I Don't want to be here
I had another training session with the witch Elara today. Though I didn't particularly enjoy it, I was stuck with it. Christie assisted me in getting dressed, she cleaned my chamber and arranged the bedding. Even though she gently adjusted my attire and braided my hair, her presence was unable to improve my spirits as usual. I was very fond of her and her small jokes but today I didn’t even break loose a smile.
“Do you feel alright, Miss Freda?” Christie enquired, sounding worried. I forced a smile and said, "I'm fine. Just training day." Christie nodded, but deep in her expression I could easily tell she wasn’t buying my excuse.
I went downstairs as soon as I had dressed. Though I was able to smell the breakfast in the dining room, I was not hungry enough to accompany Damien. I tried my best to ignore Damien as I walked past the dining table where he was eating. Damien yelled out, "Good morning, Freda," but I continued to walk with a heavy heart. I was so irritated that I couldn't bear to face him. The study was bigger than I expected but then this was a castle how could I expect so little? As I started my lessons with Elara, the smell of books provided p a little solace. She was rigid, but she was an expert in her field. She discussed the history of the Vulthrun kingdom and vampires nowadays. Elara clarified, "The vampires of Vulthrun have always been fierce and proud. Power and influence have long been a part of our kingdom. Now you are a part of that history. "
I listened, but my thoughts strayed. Right now, I could not give a damn about the past. I just wanted to be anyplace other than this place. I was worn out from training for hours on end. In search of some quiet, I made my way back to the castle. I noticed Damien was waiting for me in the corridor. Damien looked very worried and sad.
"Can we talk, Freda?" He says. I paused and folded my arms. "What's going on now?" With a forceful yet kind tone, Damien remarked, "You've been avoiding me. Why?"
I lost my temper, "I wish I wasn't here. The training is not what I want. All I want is to return home! Damien's countenance became gentler. You are my partner, Freda. It is your destiny to rule Vulthrun as its queen. You will be free to go as you like after it is soon declared to the kingdom. "
I was so frustrated that I just kept staring at him. "Damien, you don't get it! I have no desire to rule over you. All of this is not what I desire. All I want to do is go." Damien's gaze grew serious, and I briefly noticed a glint of rage. "This is the fate that awaits you. There is nothing we can do about it.
"Where did I go wrong? Right from the beginning life has been unfair from being bullied to this. I didn't request this. I never asked to live in your world. Why is everything in life so unfair?”
Damien gave a heavy sigh. "I know you're having trouble, but I'm at a loss for words. We currently live in this reality. "
After saying that, he turned and left. I was left feeling both angry and helpless as I stood there. I ascended to my room, my head aflutter with ideas. I hurled myself onto the bed and shut the door behind me. "How could things have gone so wrong?" With tears hurting my eyes, I whispered to myself. I reflected on my past and the life I had left behind. How did I get here, stranded in this castle with nowhere to go but inside? I was startled by a knock at the door. It was Christie, appearing pitiful.
“I apologise for troubling you, Miss Freda, but there is a visitor down who is adamant about seeing you.”
"Who's that?" I asked, blotting my tears away. "That's Lady Elara," Christie answered back. "She claims it's very important ." With a sigh, I rose from the bed. "Okay, I'll see her."
Lady Elara awaited me when I arrived at the main hall. Her eyes were compassionate, yet her face was serious. "Freda, I've come to give you some advice," she said. “ I understand you are going through a tough moment, but there are methods to turn things around for the better."
With a shaky voice, I responded, "I don't want to be here. I wish to return home. Is that too much to ask?"
Lady Elara appeared contemplative. "I am aware. But it would be prudent for you to become familiar with our ways if you plan to stay. Since information is power, it might be able to assist you in adjusting to your new life in this place.”
"What do you recommend I do?"
Lady Elara advised, "Learn about the roles you will play and the laws of the kingdom. If finding a way out is still your goal, it might help you understand why things are the way they are and give you the tools you need to do so."
I slowly nodded. "All right. I will attempt. " Lady Elara gave me a soft grin.
