Chapter 20

Danny’s POV
“I bet you didn’t think; I would be seeing you this soon?” I say to Isabella; smiling. “To be honest with you Danny; I not surprised Alpha Henry asked me to teach you, to control your emotions. I had to teach Claudia also” she answers.
My eyes went wide; “don’t look so surprised. When I came back from being kidnapped; I wasn’t a very nice person. Not like the lovable oversized walrus, you see before you now” Claudia giggles. “You still have 3 months to go” Isabella laughs at her. “3 months, 1 week and 2 days” “and she is doing a countdown” Bella chuckles. “That’s because Sophia thinks my bladder is a punching bag and I need to pee, 50 times a day.”
“And you should see what she is eating. Pickles with Rocky Road Ice-cream and Corn Chips. Actually, everything she eats is with pickles and corn chips lately” I tell her.
“Oh, the cravings. After I had Jacob; I looked back at what I ate and thought, how could I have possibly eaten those things together. Strawberry yogurt and potato chips was my main craving.” “A Pregnant woman’s appetite, is really weird” I laugh at them.
“Emotions” Isabella states. “Yes, we should get to training my emotions” I announce. “Emotions are a good thing and a bad thing. Expressing your emotions is what helps connect ourselves with others. When you are happy, sad, angry and so forth; we show others what we are feeling. To control your emotions is harder; there are certain techniques we can do to help keep our emotions in check” Isabella explains.
“How do I stop myself from being angry or frustrated?” I ask her. “You can’t stop yourself from feeling your emotions. You can harbour them, to not allow others to sense you are feeling that way” she tells me. “How?” “I believe, you are more equipped to block your emotions, than you think. When you were at the River Moon Pack and James hit you, did you show him, how much he is hurting you?” She asked me. “Hell no” I answer.
“I have a scenario, may I Bella?” Claudia asks; “Sure.” “Joanna! When you were asked to stay in dad’s office to talk with her. You hid, how uncomfortable you were. When we told Jason you were still feeling the effects of what Todd and James put you through, he stated; I would never have guessed” Claudia tells us.
“That was different; we needed to make sure she wasn’t going to tell Todd, I was alive” I inform them. “No, it’s not. You are very capable of holding onto your emotions; when necessary” Isabella tells me. “Then why, when I get frustrated, my Alpha Aura dominates my surroundings; without me even realising it?” I ask her.
“Because that is when you let your guard down the most. The question you should be asking yourself isn’t; how do you not release your aura? But, how do you stop yourself from showing you are frustrated with certain things?” She responds.
“Ok; how do I stop myself from showing I am frustrated?” I ask Isabella. “Claudia, how do you hold back your frustrations?” she asks; and I turn to look at Claudia. “I close my eyes and count to 10; like you told me. It helps me to clear my head” she answers. “I can’t close my eyes. What if I am fighting someone? If I close my eyes; I can’t see where they are or what they are doing” I inform them. “If you are fighting someone; frustration can help you. I wouldn’t supress the frustration, in that scenario” Isabella tells me. I look at Claudia; *“should we tell her?”* I ask through mind link. *“We are going to have to”* she answers.
“What am I missing?” Isabella asks us. “Danny” she calls, raising an eyebrow at me. “We were meant to only talk about the Alpha Aura; but it’s not just that we need to learn how to suppress with my emotions” I answer her. She sits back in her chair and looks at both of us; taking a deep breath, she continues her questions. “What else, do you need to suppress?” she asks, looking confused.
Claudia looks in my direction, placing her hand on my arm. “Bella, you know how I said; Alfie tried to rape me, but Amanda did something and he couldn’t?” she asks her; “yes.” “We now know what that something was; except it was me that did it, not Amanda” she explains.
“And you are able to do something similar?” Isabella asks, taking her focus off of Claudia and placing it on me. “Yes, it was by accident though” I answer her. “Please continue your explanation, Claudia” she says, letting out a breath.
Claudia looks at me, a tear tricked down from her eye; “I’ll tell her” I smile, putting my arm around her. “Claudia used some sort of energy surge from Amanda to throw Alfie away from her. I can use the same energy through our mate bond. I was sparring with Dad yesterday and threw him back; unknowingly. Amanda had to explain what it was” I inform Isabella.
“This information would have been handy before we started this session” Isabella fumes at us. “Now who’s getting frustrated” I laugh at her. She glares at me; “Danny…” she starts to say “Bella, we have been told to keep the energy we get from Amanda, confidential. We figured as it is to do with emotions; it’s the same as our Auras” Claudia interrupts her and Isabella calms down a bit.
“Your frustrations with your aura, is different. You can control the frustration with simple techniques, like counting to 10. Some Alphas, pinch to the bridge of their noses to gain control; gives them time to reign in their emotions, like this” she says, placing her thumb and forefinger to her nose.
“You are able to control your frustrations regarding your aura, Danny. You do, when you have realised you have released your aura accidently. You just need to practice not releasing it in the first place. If you feel like you are getting frustrated with questions or people are not responding how you want them to, do one of these techniques to control yourself. Before you release the aura and if you need to, take charge by releasing it. As for this energy, you get from Amanda; you need all your emotions to be the best fighter you can be. You don’t want to supress them” she explains to us.
“Then how do I stop myself from using it, when I don’t need to?” I ask her. “What were you thinking before you accidently used it on Alpha Henry?” she responds. I think back; playing the sparring match in my head, “I wasn’t frustrated; I was enjoying myself, sparring against Dad. He landed a kick on me and we both bounced backwards and my thought at the time was I want to finish the match; I went in to hit him and he was thrown backwards” I answer her.
“I won’t ask you Claudia, what you were thinking when you threw Alfie away from you. I can predict you were thinking something similar; you needed to get him away from you” Isabella tells us. “And I did; right where it hurt him the most” she giggles. It was good to see her laughing about her ordeal, rather than crying. Isabella thought so too; “it’s good to see you can laugh about it” she says, smiling at her and turning her focus back on me again.
“That thought of finishing the match, what emotions did you have when you went to hit him?” she asks me. I think about it; “I’m not sure, I know I wasn’t angry or frustrated. Happiness and excitement” I tell her. “Two very strong emotions in that situation; fuelled by adrenaline. In Claudia’s case, Anger; even more powerful. No wonder you both released a surge of energy without knowing about it” she explains.
“How do we stop ourselves from using the energy; unless we really need to?” I ask her. “I can’t give you an answer to your question, Danny. I can help you understand your emotions and recognise them. You will need to learn how to harbour the emotions you feel and use them appropriately” she answers.
“We need to be there for one another” Claudia states. “Pardon?” Isabella asks. “We were told, we need to be there for one another, help one another” she elaborates.
“Who told you?” Isabella asks Claudia. “Umm, I can’t tell you” she answers. “Yes, you can; Amanda was able to give us a message from Goddess Selene. She told me to control my emotions and for us to be there for one another” I answer her smiling, as I look at Claudia.
“Claudia, you could have just said Goddess Selene told you. I know Amanda communicates with her. You’ve already told me, she does” she says, pursing he lips. “Sorry; all this confidentiality stuff” she huffs, *“thanks”* she adds through mind link *“We don’t need to tell her how, Amanda was able to give us the message from her”* I smirk.
“It’s fine, Claudia. Goddess Selene is right. The best way for you both to control your emotions is by helping one another” Isabella states. “We will work on it” Claudia says, smiling at her.
“We can call our training session over. I want you to practice holding your frustration back by doing whichever technique you desire to regain control for your Alpha Aura, Danny. In regards to sparring and your physical training. Stick with a punching bag; while you learn how to recognise your emotions when you are fighting others” Isabella tells us.
Claudia grabs my hand as we get out of our chair “Thank Goddess. I need to go pee again” she laughs; letting go of my hand and heading out the door to the toilet. “Danny; protect them” Isabella says, smiling at me. “Always” I smile back at her.