105. Today is the Day

Lilith

“I am just going to see my mom, we are going to go shopping, get some things for the party. You know have lunch just talk and do some mother daughter things. I don’t need to anyone to come with me to the city. Trust me no one will expect me to be with my mother so no one will be watching. Then there is the fact it is freezing outside, and I well be wearing a hat and large coat. No one in the city will even know it is. You don’t have to worry about me, okay. Rob won’t know I am even there.” I told Eric. He didn’t like the idea. But I needed to be alone while I was in the city.

I did plan to do all that with my mother, we had started to form a bond. It was weird and kind of freaked me out, but I liked it at the same time. We had some heart to hearts over the weeks and it seemed to start to bridge the gap between us. I didn’t trust the woman at all, but I was starting to feel some kind of bond with her despite not having it these last 18 years. She wanted to throw me a baby shower. Which surprised me, apparently, she had never had one for me.

She didn’t want that for the triplets. I thought it was interesting she actually seemed excited to have grandchildren. Which was surprising, but I also got it. I had been such a hard pregnancy for her that my birth wrecked her, and she was not able to have any more kids. I think that is why she was excited, to her grandchildren were a second chance in a way. It was so strange to hear her give me advice about babies. She did take care of me as a baby, so she did know things. Though nothing about breastfeeding but about sleep schedules and everything else.

It was until I grew out of the baby stage that she became neglectful, that was when I went into foster care. The strangest thing was she actually had to work to get me back, and she had. I had never even thought of it, but I had been doing a lot of thinking lately and this had popped into my head. I also wanted to know if she knew about me being a shifter and that we exactly existed. She never talked much about the actual rape that resulted in my conception. If she knew it would determine if we could hold the baby shower here at the packhouse.

But the whole day would follow what I planned for Rob and Bowie before I met with her later in the day." Lilith I wish you would take someone with you. If you want, why don’t you ask one of the female shifters it would be less weird if a female went out with you and your mom, than me or Noel”. I stared at him. “Eric I am a big girl, I can go by myself, besides I need to have some private discussions with her, that are personal for her and for me. I don’t want someone intruding on that.” That was true, I didn’t want an audience for that. But I also didn’t want anyone to stop me from seeing Rob. I had to do that alone. Rob said it would have to be just me.

“Lilith, I don’t like this, just let me send Noel with you, your mom has not met him, and he could just watch you from a distance.” I looked at him and put my hands on the sides of his face. “Eric I am going by myself. I do not want Noel or anyone else to watch me. And even if you sent Noel, he wouldn’t be enough. Rob has lots of shifters he controls, and if you send more than Noel it will draw attention.” I pause, I hated doing this, but I needed to be said. “Eric, I do not need your permission to do anything. I love you very much, but you are not in charge of me. I am the Luna we have equal power.” I kissed his cheek.

Then grabbed my oversized purse. I had a change of clothes in there as well as shoes. I had on clothes that would be burned on. There would be no evidence of what I planned to do. I had already stashed what I needed in my car for the actual crime. It was such a low-ball way to kill but it would ensure it would end quickly, and Rob would never expect it. He knew I couldn’t shift; he knew I was pregnant and was slower than usual, carrying three babies. I would be relieved when it was all over.

I would tell Eric everything that happened and what I had done the second I got home. He would be happy, upset I kept this from him, but he would forgive me and be happy we no longer had the threat looming over us. It would be good for everyone in the pack if Rob was gone. His death would be quick, I owed him that. For all his wrong doings he still made me who I was, but Bowie that fucker would die slowly and painfully. I planned to carve him up like a chicken then burn him alive. Kali was giddy in my head at the plan. Eric sighed. “Fine.” I flashed him a smile.

He gave me a very long intense kiss. He was so worried I could see it all over his face as our lips broke apart. This was going to work. I knew I had Rob believing he had to take one of my sons for me. The last conversation I was asking his opinion on where to send the other one. We also were working out a cover story and a way to play it out with Eric, so he thought only one of the babies survived. It had all been a bluff. But me being so worried about them killing each other was always the overwhelming fear I pushed toward Rob. He ate it up, he loved that he thought I was pulling away from Eric.

He was arrogant and that worked in my favor. Not to mention he taught me this game, how to manipulate people into doing what you wanted. I had to admit the lessons came in handy with this whole plan. He would be thrilled to know he created someone who could pull something like this off. But he will have to admire my handy work from the grave. I walked through the snow to my car. I was grateful the pack shoveled the white stuff though. It was passable until you got to the main road. I was taking the truck today, with it being winter I wanted the truck.

I started the car blasting the heat and getting nice and settled. I opened my purse to get my licorice. It didn’t matter that it was early in the morning or that I had just eaten breakfast I wanted sweets. I was now worried about cavities at this point. I was brushing my teeth like four times a day. Eric and Noel both told me shifters don’t get cavities.But, I was only half shifter and couldn’t risk it. I didn’t need my teeth falling out.

I played some music and was singing along. I had made a playlist specifically for this day. I needed to get my head in the right zone. I had to do this, I kind of felt bad about it. I don’t know why but it was a weird feeling. I should be furious and hateful. That had always been my go-to. But something about killing Rob made me feel shitty. I touched my stomach. “You three are making me soft.” It wasn’t just the unsettled feeling I had about killing Rob. It was that I was letting my mom in. I never saw that coming.

But when it came to Bowie, that made me giddy. He was disgusting. Rob only beat me to help with the when I fought my shift that was forced. Which could last hours. Then of course if we trained. But Bowie, he had done it intentionally. He had taken me from my new home that was loving and good. People who cared for me and locked me up. Then had the gall to get himself off in front of me while I writhed in pain for hours and record it. Not to mention the feeding from me. It was disgusting and I hated him. And not just for his abduction.

He had almost killed me years before, and constantly tried to rape me. He deserved a painful death, and I was going to be the one giving him it. I would be the angel of death. I was glad my face would be the last one he saw before he would die. I was the object of his sick twisted obsession. But the last thing he would see was flames coming for him to consume him and drag him to hell where he belonged. “I can’t wait to slice him up. I wish I could shift and bite him like he did to you.” I laughed at Kali’s remark. “But I will have a front room seat to his suffering and that will wonderful.” I snorted at my wolf. “Just remember Lilith to stay focus, with Rob do not hesitate for a second or we will be lost to our mates.”

That was for sure the truth. I had to do this correctly, I couldn’t fail. If Rob knew my plans, he would trap me and never let me go. And with being pregnant there was not much I could do about it. I would not be caged ever again. I again rubbed my stomach and told the triplets “You three boys do not inflict my sympathy and forgiveness you like to give me. In fact, you three need to sleep while you are in there, so I protect you.” I knew talking to them in utero would not actually do anything other than let them hear my voice, but I hoped they did what I asked.