Chapter 32

"So, have you talked to Tommy about what happened yesterday?" Emily asks me.

She had come to my room the next morning to check up on me. I had tried to forget about the strange moment with the little boy and focus on my more pressing situation, but I should have known that I couldn't just avoid it.

"No, I mean what is there to talk about. We don't really know what happened." I tell her trying to avoid her concerned look.

"Maybe, but it could be something serious Maya. Or you know something completely awesome!" She said excitedly.

I had not expected her to say that and I looked at her on surprise that only made her break out with a laugh.

"Sorry, but if you did what I think you did...you are like some kind of super wolf." She says happily.

We had not known each other long but this side of her seemed so unusual. I had only seen her professional side, but we had started crossing that line the more we saw each other. I guess we were becoming friends, and she was letting herself be freer around me. Hearing her laugh made it hard to resist my own ringing out.

"A super wolf?! Like some kind of superhero?" I ask her teasingly.

"That would be so crazy awesome! I have never heard of wolves having such abilities. I mean outside of like our normal wolfy stuff." She said sitting closer to me.

"Wow Emily you are such a dork!" I tell her smiling.

"Definitely but it's part of my charm. Anyway...I need to ask..." She gives me a weird look now.

"Ask what?" I ask confused.

"How are they?" She asks wiggling her eyebrows.

"Huh?" It wasn't clicking exactly what she was asking.

"Well you have 3 mates so, like how are they...you know...in bed!" She whispered the last part and blushed slightly.

"Oh my God! I am not talking to you about this!" I say feeling mortified.

"Oh, come on! You have three of the hottest wolves in our pack as your mates! I am insanely jealous and sadly single. I need details!" She says giggling.

Oh god.

"I am not giving details, but..." I trail off feeling completely embarrassed.

"What?! Come on you can't just start and then give me nothing! Spill!" She urges.

"Ok, ok! Well I mated with Eli yesterday...before dinner." I almost mumble.

"What?! Oh man! You didn't waste any time!" She says slapping my arm.

"Ok, ouch! And it just happened, ok? I guess the mate pull was stronger than I realized." I admitted before hiding my face in my hands.

"Wow I am so jealous. Eli is soooo hot! I mean Tommy is too! Damn how did you get so lucky to have them both?!" She says whining.

This was actually a side of her I could grow to like. Annie was a great friend, but she was shyer and we didn't talk too much about boys and thing like that. So, it was nice to have a friend who was happy to talk about these things.

"So, wait, what about Noah? Have you mated with him yet?" She asks turning more serious.

"No not yet. I actually haven't even really seen him since we found out. We shared a sweet moment on the way here but nothing since then. I mean we never really spent any time together. He was always kind of off to the side, he never talked much. Also, he seems so serious most of the time, that moment we had took me kind of by surprise." I tell her.

"Yeah Noah is more business. He helps Tommy with a lot of difficult pack things and tries to keep Tommy on schedule with his duties when he had them. He keeps to himself mostly and doesn't socialize unless absolutely necessary. So that doesn't surprise me much. He even said before that he didn't plan on looking for his mate. He never even talked about looking forward to having a mate. I figured he probably didn't even want one." She says but realizes that it might hurt my feelings hearing those words.

"I guess he must be really disappointed that I am his mate then. I just dropped in a ruined his peaceful life." I say before she can take back her words, feeling my chest tighten.

"Oh no Maya, you are the sweetest and strongest woman I know. He should feel honored that you are his mate." She says rubbing my back.

"It's fine, I understand. I didn't plan on chasing after him or anything. I just hope he doesn't hurt himself just so he doesn't have to be near me." I tell her keeping my head down.

I wanted to cry, I hated that I had messed up so many lives. Here Noah was perfectly happy with his role in the pack, his life was uncomplicated. Then I showed up and detailed his whole life. I would be surprised if he wasn't mad or resentful toward me.

"Give it some time. I am sure he will come around when he is ready. He will start to feel the urge to be near you soon and it will only grow if you are here near him and you guys do not bond. As much as he may not be happy about it, you are his mate and he needs you." She tells me. "Maybe you guys should sit and talk this through and see where he stands with everything."

"Yeah, we should. Actually, I don't even have his number." I admit.

"I'll send him a message and ask him to come see you." She says pulling out her phone and typing out a quick text.

We wait in silence for a few moments before a reply came in.

"He said he will head over now. I'll go so you guys can be alone, and don't worry. You guys will figure this out." She says taking me into a hug.

I hug her back and feel some of my panic easing up.

"Come see me after he leaves and tell me everything, ok?" She says giving me two thumbs up and rushing out of my room.

I say I silence now, and my hands were starting to sweat. It has been a while that I felt this nervous. I had no idea what to expect. Noah was pretty much a complete mystery to me! I had no idea what he was thinking or if he even cared that I was his mate. The moments waiting for him felt like years as my heart only raced faster. About 10 minutes passed since Emily left and a knock came at the door startling me.

"Coming!" I yell standing and doing my best to breath normally.

I step up to the door and let out one more deep breath before opening the door to Noah standing in front of me.

"Hi." I say softly looking up at him.

He was at least a good foot taller than me, and like Tommy and Eli he was muscular but slightly slimmer. His dirty blonde hair was arranged in a purposefully messy way and he wore a dark button up shirt and black jeans. He looked really handsome and I couldn't help but blush when I realized I had been staring and not letting him in.

"Can I come in?" He asked simply shaking me from my thoughts.

"Oh yeah sure! Sorry, come in!" I say slightly panicking.

He steps in and takes a seat on the chair sitting a respectable distance from my bed where I decided to sit.

"So why did you want to see me?" He asks.

He seemed cold and distant as soon as he saw me. That moment in the car must have been a onetime thing, because the man in front of me looked annoyed.

"Oh, well I thought we should talk a little. You know now that we are mates, I guess I was wondering how you felt about it." I say trying to stop my voice from trembling.

"There isn't much to talk about. We are mates. It's that simple." He says.

"Yes, but..." I begin before he cuts me off.

"Look Maya, I never wanted to find my mate. I don't need one. I have enough going on and I am happy to help Tommy. This wasn't something I hoped for or even planned on looking for. Now that I have found my mate, I don't plan on changing my mind. We are mates but that doesn't mean we need to be together." He says without hesitation.

"Oh ok. Well if that is what you want." I say softly.

"Yes, it's what I want. Now I accept that we are mates and I will help protect you if need be, but beyond that we don't need to be anything more." He says standing and turning toward the door.

I felt like a truck had just hit me at 100 miles per hour.

Noah didn't want me.