my disposal.

I could hear my wolf muttering to herself, and I assumed she was trying to figure out a way for us to escape. I hope she was because fear was all I could feel, and it was making thoughts difficult to put together.


(Noah POV)

I hurt her. I said terrible things to her, and now those could be the last words she ever heard from me. She made my mind go crazy since the moment I realized she was my mate! It actually didn't bother me that she was also mates with Tommy and Eli, we were raised together and we're as close as brothers and I trusted them with my life. I didn't want a mate because I didn't want to love someone again. Loving someone only hurts you once they are lost. My mother had died when I was a young pup, and she was the last person I ever loved. A few months later my father died of heart break, and the alpha and Luna took me in. I owed them for everything they had done for me, so I made a promise that I would protect Tommy with my life.

They had told me that they thought of me like their own son and wanted me to find happiness one day, that I need to have a life of my own. I didn't want that, because if I took someone into my heart again that was just one more person in my life I could lose forever. So, I was determined never to find my mate or even search for them, because I would not love them. Then there was my mate, looking right at me with her beautiful eyes.

When I felt the mate bond pulling me toward her, I almost went to her and wrapped my arms around her. If Tommy hadn't been holding her I might have, but Tommy holding her gave me time to return to my senses but mostly I felt panicked. I knew she felt the bond from the way she looked at me and Eli. Then in the car to the pack house I slipped and showed my concern for her, which must have given her the idea that I was accepting her. Every moment I was in the same room with her I wanted to reach out and hold her, it was the most frustrating sensation I had ever felt.

The pull was so strong, and I felt my anger at how weak I felt was building more and more. So when she asked to see me I had to make it clear that I would not take her as my mate, not fully. My heart broke when I saw how hurt she looked after she heard my words. When I returned to my room I could feel my chest tightening and I felt like I couldn't breathe. My eyes stung as tears forced their way down my face, my emotions were erratic, and I felt like I was losing control. I hated being mated!

I hated that I wanted to be near her, to hug her and kiss her and....

This was horrible!

Seeing how hurt she would look when she saw me made my heart ache. Now it seemed like she wasn't even trying to look at me, she was trying to respect my wishes but that only made me mad. I wanted her to want me, but then I was pushing her away! This was a mess and I found myself following her to her class and forgetting everything. I stood outside listening to the sound of her heart, it was calming and for some reason I felt at peace to know it was strong and she was alive.

Before the class even finishes I heard the door open and saw her rushing toward the bathroom, her heart was racing and mine soon matched it. What was wrong with her? I followed her to the bathroom and waited and listened, her heart rate was erratic. Something was wrong, and after she didn't come out for a while I couldn't wait. I walked in and I saw her eyes flutter shut and her body turned limp and she was falling to the ground. I rushed to her and caught her, pulling her close to me.

She had fainted and I was terrified! What was wrong with her? Why was she unwell? I looked down and examined her soft glowing skin. She really was beautiful, and I wanted to kiss her soft pink lips so badly, but I couldn't. There was this warmth and tingling all over me as I held her and soon she was moving closer and nuzzling into my chest. It felt so right to hold her like this, and I didn't want to let her go ever!

Not long after she had woken up and panicked! I sensed her feelings of guilt, since she realized she had gotten close to me. She moved away and apologized and started saying she didn't want me here or even need me. I felt my anger build at those words, she was pushing me away. Then I remind myself that I had pushed her away first and she was only trying to respect my wishes. I loved her for that. Even though she was hurt by me, she wanted to make sure I was happy even if that meant staying away from me.

I barely hear any of the words she says, because she is just so damn pretty! I need to tell her the truth. Everything I said before, I didn't mean them. I want her, I want to be with her! She was watching me closely and soon her arms were wrapped around me and she was hugging me. My stomach flipped at the sensation of her touching me; I had never let any girl near me in this way. Even if I had, I am sure it would never feel like how I felt having Maya's arms around me. This felt amazing and I can't help the apology that slips from my mouth, but she stiffens suddenly. She is pulling away from me...no come back!

She looks sad again and is apologizing again! What happened? Why is she sad? I watch her and I understand, she thinks I am upset with her actions but it's the opposite! I loved it! Before I can explain she is rushing past me out the door, and soon I lose sight of her in the flood of students leaving class. What have I done? Why did I say all those things to her that day? Now she rethinks I hate her, when in truth I fall for her every time I see her.

Now Emily is panicking saying that my mate is gone! My mate who I had hurt and pushed away is now in danger not knowing how I really feel about her. Does she think that I would not look for her? Does she wonder if anyone will come for her? Is she in pain? Is she alive???

Yes, she was still alive! Because is she was dead I would know, we all would know. Especially Eli and Tommy because their bond with her is stronger since they are fully mated to her. Why had I done this? I should have mated with her, so I could send her better! I was such an idiot! I was stupid and selfish! I needed to find her and tell her that I lied. I do want her, so much!

"What do we do?" Emily asks panicking.

"Just calm down ok? I will call my dad and tell him that she is missing. We need to secure the entire border so they people who took her can't take her out of the territory and then we begin searching." Tommy says firmly.

I could see he was hurting so badly, but he had alpha blood and that part of him was helping him focus and relay instructions. Eli was not hiding his feelings and was close to crying out. He had dropped to the ground clenching his shirt near his chest choking down his cries trying to control himself, but he looked broken. I was remaining u effected on the outside, with a straight face but inside I was panicking, and my mind was filled with worry.

If I had just kept holding her in that bathroom and told her the truth, then walked her back to class she would have been safe. I had let her warmth surround me and now the thing I feared most was happening.

I opened my heart for her and now she was gone....